I'm leaving. I know that I have brought shame and disgrace on this family. I have no face to face you, my friends, my colleagues, and myself. I can only choose to leave. I'm gone, you can
I want to be quieter, and I also want to reflect on myself. Don’t worry, nothing will happen to me. I made a mistake once, and I won’t do it again. I did something stupid once, and I won’t do it again. I haven’t repaid my parents for their upbringing, and I won’t.
Give up life easily. Sister, help me take care of my parents. One day, I will come back to be filial to my parents and share the worries of my sister. I will spend the rest of my life making up for the harm I caused you. Take care!
Unfilial Daughter: Xia Yu”
Xia Yu left this letter and went on the road alone. She didn't know where she was going. She just wanted to leave this city and this sad place as soon as possible. Xia Yu's heart was numb and her mind was blank. The heavy blow left her
She could no longer feel the pain, and these painful insects would slowly bite her heart in the days to come.
Xia Yu took a train alone for the first time. When she was in college, she always had company to go with her. At that time, Xia Yu was happy. On weekends, she would either be alone with Guo Ruiqiang or go in groups with girls.
When we go to the movies, go shopping, drink cold drinks, or go home on vacation, she is always with her.
Now, Xia Yu is alone. She looks out the window blankly, without thoughts or emotions. She can't see the people around her, nor can she see the changing scenery outside the window.
Xia Yu sat on the train all day and night until the flight attendant came to check the ticket and said that Xia Yu had already passed the station. The flight attendant thought that Xia Yu deliberately evaded the fare and wanted to educate her, but when she saw Xia Yu's stupid look, she just
Without saying anything, Xia Yu paid for her ticket and got off at the next stop.
Xia Yu got off the car and realized that she had arrived in City L. Xia Yu then remembered her pain, shame, and hatred... She sat on the stone bench in the train station square, thinking about everything about her in pain, come and come.
Regular businessmen walked past her and asked her if she wanted accommodation or travel. She sat motionless. Those people walked away from her in disappointment, until a bearded man came over and asked:
"Little sister, are you alone? Do you want to find a job?" Xia Yucai felt scared. She raised her head. It was getting dark. Suddenly, a kind of fear surrounded her. She quickly got up and left the train station. She knew that the train station was always a crowded place.
In a place where fish and dragons are mixed, she wants to find a safer place to live.
It wasn't until nine o'clock in the evening that Xia Yu found a military subdivision guest house and stayed.
She was in the clothing business and asked Xia Yu what she did for a living.
A few days ago, Xia Yu had a good job, a handsome boyfriend, parents and sister who loved her, but now she has nothing. All of this was thanks to Guo Ruiqiang. She hated him to death.
He wished that his entire family would die, and hatred became the only driving force in her life.
The next day, Xia Yu went to look for a job, but Xia Yu ran away from home without any certificates or personal materials. The employers in the job market ignored her at all. She had to look at the recruitment advertisements posted everywhere on the street.
Restaurant waiter, specialty store salesperson, cosmetics salesperson, Xia Yu never thought she would have to do such a job.
Three days later, Xia Yu still hadn't found a satisfactory job. She moved out of the military subdivision guest house and moved into a cheap small inn. The small inn was doing well, with people coming and going, and it was a mess. Someone got drunk that night.
After drinking wine, she banged the table and threw things and got into a fight with the innkeeper. Xia Yu was so frightened that she didn't dare to sleep all night. She decided to find a job that could provide accommodation the next day.
The next day went well. Xia Yu found a job as a hotel waiter, with a trial period of one month and accommodation provided. A girl named Li Dongmei took Xia Yu to see their dormitory. Next to the kitchen, there was a room of about 20 square meters.
They bought some broken tables, chairs, and cardboard boxes, and there was a little open space next to them. The floor was covered with cardboard and mattresses. This was Dongmei's "bed." Xia Yu said in embarrassment: "What? Just live here." Dongmei
Said: "We who come out to work, what good place can we live in? Restaurants usually don't provide us with accommodation. I said it was okay at first, so they agreed to live here. It's great that you are here. I'm scared to be alone."
.Hey, where is your bedding?"
Xia Yu went out and bought the cheapest bedding, and finally had a place to stay. She was also lucky to have Dongmei as her company, otherwise, she would be scared alone.
This restaurant is not big or small. Xia Yu works as a waiter, responsible for ordering dishes, serving dishes, pouring wine, and cleaning up after meals. This job sounds simple, but it is not easy to do. First, you must remember the name of the dish and its price.
