"Just take good care of yourself. I'll go back first." Even though Gong Zeyu wanted to stay, but thinking that the relationship between him and her was just a friend and colleague, he could only leave and give this space to the couple.
After Gong Zeyu left, Bai Xue turned her attention to Su Yan.
The look in his eyes was flat and distant, giving Su Yan the feeling that she was clearly in front of him, but yet she was far away.
There are thousands of words in his heart but nothing can come out. He just looks at her like that. Looking at her, how can he make his Mrs. Su not sad? Not look at him like this?
When Bai Xue looked at him, even if he was usually reserved, he could see the deep affection in his eyes, but now, the affection disappeared and turned into indifference.
When she looked at him, it seemed as if he was no longer the person she loved most, but just a passerby.
"Go pick up Yafu in the afternoon. Don't tell him that I'm injured. Just tell him that I'm on a business trip and it will take a long time to come back. I will ask Xiao Ai to stay with him at home."
He didn't speak, but she spoke in a calm tone, as if nothing had happened.
Just like telling him to do ordinary things.
The calmer she is, the more flustered Su Yan becomes!
He staggered forward and grabbed Bai Xue's hand, "Honey, don't do this!"
Bai Xue raised her eyebrows, "Then what do you want me to do?"
Don't do this, what else can she do? Blame him like a shrew?
But what's the use of blaming him?
Can anything be changed? Nothing!
Bai Xue is too calm and rational. She thinks about her situation thoroughly every time. Every time she thinks about it over and over again, in the end, she blames herself.
Did Su Yan let her go in to save him?
No.
Was it Su Yan who made her fall down and unable to get up?
no.
He loves Bai Wanrou but not her, and chooses to save Bai Wanrou instead of saving her. Is he wrong?
That's right.
If it were her, she would also choose to save the one she loves.
She can understand his approach!
It’s just that she can’t accept her husband making such a choice!
She can't accept that a husband who keeps saying he wants to live a good life with her, and who is already a past lover with Bai Wanrou, in times of crisis, chooses his past lover instead of her, the wife who fights side by side!
There is a saying that goes well: some things can be accepted intellectually, but cannot be accepted emotionally.
"You hit me, scold me, no matter what, I'm fine! Just don't do this, okay!" Su Yan looked at her, feeling flustered in his heart.
Bai Xue looked dumbfounded, "What did you do wrong that I beat you and scold you?"
"I shouldn't have misjudged the situation and saved Bai Wanrou first and then you!" Su Yan hated his decision at that time!
Fortunately, Miyazawa saved her, otherwise, he...
He really didn't want to imagine the consequences!
"It's not your fault." Bai Xue doesn't blame him! I really don't blame her!
The blame is also on her being sentimental. If she doesn't go in, others will come out anyway.
"Honey, don't say that. I know, I know that you are blaming me and complaining about me. I know that such behavior hurts you, but I really didn't think so much at the time. I just... I just..."
Su Yan desperately wanted to explain, but he found that there was no sentence in the broad Chinese language that could excuse his behavior at that time, or allow him to forgive his stupidity at that time!
No matter what he thought at the time, no matter how deeply guilty he felt towards Bai Wanrou, he should not have chosen her and left his wife behind!
