In fact, I know very well in my heart that the love given to me is already very vague.
What mistake did I make to be condemned to the abyss without redemption?
You know my helplessness but you make me cry again and again
God makes me suffer like this again and again
No way out, no end, no courage to escape this road
I care so much about you and work so hard for you
Are you destined to face the mercy of the sky if I chase your footsteps desperately?
Love wins even if it hurts, it still hurts deeply. I will never push it out until the end.
I will never push it out until the end
In fact, I feel more pain in my heart. Seeing your world can only be blurry
What kind of ambush is hidden in the sky to make us fall in love but deny happiness?
If love is going to be shattered, why not let me carry it all
Singer: Power Train, Li Yijun Album: Tomorrow, Tomorrow, Tomorrow
Tomorrow is the 1st, the first day of school.
Jiang Qin watched Ziyi tidy up the things on her desk, and felt a sense of loss in her heart again. But he just looked at her quietly, helped her organize today's things, and then put away her things. Ziyi maybe
They felt his silence and didn't speak. Inadvertently, both of them stretched out their hands to the green cactus, and then stopped at the same time. It was brought by Ziyi when she came to work on the first day.
, has always been placed on her desk.
Ziyi raised her eyes and looked at Jiang Qin. Jiang Qin moved the corner of his mouth slightly and smiled: "Can you give it to me?"
She nodded: "Okay, it's easy to take care of. Just remember to give it some water."
Jiang Qin's eyes lit up because he saw the smile in her eyes and this cactus. Maybe the only thing he can keep is her gift. From now on, he can still
See her?
"Zi Yi!" A shout interrupted their tidying up. Leng Chen jumped out of the door, saw Jiang Qin, nodded, then turned to Zi Yi and said, "Have you packed it up?
Let me put your things where you live today first, and I will help you deliver your things there when school officially starts tomorrow."
"Well, it's almost done." Ziyi raised her head and glanced at Leng Chen, then lowered her head to pack things. She asked casually: "Are you doing nothing again? What do you call going to work?"
"I don't have much to do, okay? I'm just working a summer job. After a while, I'm going to Sydney to study." Leng Chen said plausibly. He would always refute Ziyi.
Every word is spoken involuntarily.
With a 'ding' sound, the thing in Ziyi's hand fell to the ground. She was stunned. For a moment, her mind went blank. She slowly turned around and looked directly into Leng Chen's eyes, and suddenly there was a fear in her heart, the loss of
Feeling of fear.
"Sydney? Are you... going abroad?" She asked slowly, word by word.
"Ah! No, no!" Leng Chen covered his mouth, but the words had already left his mouth. He had been careful not to say them out, but he didn't expect that he would forget everything as soon as he saw her. He seemed to be asking for help.
Jiang Qin looked at Jiang Qin with his hands spread out, meaning that there was nothing he could do about it.
Ziyi walked up to him gently, with bright eyes, and asked softly: "You are in a bad mood these days because of this incident, right?" Leng Chen was in a bad mood these days, and she saw that
Her eyes were filled with anxiety, but she couldn't figure out why. Until now, when she heard that he was going abroad, when she thought about it, she hoped it wouldn't be the case.
Jiang Qin looked at the two of them and gently exited the room.
"Yes!" Leng Chen looked into Zi Yi's serious eyes and finally nodded.
Hearing this answer, Ziyi actually smiled, but that smile made people feel sad involuntarily. It was a lonely smile, as lonely as she was alone in the whole world.
The fear and panic in Leng Chen's heart suddenly worsened, especially after seeing her smile. He felt that she seemed to be getting farther and farther away from him. The atmosphere that was so happy a minute ago, at this moment
, as quiet as if he and she were the only ones left in the whole world.
He pulled her into his arms, but he felt that her fingers were cold and her body was stiff.
He shook her shoulders: "Ziyi, I didn't mean it. I really didn't mean to lie to you!"
Ziyi gently pushed his hand away, walked slowly to the window, and looked at the busy street outside in trance.
After a long time, she turned around and faced him: "Do you know? I hate being lied to most, and you haven't told me yet. Are you planning to let me be the last to know after you leave?"
Leng Chen became anxious and pulled Ziyi over, making her face his eyes: "No, I just haven't figured out how to tell you yet. You believe me, okay?"