There are hundreds of kinds of cold dishes, hot dishes, staple food, soups, and drinks. It is not easy to memorize them. After a meal, you have to clean up the mess. There are a lot of plates and bowls. Especially when guests come and go, you have to stand at all times.
You stand while others sit, and you watch as they eat. In the evening, the guests eat, drink, and sing until eleven or twelve o'clock. At the end of the day, your back is so tired that your back aches.
The first group of guests that Xia Yu welcomed were a group of salaried staff. From what I heard they talked about, which bank they were from. They were eating and drinking with public funds, but it was not a big deal. Maybe they had to work overtime at night and went out for a meal. It was reasonable.
, the older ones among these people often make jokes that are a little bit naughty, but not obscene. The younger ones, especially the girls, just eat quietly and laugh sheepishly after hearing the jokes.
Yu knew it very well. She went over to the young girl in the group and quietly shouted: "Waiter, get a napkin."
Now Xia Yu is the waiter who took the napkin. A girl accidentally touched the tea cup and wet her clothes. Xia Yu quickly took the napkin to help her wipe it, and then stood aside, waiting for everyone to order. One of them was older.
The man in charge of ordering must be a leader. The leader asked the waiter to tell us the special dishes.
Just fold it." Xia Yu smiled awkwardly, but she knew these people didn't mean any harm.
Xia Yu watched these people eating, drinking, and joking. She naturally thought of her past, and then her own pain. She was distracted. When the guests greeted her twice, she didn't hear them. The leader joked: "
Why are you always absent-minded? Are you broken up in love? If you feel bad, you go home to rest. We have to complain to your boss for your service." Xia Yu hurriedly said: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry." Xia Yu forced herself not to stop.
Think about the past.
Naturally, these innocent people did not actually complain to Xia Yu, but the next night, a group of evil men came. These people must have drank at noon, and continued to drink at night. They were still drunk at noon, and even more at night.
It was the wine that caused trouble. Although Xia Yu took care of her very carefully, she still let people find flaws. When Xia Yu poured wine for the guests, she accidentally poured a little bit outside. A drunkard said: "Miss, this wine
But we paid for it, and what do you mean by leaving it outside?"
Xia Yu hurriedly said: "I'm sorry, sir."
"Sorry, how much is it worth? I want you to pay for my wine."
"sorry"
"Otherwise, you can have a drink with me."
"Sorry, I don't know how to drink."
"It's not okay to compensate like this, or to accompany me like that. You are so arrogant, call your boss here."
When the boss came, he knew that these people were causing trouble after drinking too much, but customers are God. The boss gave Xia Yu a severe scolding and gave them a 10% discount on their meals. This settled the matter, but the discount was
It will be deducted from Xia Yu's salary.
The boss left, and Xia Yu still had to bravely serve these drunkards. Xia Yu felt that she had really fallen into hell, and she realized the loneliness and helplessness of facing life alone.
It was almost twelve o'clock when the work was over. When she returned to the dormitory, Xia Yu's tears that she had suppressed all day burst into her eyes. She cried silently, not wanting to make any noise. Dongmei had already gone to bed. Dongmei was a bun maker, so her work ended early.
, it started early, this restaurant served breakfast, Dongmei had to get up to work at around three o'clock in the morning, Xia Yu didn't want to wake her up, she shed tears quietly.
A few days later, one night there were few guests and Xia Yu finished work early. When she returned to the dormitory, Dongmei was still awake. The two of them had a chance to chat for the first time.
Dongmei is a child from a rural area. After graduating from junior high school, she stayed at home for two years and then went out to work. Dongmei said that it would be good for the children in her village to graduate from junior high school. It is not popular to farm now, so they went out to work when the time came.
Most of the girls her age in the village have gone out to work. Dongmei is twenty-one years old and little Xia Yu is one year old, but she has been working outside for two years and looks much older than Xia Yu. Dongmei asked Xia Yu who she was.
It's not like she was in the same situation and ran out because she didn't want to stay in the countryside. Xia Yu didn't say anything, but Dongmei just took it as such.
Xia Yu asked Dongmei if she missed home when she first came out. Dongmei said, of course she did. In fact, she had food and flowers at home. Her parents didn't agree with her coming out, but she wanted to come out and see the world. It was better than staying in the countryside all her life.
Well, I actually regretted it after I came out. I couldn’t eat well, drink well, couldn’t take care of myself, and missed home. But since I came out, I couldn’t go back right away, so I just held on, and gradually I got used to it.
In this strange city, Dongmei gradually became Xia Yu's support. Dongmei had several fellow villagers who often came to see Dongmei. When they had free time, Xia Yu would join them and go shopping together.
