"Gao Zijian, you already knew what happened, right? You already knew why Shi Lei broke up with me, right?" I took a breath and glared at Gao Zijian.
His face was stunned, and he looked at me blankly, neither admitting nor denying.
The temperature at midnight was much colder than during the day. A gust of wind blew in my face, which made me shiver. I looked up at Gao Zijian with a slight hope in my heart.
I would rather he didn't know.
"Xiaojia, what's the use of going to Mei Ting now? Everyone has their own choice, you..."
"Gao Zijian, I guessed right. You have known about Liu Meiting and Shi Lei for a long time. When I found them lying on the same bed, you happened to see me in the suburbs. Now think about it, Amber Villa and Liu Meiting rented
The apartments are basically one in the east and the other in the west. You..." My nose felt a little sour, "It's not a coincidence that you appear there!"
Gao Zijian hurriedly took a step forward, trying to pull me, but I hurriedly backed away and saw his hand hanging in the air. I understood one thing. From the beginning to the end, I was the only one who was kept in the dark.
"Xiaojia, are you telling me that what we said in the park doesn't count?" Gao Zijian stared at me, his voice cold.
I looked at Gao Zijian and didn't know how to answer. My heart seemed to be twisted into a ball and I couldn't figure it out at all.
"Okay," Gao Zijian sighed and said, "I admit that I knew the reason why Lei Zi and Mei Ting were together before you did, but Xiaojia, have you ever thought about it? Many things are your own choices, Lei
It is his choice, no one forces him."
"Gao Zijian, Shi Lei and I have been dating for three years. When he was in the most difficult time, I was not by his side. He said that his only relatives are me and his mother. I always feel that I am the biggest in our love.
Victim, but now, I feel that I was wrong. What makes me sad is that he has been suffering all this silently. What makes me sad is that the person I like now, like others, also hides it from me."
"Xiaojia..."
"You're right, it won't help if I go to Mei Ting, I know." My voice was light, and my hands couldn't help but tremble.
"Xiaojia, now you also know Leizi's difficulties," Gao Zijian looked at me, with a hint of hoarseness in his voice, and continued: "If... you still can't let him go, then what you said in the park
, I can take it back.”
He can take it back! I raised my head and looked at Gao Zijian in surprise, with a hint of disbelief in my eyes.
"Lei Zi and Mei Ting have come to this point. I should bear some responsibility. Now, Lei Zi is willing to turn around and support you with his ability. There is no problem. I will support any decision you make."
The cold wind beside my ears gently brushed my cheek along with Gao Zijian's voice. I felt as if I had been slapped in the face. Life likes to surprise you everywhere. When he gets close, your heart
There is some fear. When you choose to get closer regardless of everything, he tells you that it's okay, you stay with him, and I will support any choice you make.
"Gao Zijian, if I choose to be with Shi Lei, will you still bless me?" I took a deep breath, trying to hear different answers. My eyes fell on Gao Zijian, who had his head lowered, and my heartbeat became faster and faster.
After a few seconds, Gao Zijian raised his head, shrugged and said, "Of course, as long as it's your choice, I support it."
He said it casually, with "it doesn't matter" written all over his face. I thought maybe I didn't know him well enough, so I couldn't see through his casualness at all.
She hugged his thigh and asked, "How can you say that you are tall and handsome and like someone so casually and then take it back again?"
I don't think I can do it.
"Okay, let's do that," I took a deep breath, "You go about your business first, and I'll go upstairs to see him."
I felt that my voice was a little impatient and hoarse. In order to prevent tears from flowing down quickly, I raised my feet and ran directly towards the hospital hall.
Love, sometimes, is really just an exchange of three milliliters of liquid. I'm so pretentious, people are blessing me, why should I cry? He said he knows you, he said he cares about you, and finally, "Take it back"
It's all an understatement, why should I bother?
I leaned against the wall on the right side of the hospital, tears streaming down my face uncontrollably. How could so many things happen in just one day?
I wanted to find someone to talk to, so I looked at the time and saw that it was already one o'clock in the morning. I looked through my address book and didn't know who to call.
I decided to go back to my place first and think about my fucked up life.
The moment I opened the door, I still had a slight fantasy in my heart. Maybe Gao Zijian was at home? Maybe he would say one more word to me? Maybe... all the assumptions were made at the moment I turned on the light.
, became empty.
Gao Zijian was open-minded by nature. He came in a hurry and left in a hurry, without even frowning.
I suddenly felt that it was time for me to leave.