Ziyi turned her head and stared at Leng Chen, with a smile in her eyes, looking perfect: "Did I say I don't believe you?"
Leng Chen breathed a sigh of relief, but Zi Yi's next words made his heart fall into an abyss.
"Do you treat me like a doll? Are you going to hide it from me and leave me? Are you so anxious to find your 'girlfriend'? But you don't have to make such excuses, if you really want to find them
, Just say it to me, that's enough." There was still a smile in Ziyi's voice, but the content was so cold that it made people breathless.
Leng Chen looked at Ziyi in disbelief, and the panic surged into her heart even more. He wished that those words just now were not said by her. But except for him and her, there was no other person here.
"Zi Yi, how can you think so? Am I such a person?"
"You have been worrying about whether to leave these days, right? Since I no longer have a place for you to miss, why do you force yourself to stay? Going to study abroad is what many people dream of?"
Ziyi spoke calmly, with a cold tone.
Leng Chen looked at her with wide eyes, as if he didn't recognize her.
Ziyi turned around: "Do you think I will fall in love with you if you show me some compassion? Do you think I will have to rely on you?"
Leng Chen was so excited that he jumped up: "What do you mean? I just don't want to make you sad. Is this wrong?"
"You're right, it's me who's wrong." Ziyi looked out the window with bottomless eyes. Her heart felt cold, and the deep-seated pain spread throughout her body bit by bit. It turned out that she
In her heart, it was so insignificant; it turned out that she had not found happiness; it turned out that this was the feeling of falling from heaven to earth.
Leng Chen was so angry that he squeezed her shoulders hard: "I have never thought about others. Can't you see it after so many days? I joked with those women, but I never thought they were my girlfriends. I
My girlfriend, you are always the only one."
"That's because you're not tired of me yet. When you are, you won't say this again."
"How can you say that? Don't you like me? Have you never liked me?"
"No! I just like the sense of security you bring me." Ziyi said firmly.
"Look into my eyes, I want you to look into my eyes and say!" Leng Chen grabbed her shoulders uncontrollably and shouted frantically.
She slowly raised her head and looked into his. The pain in her shoulders made her force herself to say the most hurtful words: "I, Ding Ziyi, have never liked Leng Chen!"
"You! Ding Ziyi, I didn't expect you to be such an unreasonable person!" Leng Chen's eyes widened, anger rising on his face. He grabbed her shoulders tightly, the bones of his fingers crackling,
The veins on her arms popped out. She didn't care that such strength would pinch her.
"You are poor at composing music and lyrics!" Ziyi looked at him without blinking.
"You're really pissing me off!" Leng Chen gritted his teeth in anger and yelled at her.
Ziyi didn't speak for a long time before she turned back and said to him: "You know? When I was very young, they told me that my parents didn't want me and I was picked up from the roadside. I hated being deceived the most.
, and hate people who leave me the most. And you, who let me enjoy the feeling of heaven, want me to go back to hell and live a lonely life. Then why did you provoke me in the beginning?"
Leng Chen grabbed her shoulders, shook her hard, and asked with red eyes: "Can't you even tell a white lie?"
"Yes! No matter whether the lie is good or bad, a lie is a lie, and nothing can change my heart of becoming a liar."
"You are really hopeless!" Leng Chen roared, and his anger prevented him from seeing the crystal clear drop of water dripping from the corner of her eyes when he left. He slammed the door and walked out.
As soon as Leng Chen left, Ziyi fell to the ground. God knows how difficult it is to pretend to be indifferent and talk to him. Seeing him upset and losing weight in the past few days made her heart hurt more than anyone else.
.She knows that he really likes her. After getting along with her these days, she also knows that he is a boy with dreams and vision. He likes freedom, music, and all beautiful things. However, if he is not allowed to pursue
His musical dream will make him depressed and lose his luster. Since he is not important in her mind, let him go. He is the most dazzling star in the sky. If he is not allowed to shine, he will suffer from many diseases.
of dust and then disappear...
It turns out that happiness is just a beautiful bubble that will burst when touched. However, from tasting the taste of happiness to losing it, it is really heartbreaking and heartbreaking.
Therefore, she wants him to go. She has always been alone, maybe in this life.
Ziyi looked at the closed door, feeling empty in her heart. The tears she had held back for a long time flowed down one by one, falling on the cold floor and dripping into her heart. She hurt him, but she didn't hurt him.
