Father Chen and Mother Chen sighed deeply at the same time.
…
Chen Xi didn't listen any more.
She didn't dare to listen any more.
She returned to bed in a daze and covered her head with the quilt.
There are only two sentences running through my mind -
Her eyes were blind.
Her parents felt that she was a burden.
…
Compared with losing her sight, the fact that her parents thought she was burdened made her even more frightened and even desperate.
The sighs she heard from her parents behind the door have always lingered in her ears.
Getting louder and louder.
She covered her ears, the corners of her eyes were burning, but her face was cold.
…
"喛喛~"
Xi lay on the pillow not far from the girl and looked at the girl quietly.
"Huanhuan..."
She murmured, but in the dark field of vision, she could see the outline of a small black shadow, and her golden eyes made her a little distracted.
Since becoming blind, the only color she can see besides black is gold.
Those are Huanhuan's eyes.
Huanhuan only has one eye.
She didn't mind at all.
Such a beautiful golden color, just like the color of sunshine.
Illuminating her dark world.
...
In fact, it wasn't like she didn't realize that her parents were reluctant to talk about Huanhuan.
She is obviously blind, why can she still see Huanhuan?
No, she can't completely see Huanhuan either.
She didn't tell her parents. In her eyes, Huanhuan seemed to be always shrouded in a layer of mist, with a slight sense of haziness and illusion.
The only golden eye is so clear.
It always made her lose her mind.
For the sake of this golden touch, she would rather ignore everything that was wrong.
She just doesn't want black to be the only thing left in her world.
…
"Huanhuan."
She screamed again, her tears moistening the pillow.
She thought that being blind was already a terrible thing.
However, she found that she was wrong.
Being blind is terrible.
But what's even more frightening is that she will be abandoned.
…
She is no longer a child.
In fact, she knew it all along.
She is a great burden to the family.
It's just that her parents are so kind to her, so she becomes a bit pampered and pampered.
I obviously told myself to be a good kid.
She didn't cry or make trouble, thinking that she had tried her best and suffered a great injustice.
But he used this as an excuse to be willful as a matter of course.
Mom and dad...are you tired?
She covered her mouth tightly and let out suppressed intermittent cries.
She knew that maybe she was overthinking.
Mom and dad love her so much...
But she couldn't control her thoughts.
She was scared.
She was really scared.
Perhaps from the beginning, she had a faint fear in her heart.
Fear of being rejected, fear of being abandoned.
The sighs of the people around her made her extremely disgusted.
She deliberately ignored the fear in her heart, not touching it, let alone thinking about it.
Deceive yourself and others like an ostrich.
...
However, the few words her parents said today suddenly made her fear out of control.
She could no longer pretend that nothing was wrong.
She curled up.
...
Suddenly, the warmth in her arms stunned her.
She slightly pulled back the quilt and looked into her arms.
The familiar golden eyes made her smile subconsciously.
A tear slipped to the corner of my mouth.
Salty and astringent.
"Huanhuan."
She closed her arms and hugged the warmth in her arms.
"Thank you for always being with me."
"Thank you."
"Don't leave me alone."
"Never leave me alone..."
…
The next day, when getting along with her parents, she always subconsciously judged the subtle emotional changes in their tone.
She was anxious about her own invisibility.
Otherwise she could see the looks on her parents' faces.
She even wondered if the faces of her parents who were talking softly to her at this moment...were there expressions of impatience?
She couldn't stop her speculation.
Such speculation made her almost collapse.
She wanted to yell.
The negative emotions in her heart were spreading.
She knew it couldn't go on like this.
So when her mother went out to buy groceries, she left the house.
...
She walked casually.
There seemed to be a road with a faint light in front of me.
She didn't understand and had no intention of thinking about it.
Just walk on this road.
Occasionally, the direction will suddenly change, but the radiating road will also change direction.
Her feet were always glowing slightly.
If she insists on leaving this strange path, Huanhuan will scream.
Therefore, she did not insist on leaving this slightly luminous road.
Then, she walked to the lake.
She smelled steam.
Moist and refreshing.
She groped for a big stone.
She doesn't want to leave.
She climbed onto the stone and sat on it.
Eyeless eyes looked ahead.
There seemed to be a lot of things churning in my mind, but it also seemed like it was all mud and there was nothing there.
...
Ruan Nuan asked her why she didn't answer the phone.
In fact, she didn't even hear it at the time.
She is immersed in her own world and cannot extricate herself.
I don’t know how time has passed.
Until there was a strange man behind who said he was chasing mice.
She suddenly came back to her senses.
That person is very noisy.
He also said he was trying to trick her.
However, that person has always been with her.
...
It snowed at night.
Listening to the man's cry of surprise, she felt a little dazed.
She hasn't seen snow for a long, long time.
I especially remember my joy when I saw snow when I was a child.
She raised her head slightly and could feel the coldness of the snowflakes falling on it, but it also had a strange gentle feeling.
She tried to remember the snow she saw when she was a child.
Suddenly, she thought of what her parents said again.
...
"The doctors have said it's hopeless."
"Xiao Xi's eyes will never recover."
...
Will she...never see snow again?
She took a gentle breath to relieve the sudden tightness in her chest.
She twitched her lips, but she didn't know that her expression at this time looked like she was about to cry.
What has always supported her strength...is the hope that her eyes can recover. After all, she has been blind once before, but later, she saw again, and her world was illuminated by light.
It's just that the light is so short.
And the encouragement and support of my parents.
They are always by her side, looking forward to another miracle with her.
But when all these are gone...what can she do to be strong?
...
She actually really thought about death.
If she can no longer be seen in the future, if she can only become a burden to her parents...
But, she was also very scared.
Also very unwilling.
She didn't even have time to have any clear vision for the future...
She wants to eat hot pot, she wants to eat ice cream...
She wants...to live.
...
She couldn't help but call Teacher Ruan, but she didn't know what to say after the call was answered and she called the other person's name.
She hung up the phone.
His face was so pale that it was almost transparent.