The snowflakes were falling one by one, but I couldn't feel the beauty at this time.
When I was five years old, I was running around in the snow. I had just run away from the place that everyone called "home". There was no freedom and no joy there. I was like a imprisoned bird. I cried and shouted.
Then, the fear in my heart and the bad weather made me feel at a loss.
At the age of five, I had long learned to cry alone, had long been accustomed to feeling lonely, and had long adapted to an empty room. At this time, the gently dancing snowflakes made me forget the concepts of time and space. I only knew that I needed my own space.
We need the care of our parents, but where are they at this time?
"Don't cry, it's very cold here, you will freeze to death!"
I raised my long-sunken head in surprise, and a vague figure came into view. It was a child about the same age as me. He handed me his hand, and I took it. Suddenly I felt so warm, and then it took a lot of effort.
stood up.
"Come with me, I'll take you to a good place," he looked at me with expectant eyes, "Okay?"
I looked at him blankly and hesitated for a moment. Perhaps it was an instinctive alertness that made me not know how to decide.
"Trust me, I won't lie to you, let's go."
"Yeah!" Looking at his lake-like clear eyes, I grabbed his hand again.
Then I started running after him, and I didn't know how long I ran, as if we were escaping from a war.
Finally he took me into a wooden house. I was so exhausted that I fell on the ground and fell asleep.
When I opened my eyes, I found that he had been staying next to me
"elder brother."
"What did you call me?"
"Brother, where is this?"
"Hey, this is my secret base," he looked at me innocently and put his index finger to his mouth, "Shh... this is our secret, don't tell others, okay?"
"Yeah!" I nodded and leaned against the wall.
"It's so cold, what are you doing alone in the snow?"
"I'm looking for a place of my own, and they all locked me up..." I finally let go of the tears in my stomach.
"Don't cry, don't cry. Brother, will you stay with me? Don't be afraid!"
He handed me the handkerchief in his pocket. I wiped away my tears and nodded.
"Why are you so nice to me?"
"Because I am a boy, and my mother said that boys should not bully girls."
"Did your mother say that? She loves you very much, right?" When I look at children who are loved by their parents, I always have envious eyes.
"I...my mother is gone."
"Ah? I'm sorry, I didn't mean it." I didn't realize that he was in the same situation as me, "Aren't you sad?"
"What's the use of being sad? Boys are not allowed to cry. Remember, if you cry in the future, I promise you that I will always be with you in the future, okay?"
"Well, brother, is it true?"
"Of course it's true."
He took off his coat and put it on me, and I fell asleep unconsciously. That night, I had a good and sweet dream, and I was still laughing when I woke up the next morning.
"Rongrong, get up and eat!"
I rubbed my eyes and found him next to me. There were a few fruits on the ground. These must have been secretly hidden by him before. Otherwise, why would this place be called a secret base? I picked up the fruits and smelled them. For the first time,
I found that the fruit was very fragrant, so I gently put it to my mouth. Just as I was about to open my mouth, I closed it again.
"Brother, eat it too!"
"I won't eat, you can eat!" He turned his head away.
"oh……"
After eating the fruits, we set out on the road. The snow was heavy and deep. We supported each other and walked hard in the snow. We sat down to rest from time to time.
I heard my brother's stomach growling. I knew he was hungry, but he didn't say anything.
"Brother," I put my hand into my clothes with difficulty and took it out again, holding in my hand two fruits that I had secretly left behind, "I know you are hungry, so I'll give this to you."
He bit his lip gently, picked up a fruit, and ate it slowly, staring blankly into the distance. I watched him eating the fruit with great joy.
After several days of travel, I was almost exhausted. I asked him: "Brother, do you think we will really find a place of our own?"
"It will definitely happen. As long as we don't give up, anything will come true. Trust me."
I just nodded slightly.
After passing through patches of white snow, I felt a little dizzy. Walking through such an unmarked place, where would we go? Finally, we came to a place that seemed very familiar, the place I had once been afraid of.
The land. I know that this is my former "home".
My "mother-in-law" who usually watched me ran out of the house said, "Oh, my little ancestor, you are finally back, but I am so anxious!"
I don’t know why, but at that time, my tears suddenly flowed down, and it seemed to be a complete despair. I sat on the ground for a while, and this time I didn’t cry loudly, just silently...
