"I didn't remember these things before. Because of Parker, he will help me remember the things I want to remember. I trust him."
"Who is Parker?"
"It was an old man who took care of me. He has passed away. I can't find anyone who can still give me memories like him. Hao can't do it either, because he has too many things to remember and do.
, he can't be around me 24 hours a day. I can't trust other people. Parker seems to exist specifically for my memory. You don't know how much I felt when he passed away.
Panic." Xia Yucheng said, feeling that sense of emptiness without a solution was so strong, "Although the memory Parker gave me was wrong, in those few years, I regarded this mistake as reality. Brother
, I have no memory, it’s like I have lost my soul..."
She said this last sentence very quietly, but her words were clear.
"I'll take you to a place." After a long time, Xia Mingyou said in a deep voice.
…
The car stopped in front of an old building. Xia Mingyou unbuckled his seat belt and got out of the car. He walked to the other side and opened the door for Xia Yucheng.
"This is..." Xia Yucheng stood next to the car sign, looking at the old and dilapidated building, and asked, "Is this the place where I once lived?"
"Yes! I went to jail and left you and my mother. You later moved here. Remember, later on, you met Feng Hao..."
"Mom? Are you talking about... that woman?" Xia Yucheng remembered the woman named Jian Yuxi that Gu Qianyu mentioned, "Hao never mentioned her to me at all."
Xia Mingyou sighed, feeling faintly melancholy.
"Girl, I know that what you want to get back is just the good things you had with Feng Hao, but memories don't necessarily only exist for good things, there are also some things that are best forgotten. Feng Hao didn't say it because he didn't want to mention those sad things.
"
Xia Yucheng said urgently: "After leaving Country R, he never mentioned Parker to me again. If I hadn't written it down in the notebook, maybe his existence would have begun to fade in my memory now. Until some days later.
, I will completely forget everything that happened in country R. My memory period is inherently short, so forgetting will scare me, and I am also scared of the pain that I don’t want to forget. Doctor Lucas said, let me
Don't take medicine when you're in pain, but I don't dare. It's too painful, and I don't have the strength to endure the pain."
"You know? I feel strange when I look at myself in the mirror every day, because I once thought I had plastic surgery, and once I thought it was someone else. Xia Mingyou looked back at her, turned around, and leaned in
On the car body, the sunlight shines through the gaps between the branches, forming a little jumping light spot.
He remained silent and seemed to be deep in thought.
"Brother, if you don't help me, who else can I go to?" Sadness filled Xia Yucheng's heart.
"What will happen after the pain is over? Who can guarantee that?" Xia Mingyou said distressedly.
"It's just unpredictable, so I didn't dare to tell him at all. I know that if I continue like this and don't recover my memory, he won't dislike me if I become a madman and an idiot. But I don't want to go crazy, and I don't want to become an idiot. I don't want to
That way, if he watches me like that every day, he won't be happy."
Her repeated emotions that time frightened Yuyue and hurt Feng Hao. But the more she controlled it, the more complicated her emotions became.