How can he let him pursue his dream with confidence? It turns out that he can be so indifferent!
Closing her eyes, the scene in her dream appeared before her eyes again. He grabbed her and rescued her from the water, and that purple shell...
Jiang Qin gently opened the door and walked in. When he saw Ziyi crying, his heart ached little by little. He knelt down and gently wiped away the tears on her face. Ziyi raised her head.
Come on, at that moment, she saw the deep affection in his eyes.
Jiang Qin handed her a tissue and helped Ziyi up.
Ziyi just took it without saying a word. She was very confused now. His look just now was really like Leng Chen's look at her at that time, but she had always regarded him as her elder brother. No, no, no.
, didn’t he say before that she was like his second sister? Then he must have seen it wrong.
Jiang Qin took a breath and saw her panic. He didn't want to make her uncomfortable, so even if he liked her, he wouldn't hurt her.
He picked up the things that had been thrown on the ground, one by one, slowly and carefully packed her luggage. Then, he patted her back and said softly: "Don't cry, we have to go to class tomorrow, you
I don't want to have two rabbit eyes when I meet people tomorrow. I don't want that when I introduce to others: 'This is my sister.', others will say: 'When did you have a rabbit sister?'
"
Listening to his teasing words, Ziyi couldn't help laughing. She was also relieved that he said she was his sister. She raised her eyes, looked at Jiang Qin, and said sincerely: "Thank you,
elder brother!"
Hearing that voice, Jiang Qin's heart couldn't help but tremble. After all, she didn't even have the slightest feeling for him. However, he should be satisfied to see her smile. He clenched his fists
, I vowed in my heart: I must make her happy, no matter what I do, I must make her happy.
It's night, a bright moon shines on the floor, hanging quietly and silently in the sky. Only the occasional clouds blown by the wind cover its brightness, and it faintly emits some light, illuminating the sky.
People under the moon.
The evening wind blows the tall trees at the door, making a rustling sound. The moon is really round and bright. The surroundings are silent, and most people have fallen asleep.
Ziyi had been looking at the sky outside the window for a long time, so long that she didn't even know how long it had been.
She hugged her knees and curled up by the door, with her head on her knees and tilted her head to look at the full moon, hanging in the sky, emitting a cold and faint light.
Closing her eyes, tears slowly seeped out from the corners of her eyes, drop by drop, so clearly, sliding down her white jade-like face, like broken pearls. Looking at the tears one by one, it made her feel sad.
She was pitiful. She didn't wipe it with her hands, but closed her eyes and let herself feel Leng Chen's eyes that day. She seemed to still feel Leng Chen's anger that day in front of her eyes. He looked at her so anxiously, with the anxiety and worry in his eyes.
The worry made her heartache. However, the feeling of being deceived could never go away. Someone once said that when something goes wrong in a person's family, the protagonist is often the last one to know the truth. Although he meant well, she
She doesn't like to be lied to. She would rather be the first to know than the last to be kept in the dark. She doesn't want to restrain him. In this case, why should she keep guarding this short-lasting love? However,
Why, my heart hurts so much that I can't breathe...
On the street, under the orange streetlight, there was a long shadow of a boy, dragging on the ground. He was leaning against a sports car with a bright red body, which looked extremely dazzling on the gray roadside. He watched quietly.
He was staring at Ziyi's building in a daze. The lights there had long been extinguished and it was just pitch black because it was already two o'clock in the morning. But the boy still kept his eyes open and looked there persistently.
He was wearing a light blue T-shirt and a pair of jeans, and his eyes were bright, but now he seemed to have a strong sense of pain and melancholy. He pursed his lips tightly, with the corners of his lips raised slightly, looking unruly. The wind blew him
The hair on his forehead revealed a delicate and charming face under the street lamp. He just stood there quietly, watching, as if he was crazy.
For a long time, he rubbed his feet hard on the ground, pursed his lips, raised his head and looked at the lights with his beautiful eyes, then looked at the dark building, smiled at himself, and then jumped in
In the car, the car roared and drove like lightning, making a long car mark and speeding out.
"Ziyi, how long do you want to sit down?" Shishi rubbed her eyes, looked at Ziyi who was staring at the moon in a daze, and asked. She got up to go to the bathroom, but she didn't expect that Ziyi was not asleep yet.