Free outdoor movies, these children are happy, simple, and easily satisfied. They can find the most beautiful clothes from cheap street stalls, and then cut them from hundreds of yuan to more than ten yuan, and then look like winners.
, put on the beautiful shirt, looked in the mirror, and felt happy. Xia Yu could also experience a moment of joy mixed in it, but there were too many vicissitudes and pains hidden in her heart that should not belong to the Mood for Love.
In the dead of night, these painful insects would crawl out and slowly bite her heart. These insects reproduced very quickly. Xia Yu's hatred grew with the increase of these insects. Hatred was the pillar of her life.
Several of Dongmei's fellow villagers worked in different restaurants and supermarkets. One day, Huiling reported the news to everyone that the textile factory was recruiting female workers, and the conditions were good. We discussed signing up together, so that we could work together and interact with each other.
There was someone to take care of her and we could play together, so we all signed up together. Xia Yu was about to stay at this hotel for a month. She didn't want to sign up for the textile factory, but she was worried about Dongmei leaving. What would she do?
, so we also signed up together.
Xia Yu and these four happy girls were hired by the factory at the same time. They all resigned from their current jobs at the same time, packed their bags and moved to a new workplace.
Xia Yu was severely deducted from this month's salary and was scolded for breach of contract. Xia Yu was not in the mood to have breakfast, so she set off with everyone. It was about five stops away from the textile factory. Everyone thought that taking the bus
If you don't think so, just walk, you can save a few bucks.
It is a cold winter day. Xia Yu has been away from home for a month and has not earned a penny. She cannot eat well or sleep well all day long. Coupled with the pain in her heart, her body is already very weak.
Yu carried her luggage and walked in the cold wind, and quickly fell behind others. The four girls stopped to wait for her from time to time. Xia Yu really hated that she did not have a good physique.
Xia Yu had never suffered when she was nominated for the gold medal, beautiful university life, and excellent working environment. Now she suddenly walked out of the greenhouse and wandered in the cold wind and rain. Coupled with the heavy trauma in her heart, Xia Yu felt that she was almost going to collapse.
Already.
Xia Yu finally collapsed in the cold wind. Maybe it was only for a moment. Xia Yu opened her eyes and saw a boy's face in a hazy state. He was holding her! Is it Guo Ruiqiang? No? Yes? Anyway, he must be a bad guy, Xia Yu
Yu waved and gave him a slap.
The boy received a slap inexplicably and shouted loudly: "Hey, you are crazy. You fainted on me and I helped you."
The four girls hurriedly said: "Yes, yes, he is here to help you."
Xia Yu knew she had hit the wrong person and was a little overwhelmed, so she whispered: "I'm sorry." The four girls also hurriedly apologized to the boys.
The boy said in annoyance: "Forget it, forget it, I am unlucky today. No wonder everything is not going well. I met a nemesis like you."
The boy left, and the girls sat on the roadside to rest. Dongmei bought Xia Yu a sesame seed cake to eat, saying that he must have fainted because he had not eaten breakfast and was angry with the boss. Xia Yu was very grateful to Dongmei.
Friendship, she gave Dongmei a grateful look and a weak smile, but said nothing. She ate sesame cakes silently. After Xia Yu left home, she spoke very little, and the pain made her speechless.
The girls said, "Why do you still go out to work when you are so weak? Are your parents relieved?"
Mentioning parents and home was a pain for Xia Yu. She smiled silently and did not answer.
The girls were chatting. Huiling mentioned her engaged fiancé in the countryside and asked Xia Yu if she had a boyfriend. Xia Yu's pain almost made her suffocate. She shook her head and said, "I'm much better. Let's go on our way."
When the girls arrived at the textile factory, they were arranged in a dormitory, where they ate, lived and worked together. Xia Yu felt as if she had a destination and felt much more at ease.
But after a week, Xia Yu couldn't stand it anymore. Her job was to sew quilt corners. Xia Yu had never done needlework before.
To support her, she must persevere. However, Xia Yu's persistence was wishful thinking. Due to Xia Yu's low work efficiency, Xia Yu was fired two weeks later.
Xia Yu cried, leaving these four girls, she will once again fall into a lonely and helpless field, find a job, and find a place to live. What Xia Yu is most worried about is the place to live. She has not dared to live alone since she was a child. Let's all work together.
The squad leader asked for help, hoping to keep Xia Yu's bed. The squad leader said that if he fired, he would no longer be able to occupy the bed, but he could move to the dormitory in the building behind. The monthly bed fee was 50 yuan. The dormitory was big and big.
