Strictly speaking, it's not that she doesn't believe him, it's that she's afraid that something like this will happen again, that she won't have the strength to start over again. She doesn't want to live in such worry for the rest of her life.
Only now did Yuanxun realize how much harm his momentary deviation caused to her, and he also realized how selfish he was.
"I'm sorry Jing..."
"You know I never want your apology, and I also know that you don't want this. But just because of this, it makes me more uneasy. It makes me feel that no matter how deep the love is, there will be a day when it changes. I don't want to bear that anymore.
It's painful, so I won't come back to you. I don't want to find out one day that you don't love me and have fallen in love with someone else. I don't want to bear that kind of thing. Do you understand?" She never left him because she didn't love him.
, because she blames him, she will not deny that she no longer loves him, she just doesn’t want to be with him, she just lost the courage to be with him.
"Jing..." Yuanxun looked at her, his heart aching.
He is not, he is really not a qualified husband. When she said she wanted a divorce, all he could think of was how she had no intention of saving him. He even complained about her not cherishing him and giving up easily, but he never thought about it.
To make such a decision, she had to endure so much pain, learn so much from it, and cry for countless nights.
"If you want a month, I will give you one month. Let it be our last beautiful month." Wang Jingjing has always been a person who can easily see her own heart. She knows that her heart also wants this month.
Instead of being insincerely resisting and spending this month awkwardly, it would be better to spend this month happily. After all, everything here is what she likes and wants.
"Okay." Yuanxun nodded. No matter what, she was willing to give him this month, and he was satisfied. Even then, she would still be so insistent.
Happy time always flies by. Yuanxun feels that she just agreed to stay with him for a month yesterday, and today, the one-month deadline is coming soon.
He had originally thought that if she still didn't want to be with him, he would let her go, but now he found it very difficult to let her go, even more difficult than letting him die!
He realized that he was never ready to let go. He always thought that he would never lose her. He thought that with her love for him, no matter how big a mistake he made, as long as he looked back, she would forgive him and return to him.
beside him.
It's time to leave here tomorrow. Thinking of the past month, Wang Jingjing is very reluctant to part with it.
I impulsively wanted to change my original insistence.
She loves Yuanxun, she really loves her. She knows that she will never fall in love with another man again in her life. How much she wants to grow old with him...
How much I want to have one person for the rest of my life.
But she was afraid, really afraid...
She was like a bird with broken wings. She wanted to fly, but she didn't have the courage to fly again and couldn't fly.
With only the last night left, Yuan Xun was in a very low mood. Even if Wang Jingjing cooked his favorite dish, he was not in the mood to eat it.
"You have a bad stomach, eat as much as you can, don't get in trouble with your body." Wang Jingping advised.
"I really can't eat it." Although she didn't change her mind without asking him, she still insisted on leaving him and becoming just friends with him.
"Father."
"Jing, I know you don't like people who don't take care of their own bodies, but I really can't eat..." Yuanxun raised his head, with pleading and deep helplessness in his dark eyes. He really couldn't eat, not to mention without her.
, why does he need a healthy body? Let himself suffer and live a painful life for a few more years?
"Xuanxun, please don't be like this..." Wang Jingjing looked at him and suddenly wanted to cry. Seeing the man she had loved for more than twenty years like this, the most important person in her life, how could she not feel sad and uncomfortable.
"Jing..." He grabbed her hand with his big hand.
"Can you tell me what I should do? If you want me to smile and send you away happily, I can't do it, I really can't..."
Wang Jingping was silent and wanted to withdraw his hand, but it didn't obey his command.
"Jing, don't leave me, okay? Jing... I really can't live without you..." Yuanxun buried his head in her hands.
Soon Wang Jingjing felt the hot liquid wet the back of her hand.
Those hot tears were like hot iron burning straight into the bottom of her heart.
Until now, she had only seen him cry once. It was when his mother passed away. At that time, he leaned in her arms, did not speak, and just held her. Later, she felt that her chest was soaked, and then she cried.
I know, he cried...
She was terribly distressed at that time, and she is still terribly distressed now. The pain has not diminished one bit, but has worsened a lot.
"Xun..."
Yuan Xun didn't speak, just buried his head.
It's very shameful for a grown man to cry, it's very inappropriate, and it's also very despicable under the circumstances. But he really can't bear the pain of losing her, so let him be despicable and shameless.
!
He just lay there on the back of her hand, his hot tears burning her heart.
She was so burned that she couldn't help but raise a wry smile and sighed, "Xun, I won't leave you anymore."
She doesn't want to give it up, really, she just doesn't want to let it go.
There was no need for the earth to shake, no need for him to do anything more, no need for life and death to wake up. Just like this, her heart clearly told her that she couldn't let go of this man, she really couldn't let go.
Even if something like that happened again in the future, even if it hurt again, even if she didn't have the courage to step out and start over, she would admit it.
From the beginning of their love, he was more important to her than herself, and this is still the case now.
She knew that she was hopeless like this, but this was who she was.
Love is love.
If you can't let go, you can only hold on.
Yuanxun suddenly raised his head, with a look of unbelievable surprise on his face, and tears hanging from the corners of his eyes, "Jing, what did you say?"
"I said, I won't leave you." Wang Jingping said with a smile, no matter what decision he made, it would be easy when he made the decision without hesitation, whether it was to leave him or to return to him.
"Jing! My Jing!" Yuanxun stepped forward excitedly and held her tightly in his arms.
"This is the last time, the last time I put you in front of me. I won't do it next time, I really won't, believe me." She told Yuanxun and told herself this, this is the last time, really the last time!
Never, never again!
"There won't be another time! Absolutely not!" What he wants most in his life is to grow old with her. On this path, he will never make a mistake again! He will definitely hold her tightly in the future.
I can't even take a small step aside when I move my hand!