"It's nothing, I just can't sleep. Come out and look at the moon." Ziyi smiled faintly, and her smile looked particularly pale under the reflection of the moon.
"Is it because I'm about to leave here? I can't bear to leave!" Shishi was startled. She rarely saw Ziyi smile like this. That kind of smile made people want to feel sorry for her, but she was such a stubborn woman.
My child, Shishi walked up to Ziyi with a smile.
"Yeah!" Ziyi still responded faintly, her eyes couldn't help but look towards a room in the distance a few buildings away. Just because it was far away, she could only see it faintly. She couldn't see it in the past few days.
It was a dark mess. He probably hasn't come back these days. Ziyi sighed in her heart. She will move to the school tomorrow. Maybe she will never see him again. The word "forever" is pungent.
Her heart ached. She clenched the phone in her hand. She had never used it and had never disclosed the number to others. Should she give it back to him? If she gave it back to him, she would have a reason.
She went to find him, didn't she? Then she could see him again, but what would happen if she met him again? If she met him again, would she be willing to leave? She didn't know, so she was hesitating whether to return the favor or not.
he?
Shishi looked at Ziyi and said softly: "Did you quarrel?"
After a long time, Ziyi shook her head. She opened the palm of her left hand. There was a purple shell with a white pattern on the edge. It shone with a faint purple light in the moonlight. At a glance, it looked like a purple shell.
Xingxing. Because I held it too hard, the palms of my hands were pricked until some places turned white.
Shishi saw the shell and screamed: "Wow, purple shell!"
"Give it to you!" Ziyi gently handed the shell to her.
Shishi hesitated for a moment, as if she felt something was wrong: "Aren't you always very precious to me? Why do you want to give it to me all of a sudden?"
"This is something in my memory. It has appeared in my dreams since I was a child. I used to think that it was really a 'star of hope' that could fulfill the wishes of those who found it. However, now I realize that it is just a star.
Decoration. It has no meaning. If you like it, just think of me as a parting gift to you." Ziyi's eyes were always looking at the faint starlight in the distance. Since we can't stay together, let it go.
Why keep hope? She had made it absolutely clear that day. He didn't look for her, which meant that his pride was still there and he had let go of her.
"Ziyi, you have a problem!" Shishi finally realized something was wrong, because there was a loneliness in her eyes that she had never seen before. That was not the look that an eighteen-year-old girl should have. That look was too
Loneliness, too absolute, too lonely.
Ziyi chuckled lightly.
"Tell me, what happened to you?" Shishi took Ziyi's hand and asked a little worriedly. Only now did she realize that her fingers were so cold, as cold as ice cubes.
Maybe it's because the wind has been blowing for too long.
"It's okay, classes will officially start tomorrow. I can't live with you anymore, but I will come back to see you. Don't not welcome me then!" The expression on Ziyi's face suddenly turned into a smile, and those
The sadness just now was swept away.
"Ziyi!" Shishi looked at the smile on her face, and it was difficult to distinguish her from the sad person just now. Now she looks so happy and joyful.
"I'm just a little reluctant to leave here tomorrow!"
"Really?" Shishi still looked at her in disbelief.
"Yes, yes! Okay, go back to bed quickly." Ziyi pushed Shishi towards the door of the room, then turned around and entered her room.
"Well, good night!" Shishi is a rather nervous girl. When she heard what she said, she believed it and shouted towards Ziyi's room.
"Good night!" Ziyi smiled.
Shishi held the purple shell in her hand and was extremely happy. She didn't give it to Ziyi before, but now she gave it to her because she was leaving. Why wasn't she happy? However, just now, she didn't give it to her.
Ziyi's expression is really strange.
In the next room, Ziyi was still sitting on the bed, looking at the moonlight outside the window, in a daze, recalling every bit of time with Leng Chen...
The moon is particularly bright tonight.
******
Leng Xing looked at the magazine cover in front of him. It showed Yuki's wedding photos taken on that island. The beach looked so beautiful. It reminded him that many years ago, he also stayed at a beautiful beach and met there.
However, his princess did not protect their agreement. She did not wait for him there. Leng Chen also laughed at him and said that others did not take him seriously at all, but he still regarded those words as a treasure. What if
, if everything could be done over again, would he still wait there for a week? The answer is yes, he would wait, because he is a person who keeps his promises, so even if others do not keep their promises, he will still wait.