Sometimes we think that we are very special and unusual. Our stories should move the world and our lives should be plated with a golden color. This idea is actually very common, because we Children born around the 1980s are basically single children. Too many self-centered ideas have filled our world view and outlook on life, leading to too much emphasis on our own changes and ignoring the social environment and the surrounding people. Feelings. After falling out of love, I feel that the sky is about to collapse. After experiencing some setbacks, I feel that the world is collapsing. In fact, who do you think you are? In this world, having you more is not more, and having you less is not less. In the vast sea of people, you I'm just a grain of sand. Yes, just a grain of sand, nothing more.
What, you said I was too cruel and said my words too directly? I'm sorry, friend, but this is the thing called the world of mortals - Ronin Pier.
She is mine.
For the first time in my life, I had an idea that was so firm that it was unshakable, and I felt excited because of this idea. I admit that at the moment I had that idea, I was completely enveloped in a self-centered thought. .I completely thought that I had become a savior-like existence of TheOne. I felt that I was Ling’s final destination. I could bring her all the happiness she wanted. I wanted to lead her to break through the shackles and constraints of the past and run towards the brilliant future that belongs to me. .
I can do it.
As a child, I firmly believed this.
In fact, looking back now, it seems that men are really narcissistic and conceited animals. We always think that we are each other's real one, and the girl's past is just a pavement for meeting us. Even if there is If two people can't be together for some reason one day, it's not because we are incompetent, but because they are too cunning. We are always good at thinking about problems from our own perspective and believe that the earth should revolve around us. She spins, thinking that I should be the star in her life, the most dazzling protagonist on her stage. But she has never and is unwilling to think about it: maybe for her, we are just a passerby?
Maybe it’s because the answer to this question is too hard to accept, maybe it’s because we listened to too many love songs for a lifetime during our youthful budding period in the early 1990s, whatever the reason is. Men are arrogant animals when it comes to love. So arrogant that they feel that they are Everything he did for her was right, but he didn't want to think about whether what he did was what she needed most.
Sad men.
In any case, I am not a person who is detached enough to be exempted from the secular world, so at that moment I was still controlled by the extremely inflated self-awareness. For the first time in my life, I had something called the desire to control. What is control? ?Control your own love, control your own future, control Ling's happiness.
I firmly believe I can, at least at that time.
It was many years later that I realized that love and fate were beyond my control. At that time, I deeply understood the meaning of a sentence: Causes are determined by nature, and destiny is determined by man.
Let’s get back to the story. At that time, under the glow of the morning glow and the blowing of the mountain breeze, I looked at the sad Ling, and secretly made a decision in my heart: I don’t want her to live in the past anymore. And sad, but to let her smile to welcome the sunshine of tomorrow. I did not appear in her past to show my care, but I can bring her my love tomorrow!
I love her.
The shouts of the boss and others in the distance interrupted the moment of silence between Ling and I. The sun had come out and we were going down the mountain.
As the saying goes, it is easier to go up the mountain than it is to go down the mountain. The mountain road that is not too steep becomes more difficult and dangerous when going down the mountain. The dew in the morning made the steps going down the mountain wet, making them very slippery. If you are not careful, you will stumble.
Fortunately for us boys, the girls all walked cautiously. Of course we would not let go of such a great opportunity as we had already harbored evil thoughts in our hearts - this was originally one of the purposes of inviting them to climb the mountain.
As expected, Lao Wu was a master. He naturally extended his hand to Xue and successfully succeeded. It seemed that Xue's smooth fall was just around the corner. The boss was originally very interested in Jing, but two consecutive failures left him lacking the will to continue trying.
After regaining his courage, he just shook his head helplessly and walked dejectedly at the end. Qing always had a cold face in front of us, and we fledgling children did not dare to challenge the limit. So only Ling was left.
.
At that time, Ling was holding Jing's arm and Qing and the other two were carefully moving down the mountain. From time to time, the three of them looked at the backs of Xue and Lao Wu, laughed and said something in a low voice. It seemed that they were in a very casual mood.
Let’s talk about the young couple.
Intentionally or unintentionally, I glanced at the second child and found that he was also looking at Ling's back eagerly. I sighed secretly in my heart, because I found that as my love for Ling deepened, the second child had become
An existence that I cannot ignore.
"Maybe one day, the second child and I will not be brothers." This thought made me sad.
In such an inadvertent moment, the second child rushed up and was rejected without any surprise. Seeing him come back dejected, the fourth child and the eldest child both smiled and greeted him. It was quite a bit of a gorilla pity.