It was a shabby, cold and humid place in Datongpu. There were more than a dozen girls squeezed one after another. It was considered a cheap hotel in a textile factory. Even with such harsh conditions, Xia Yu always felt nervous when she thought of the four girls in the building in front of her.
It is much better than searching for a place to live on your own.
Now that I have a place to live, I have to find a new job.
Xia Yu wandered on the street like a ghost, staring at the recruitment boards on both sides of the road. Xia Yu didn't know what she could do. She almost lost confidence in herself.
Finally, Xia Yu found a job in a fashion store as a waiter to solicit business, which meant standing at the door of the store, clapping her hands vigorously, and shouting: "Welcome," "Pass by, don't miss it," "Come on, come on."
In the past, Xia Yu had seen some young girls soliciting business in front of fashion stores. Now she was that girl. She clapped her hands timidly and looked around blankly, feeling that the people passing by looked like monsters.
Looking at her, in fact, no one was paying attention to her, and she couldn't see everything around her clearly. Just like when she was in elementary school, she sang on stage for the first time.
The applause was still ridiculing. She trembled and sang alone on the stage and left the stage as if running away. But after that time, she was no longer afraid of going on stage. She became a member of the school choir.
It was the same this time, Xia Yu slowly saw everything around her clearly, and saw clearly the faces of passers-by, some were silent, some were happy, some were miserable, some were helpless, some were curious, some were warm, all made by Xia Yu's slap.
It was getting louder and louder, and the shouting was getting louder and louder. She seemed to be venting the pain, loneliness and shame that she had suppressed for a long time, and also cheering for herself.
Xia Yu shouted loudly: "Welcome" "Come on, come on"
Xia Yu works hard every day, standing all day, taking pictures and shouting all day, her legs and feet are sore, her hands are red and swollen, and her throat is hoarse. When she returns to the humid dormitory, Xia Yu will fall asleep, but she will be awakened by the sound of mice in the middle of the night.
, this is the time for her to cry. She will think of her parents and that warm home. Will her mother shed tears because she left home? Will her father be angry because she left home? She blames herself. She knows
She has been sorry for her parents, and she must make up for them in the future - her parents whom she loves deeply; she also thinks of the treacherous person who caused her to leave her hometown and wander alone, and she will definitely take revenge - the person she hates the most; towards her parents
Her love and hatred for Guo Ruiqiang are the goals and motivations of her life.
As the New Year is approaching, the business in the fashion store is particularly booming. Xia Yu not only stands at the door clapping her hands and hawking sales, she also helps to take care of customers in the store. Xia Yu works very hard and stays busy until very late every day. Xia Yu
She has successfully worked in the fashion store for a month and received her first month's salary successfully. This is the first time she has earned money since she came out. She has confidence in herself. She must work harder, come on!
come on!
It was getting very late, snowflakes were falling silently, the streets were filled with neon lights, and the shops on the roadside had been busy all day, and now they were quiet. Xia Yu had just gotten off work and was walking on the street, carrying a
Carrying her first month's salary, Xia Yu thought of her parents. She knew that she had hurt her parents and she was sorry for her parents. She wanted to call her parents to say that she was safe, but she was afraid that her father would lose her temper and her mother would cry.
Finally, she dialed her sister's home phone number in the phone booth. She was a little nervous. She was eager and afraid to hear the voices of her relatives.
"Hey, who are you?" It's my sister.
"Sister" Xia Yu burst into tears.
"Xiaoyu? Xiaoyu, where are you? Come home quickly, your parents are so anxious, why are you so stupid, I said that dad only drove you away when he was angry, how could he let you go, he always blamed himself for not driving you away.
Go out. Where are you? No matter where you are, I will pick you up. No matter what happens, come home and talk about it. Where are you? Tell me quickly." My sister was very excited.
"Sister, I didn't run away from home because I was angry with my father. I wanted to leave that city. I called you because I wanted to assure my parents that they were safe and wish them a good year. Sister, let your parents rest assured that I am now
I am living a good life, I can take care of myself, I got my salary today, I am very happy, and when I become successful in the future, I will definitely make it up to my parents."
"No one wants you to compensate, as long as you come back, Xiaoyu, where are you?"
"Sister, please stop asking. I won't go back now. Please help me take care of my parents."
"Xiaoyu——"
Xia Yu hung up the phone, leaned against the phone booth, and cried heartily. The tears contained sadness, longing, relief, hatred, and motivation. After crying, she felt much better and reported to her parents.
With peace of mind, she can no longer let her parents worry about her. She received her first month's salary, which proved that she has the ability to support herself. She will repay her parents in the future and take revenge on Guo Ruiqiang. She has goals and motivation, and she will work towards her