"Rongrong, Rongrong, don't cry, Rongrong, Rongrong..." He squatted down and patted me.
"Aolong, why are you making such nonsense?! Bring the lady into the house quickly!"
It's not surprising that she calls me "Miss". In fact, she and the people here are very good to me, but somehow, I always feel that this kind of "love" seems a bit excessive and makes me feel uncomfortable.
Just like that, we were taken into the house by our "mother-in-law", who kept nagging me. I don't know how she knew my brother.
But I knew that the next day, my brother would be sent away by his "mother-in-law", and I also knew that he was going to another place that belonged to others, but had to stay, just like me. In the middle of the night, I crawled out of bed
I got up, sneaked outside, sat on the snow, and watched the snowflakes flying all over the sky, crystal clear and really beautiful.
"Rong Rong, don't be too sad, okay? Didn't you promise me not to cry in the future? I won't be gone for a long time!"
"But……"
"Okay, let's go inside, it's cold outside."
"oh……"
I followed him into the house, but I didn't fall asleep for the rest of the night. I was afraid of missing the time to see him off the next morning. However, at that moment, I still didn't have the courage to walk out of the house. I was afraid that I would cry in front of Brother Aolong.
I stood by the window, staring blankly at his leaving figure, with tears streaming down my face. He kept looking back, but he never saw me.
"You can leave, but don't forget me." I closed my eyes and kept repeating this sentence in my heart, stupidly hoping that he could hear it.
I didn't sleep well that night.
"Dong dong dong"
"Who is it? Who's knocking on the window?"
"Rong Rong!"
"ah!"
I jumped out of bed and ran out of the house.
"Brother Aolong, why are you back?"
"Shhh... don't let others hear me. Let me tell you that we don't live very far away. When I have time, I will sneak out. When you have time, you must remember to wait for me at the river next to you.
, please don’t forget me, okay?”
"Um!"
"This is our secret, don't tell others."
I nodded. I will keep every secret we have, including that secret base.
Then he ran away. He looked back, and I watched him gradually walk away, not wanting to leave my eyes.
The next morning, I ran to the river, sat on a stone, and looked at the place where Brother Aolong left last night. I believed that he would reappear in that place. But I waited until night.
"Rongrong, I'm sorry, I..."
"Don't say sorry to me, you will always be my best and best brother."
He nodded and smiled.
We sat together by the river and patted the water with our feet.
"Rongrong, what do you like best?"
"Me? I...I like lavender shells."
"Lilac shell?"
"Yes, very beautiful."
"Have you seen it?"
"No, but I think it would be beautiful."
"..." Brother Aolong was silent for a while.
"Then what do you like, brother?"
"I...I like snow, it's very beautiful snow."
He turned his head and asked me: "Rongrong, when we grow up, can you be my bride?"
"What is a bride?" I was a little confused.
"I don't know either, but I heard that we can be together forever."
"Okay, then you must remember me firmly."
"Well, let's high-five each other, okay?"
"OK!"
We clapped our hands, and the sound was firmly imprinted in our hearts.
"Then you have to promise me that you won't cry all the time in the future. Girls won't be pretty if they cry all the time."
"Um!"
"Also, we agreed that I would always be with you, right?" He raised his head and asked me.
"Yes! It won't change for a hundred years."
"How long is a hundred years?"
"I don't know. Anyway, it will be a long, long, long time."
"Okay, it's settled!"
He looked at the sky and said, "It's getting late. I should go back. You should go back too."
"Remember not to keep me waiting too long tomorrow, I will be angry."
"I know, goodbye!" He ran away among the snowflakes. From then on, I fell in love with snow.
The next day, I waited for a long time, but he didn't come. I was very angry, but I didn't cry. I sat on the stone alone, thinking about our agreement yesterday, picked up a stone, and threw it into the river.
"Huh! Liar!", and then ran away. I never waited by the river again. When I was alone, I always looked at the river in a daze from the window. When I understood that I would never find my own in this life.
When we were there, I also believed that he would never come back. I didn’t know what happened, but I knew that he was not a liar. I once foolishly folded a lot of paper airplanes and wrote on them: "Brother,
Come back soon, Rongrong misses you so much." Then he threw them out the window. I watched them being knocked down by the rain, and when they were blown by the cold wind, they would be spread out on the ground, like a pile of mud.