On Monday, I went to work as usual. Early in the morning, I told Durian that I was looking for a house. She looked at me mysteriously and said, "Are you going to live with Da Ben?"
I shook my head and said: "Da Ben is just a p, I want to find something better!"
"Really?" Durian looked at me in surprise, glanced at my computer, and asked, "Looking for someone to share the house with?"
Thinking about what Gao Zijian said last night, I nodded with great certainty.
"It just so happens that my roommate has just moved out. How about we try living together?"
When I was sighing at the unfairness of my fate, I suddenly discovered that God, the old man, had already arranged the God of Luck around me.
Shi Lei sent me two messages, one was a heartfelt apology, and the other said he wanted to see me.
I gritted my teeth and didn't reply.
As for the landlord's number, nothing happened.
The earth is round. Starting from here, one day we will return to the same place. The same seems to be true for Gao Zijian and I. He did not contact me and left more decisively. In this case, I don't have to insist anymore.
Durian said that love is like a tornado, it comes suddenly and leaves suddenly.
She also knew about my situation. I thought she would persuade me to stay or try again, but I didn't expect her to calmly tell me that those who should come can't run away, and those who want to leave can't stay and just let nature take its course.
I listened, so I packed my luggage and loaded it into the moving company's car.
I always feel that I should say something to Gao Zijian, or leave a note. Isn’t that what is shown on TV? But looking at the empty room, I sighed softly and put the key on the coffee table.
He closed the door decisively.
This is a silent farewell, I know.
The community where Durian lives is not far from the company. He can sleep until eight o'clock every morning and has someone to share the water, electricity and gas bills. Not to mention how happy he is.
But why does my heart feel empty?
Just when I was feeling irritable because my life was too peaceful, something inexplicable happened. At 10:30 on Tuesday morning, I was once again invited to the office by my manager, but this time, our team leader was also there.
I heard from the manager that it was because there were some details in the bank deposit journal I handed in to the bank last week. But last week I was busy with tax bills and didn’t interfere with the bank deposit journal at all. I turned around and asked us
The team leader said very calmly: "Xiaojia, it doesn't matter if there is a problem. We will not hold you legally responsible. This is not the first time you have made a mistake at work. No one has to do anything to you."
I was stunned.
The manager seemed to agree with the team leader's statement. After saying a few words, he asked us to come out. In the corridor of the company, I calmly asked the team leader: "I didn't touch the bank deposit journal last week. Did you record it?"
wrong?"
There was no unusual expression on the team leader's face. Instead, he smiled and said, "The matter is over, Xiaojia. It was just a small mistake. Don't take it to heart."
I understood that the team leader deliberately made me take the blame, just because my little mistake last time caused her to deduct the bonus. I took a gentle breath, turned around and walked towards the bathroom.
When my work didn't go well, the team leader had to wear small shoes for me! The more I thought about it, the angrier I became and I couldn't help but cry.
We had lunch with durian. When I told her about this, she didn't show any surprise on her face. Instead, she said calmly: "The workplace is so cruel. She is one level above you and wants to give you some shoes to wear. Then
It’s the simplest.”
Annoyed, I picked up the bread on the table and took two hard bites. I ate too quickly and it got stuck in my throat.
Durian nervously looked for water, but found that we didn't buy it at all. A hand stretched out in front of my eyes, and what he held in his hand was a cup of milk tea.
I drank it regardless, and when I could breathe again, I turned around and thanked you, but the smile froze on my face.
It's Gao Zijian.
Because he was so excited, his fingers suddenly loosened and the milk tea fell. Gao Zijian quickly stretched out his arm and caught the cup just before the milk tea fell to the ground.
"Still so careless."
I didn't want to pay attention to him, turned to look at Durian, and said, "Let's go up first."
Durian looked at me, then at Gao Zijian, and asked: "What should I do with Big Ben Man?"
I glanced at Gao Zijian and said, "He can do whatever he wants. Let's go."
He said it so lightly, why bother to come to me again? If you like playing missing so much, just keep playing!
"Chen Xiaojia..." Gao Zijian's voice rang in my ears, "I just stopped by to see you, there's no need for you to avoid me on purpose, right?"
"Shuai Gao, thank you for your kindness," I turned to look at Gao Zijian, squeezed out a big smile, and said, "Since you have already seen it, I won't give it away, bye!"
"Chen Xiaojia!" Gao Zijian's voice suddenly increased a lot, "I haven't eaten yet!"