The taste of an orangutan. Of course I didn't fall behind, but I laughed at the second child's failure and tried to relieve my self-blame for my weakness by laughing at him. I am really a very ridiculous person.
I don’t know why, but I always felt that when my second brother passed by, he glanced at me quietly. But I quickly ignored the past and devoted myself to the cause of laughing at my second brother’s failure with 120,000 enthusiasm.
Hit.
The second child's surname is Zou, and he is from Huaiyin, Jiangsu Province. Although he is tall and thin, he always walks with his back straight, so he can still give people a very energetic feeling. But he cannot smile.
Because he looks very honest when he smiles, it makes people feel that this person is very kind and easy to bully.
I still remember the first time I saw him. At that time, I had just arrived in the dormitory and was making my bed and saluting. He just opened the door quietly and walked into the room quietly, and then
He suddenly said: "Hello!" I was so frightened that I almost fell off the top bunk and broke out in a cold sweat. Just when I was about to complain, the second child touched his head and then smiled sheepishly. I looked at him.
The way he smiled made me laugh too. At that time, I felt that the person in front of me and I could be friends.
The second child likes his hometown very much, and he often says: "We live in Huaiyin...", and then soon the Anhui dialect comes out. After a few cracklings, he realizes that we have all heard it and stared at him.
At this time, he would touch his head again and say sheepishly: "Hey, I'm used to speaking my hometown dialect, so I can't speak Mandarin well."
In our dormitory, he and the eldest brother were born in 1979, so he also shouldered the responsibility of the big brother. Usually when the water and electricity were broken, he would always say I will do it, and then he would keep running to find it.
Housekeeper, until the problem is solved.
The second child is a steady and kind person, with a maturity that is not commensurate with his age. I once thought that I would always be brothers with him.
But at that time, I made fun of his failure without sympathy. In fact, now that I think about it, I should have made fun of myself, because I didn't dare at that time.
I didn't dare to step forward and extend my hand to the bell like the second child, although I wanted to, like crazy. But I was afraid of failure.
Although I encouraged myself countless times in my heart and imagined the scene where Ling accidentally stumbled and I could hold her smoothly, I still didn't dare to take that step and extend my hand to her.
A giant in thought, a dwarf in action.
In fact, I am still such a person to this day. For example, I often imagine how I will spend 5 million one day. How much will I spend to buy a car, how much to buy a house, how much to invest, etc. The plan is well organized.
.However, I have never thought about how I can earn 5 million.
Is it just a matter of buying lottery tickets?
So in fact, you can have countless unrealistic dreams as a person. These are all OK and are not called daydreams. As long as you have a plan to realize these seemingly unrealistic things one day and are willing to pay for it.
If you work hard, then these things are not empty talk. At the beginning, these goals are far away, but when you break down these goals one by one and realize them one by one, you will find that the original dream is within your reach. This kind of
It feels actually wonderful.
There is an old saying: Thousands of sails pass by the sinking boat, and thousands of trees spring in front of the diseased tree. That is to say, do not attribute the reason for success or failure to opportunity or luck. Opportunities are equal to everyone, and what you fail is just that you did not put in enough effort.
That's all.
Only after doing your best can you be qualified to obey the destiny.
Yes, you should do your best and obey fate. Only after hard work can you gain something. I didn't put in my efforts, so at that moment, I could only cover up my cowardice and cowardice like a coward by laughing at my dick, and said it deliberately
Very loudly, so that I can care about Ling's reaction to her occasional witty remarks like a villain from time to time.
However, Ling didn't pay any attention to this as if she suddenly went deaf. She still just held Jing's arm and walked slowly down the mountain, whispering something to Jing from time to time.
Even Jing, who was always out of touch, seemed not to hear the noise on our side and just walked quietly.
So all of a sudden, I felt that what I was doing was boring and boring. I was like a frustrated clown who after working hard for a long time only to find that the audience didn't respond at all. This feeling of frustration came over me overwhelmingly,
I had no intention of continuing to spend time with my second son. So I patted my second son on the shoulder, lit a cigarette for him, and walked away silently.
The second child didn't notice my change, but just expressed his gratitude to me for letting him go, and then started to deal with the ridicule of the boss and others.
Lao Wu and Xue no longer knew where they were going. I walked in front of Lao Er and the others. In front of me was Ling's back, which was very pretty and touching under the bathing sun.
Yes, I love this girl.
But I don’t know how to express my love, I don’t know how to chase girls, and I don’t even have the courage to tell Ling what I feel in a more straightforward way.
Will I always be able to watch her quietly from behind? I looked at Ling's pretty back and thought sadly.