"Then you have to promise me that you won't cry all the time in the future. Girls will lose their beauty if they cry all the time."
"Um!"
"Also, we agreed that I would always be with you, right?" He raised his head and asked me.
"Yes! It won't change for a hundred years."
"How long is a hundred years?"
"I don't know. Anyway, it will be a long, long, long time."
"good!"
The words he once said echoed in my mind, and I was determined to be a girl who would not cry for him.
When I was fifteen years old, I liked the snow even more. I liked taking melancholy walks alone, and I also learned my secret.
I have lived in this strange place since I was a child. The scenery is beautiful and there is no night. My "mother-in-law" told me that this is the "transformation space" and the deepest place in the universe. I don't know when a black fog appeared around it.
So far, no one can figure out what it is, but we know that it will gradually expand until it engulfs all the transformation space. The reason why I am loved by everyone is because I hold up this sky.
The only thing I can do is to prevent this space from disappearing into the universe. My mother once died on that battlefield fighting against darkness. As for that night ten years ago, my brother fell ill. I don’t know, he is now
Have you gotten better? But, I believe that as long as you don’t give up, there will be hope. I will always remember that smiling face...
Inadvertently, I learned from my "mother-in-law" where my brother lived. I also looked for it, but was surprised to find that it was far away from my "home". I finally understood that my brother had traveled a long way that day.
The road led to the river. But now, there were only empty houses left there. I broke off a branch and carved a line of words deeply on the ground:
You said you would stay with me forever, didn't you? I'll wait for you to come back...
Every day from now on, I will run here and wait, just like ten years ago, no matter it rains or winds.
When it thunders, I will also be afraid. I hide in an empty house and dare not come out, but I don’t walk away. I am afraid that when he comes back, he will not find me. In winter, I will try to keep him
Snow, but every time, it melts away. I know that my brother likes snow, but I have no way to make it eternal. Finally, I find that I am stupid. I know that he will never come back.
"Liar! I will never believe you again!" I hit the wall of the house hard with my hand, and I no longer know how painful it was. This was the first time in ten years that my eyes were blurred by tears. There was thunder outside.
, the rumbling thunder shocked me so much.
"Rong Rong, you are really stupid."
I suddenly raised my head: "Is it you? Brother Aolong? Is it really you?"
The room was very dark, I hid in the corner, and the voice didn't appear again. Could it be just an illusion? But I heard bursts of footsteps. At this time, I already knew it was him.
He squatted down next to me.
"Idiot, does your hand hurt?"
I bit my lip and punched him hard, "Humph! Liar, you said you would go to the river, lie to me!"
"I……"
"Why do you want to come back?"
"Because...this..." He took out a very torn piece of paper from his arms, with creases and illegible handwriting on it. I knew that it was the paper airplane on which I tried to place my hope.
"How...do you...have it?"
He smiled, and his smile remained unchanged, still as bright as ever.
He sat next to me and put his coat on me just like he did ten years ago.
"Do you know that I almost died?"
"I……"
"But I still survived, right?"
"Why?"
"Because of that sentence, that agreement..."
"What?"
"What I promised you to do is Brother Aolong, and I will always be with you, right?"
My blood seemed to have solidified, and I hung my hands straight down, staring at him blankly. For ten years, what has not changed is such an agreement that seems insignificant in the eyes of others. But in our hearts, it is
eternal.
That time, I was lying on his lap and crying. He patted me, and something crystal clear was shining in his eyes, more crystal clear than snow. I knew it was tears...
I believe that he will not go away again, and we will always live happily in this changing space. As for my mission, it is a very distant thing. But I was wrong, I forgot the coldness of time and the ruthlessness of fate.
That day, Brother Aolong and I were chatting by the river.
"Rong Rong, would you like to leave here? Go find your 'mother-in-law' now, she is the only one who can help you leave."
"Why? This is my home. I want to live here forever. Where else can I go but here?"
"Go to other planets."
"Other planets?"
"Yes, this place may be reduced to ashes at any time, aren't you afraid?"
"Don't be afraid! I want to learn to be brave, right?"
"But this is different. Be obedient and good. Let's go."
"I……"
"Rumble" A burst of lightning flashed across the sky, as if splitting the world in half. This was the first time I saw black.
"Rong Rong! Let's go quickly."
"Brother Aolong? What's wrong?"
"I can't tell you right now. Just run quickly and go find 'mother-in-law'. If you're too slow, it'll be too late!"
"What about you?"
"Let's run together!"
"Um!"
We ran quickly, but the wind behind us seemed to be chasing us. It was very dark. Every time I fell, Brother Aolong would help me stand up, but this last time, I got up by myself.
"Brother Aolong! Where are you?"
There was no response. I knew that he was behind me, and I also knew that he stayed there on purpose. If he really started running, he would never fall down before me, and that gust of wind would eventually sweep someone away. I
Standing there blankly, motionless, I shouted to the sky: "Brother Aolong, you can leave, but you must not forget me!" I only heard a very loud sound from the horizon, loud enough to make people laugh.
I will remember the voice for the rest of my life: "Rong Rong, do you still remember what I like most? When the snow becomes eternity, I will come back. Remember to never give up..." Remember to never give up? I suddenly sat down on the ground.
, watching the sky brighten a little bit and recover a little bit, it was a heartbreaking pain. In my eyes, the sky is red, the river is red, as red as blood...
I slowly crawled towards the place where he left. There was only a pendant carved from a shell on the ground. It was very delicate. The word "dragon" was deeply engraved on it. I picked it up with trembling hands.
I believe that one day, I will personally return it to Brother Aolong and bring it to him personally.
I found my "mother-in-law" in a daze, and then my eyes felt dark...
When I woke up, my "mother-in-law" was beside me. She looked excited when she saw that I was awake.
"What's wrong with me?" I just felt dizzy and a little bit in pain.
She smiled happily and shook her head. "It's okay. Everything is over."
As if I suddenly realized something, I immediately jumped out of bed and rushed outside the house. I would run to anyone I saw passing by.
"Have you seen my brother Aolong? Have you?"
"No, no," the man glanced at me and ran away immediately, "There are so many crazy people these days!"
"Have you seen my brother Aolong??"
"I don't know, I don't know!"
I know that no one will see him, and perhaps, as time goes by, he will gradually be erased from people's memories, but I know that I will not belong to those people.
All the strength in my body seemed to be gone. I just felt empty in my head, my legs were weak, and I really wanted to sleep.
"It will be fine after a sleep, it will be fine, it will be fine..." I comforted myself like this, even though I also knew that this was deceiving myself.
I didn't listen to Brother Aolong and go to any other planet similar to the earth. I knew it was an elusive place, remote and lonely. I slept alone in the house for three days and three nights, even though I was awake sometimes.
, and I don’t want to get up. I know I’m hopeless like this, but I can’t convince myself.
"Mengrong, don't be like this. Aolong doesn't want you to be like this, right? Don't forget, he left, but he didn't take away hope!"
"Oh, what's the point of talking about this? If the dream is shattered, what hope is there?"
"But you still have to cheer up!"
One word awakens the dreamer.
I suddenly got up from the bed and found that "transformation" actually had some wonderful beauty. I took out the pendant that I had held in my hand for a long time, put it on my neck, held it, and took a deep breath.
I swear, starting from today, I will stand up again, find myself again, and never change.
I closed my eyes, bit my lip, washed myself, put my clothes in order, and stepped out of the door. I looked back at the house I had lived in for fifteen years. It was very old. It had been fifteen years.
Ah, there are so many memories for me here. Even though I am reluctant to leave, I still left. I will not come back. I will not recall these days again. I will never...
I really don’t know where I should go, but I know that "Chanhua" is a big place. The snow has melted and the flowers are blooming. I smell the faint fragrance of flowers and step on the green grass and walk unknowingly.
After passing one city after another, I have seen the sea and the mountains. The only thing I have not seen is the lavender shell. I know that it is a dream, a dream that can never be realized, an illusory dream, a
A dream that will always be hidden in the deepest part of my heart...
——There is no reason to recover the dreams that have passed away, just like the dead are dead, but the living are still alive. Because you once had an agreement, and the end of that agreement is endless eternity...