After taking a bite of the cake, the man suddenly realized his mistake.
Why don't you say it?
Classmate Xiao is different from others.
Classmate Xiao is the same as him.
That is to say...
"You...really want to listen?"
The hesitant words made the already vague voice even more unrecognizable.
...
"If you are willing to tell me."
Xiao Xiao put down his fork.
"I'm all ears."
...
The man swallowed the cake stuck in his throat.
He...wanted to say.
In fact, he always wanted to tell people.
But no one wants to listen.
No one is willing to really believe him or understand him.
...
After being disappointed and hurt again and again, he stopped telling anyone.
Even in the eyes of others, he is already very strange.
But he didn't want to get any weirder.
...
"No, it's something...pleasant..."
The man murmured.
...
"I know."
Some unexpected answers made the man suddenly raise his eyes and look over.
Xiao Xiao smiled slightly.
The man couldn't help but smile back.
Even though he couldn't see it, he knew there was a stiff, unnatural smile on his face.
yes.
You can tell by the look on his face that this is not a pleasant thing...
...
The man lowered his head.
After many years, he once again recounted his unbearable experience, and he actually felt as if he had been in a trance for many years...
...
Wei Xinhai probably saw a monster for the first time when he was in the fourth grade of elementary school.
As a child, he didn't understand what this meant.
And he showed it without any scruple -
He thought it was an unusual reaction.
But in the eyes of others, he began to look strange.
...
He couldn't remember many details.
Before his parents took him to the hospital for the first time, he didn't even notice the worry and faint fear in his parents' eyes.
...
When he first went to the hospital, he was only asked a few simple but inexplicable questions by the doctor.
It's strange to come to the hospital even though I feel like I'm not sick...
Inquiries to my parents were met with perfunctory responses.
But he didn't pay too much attention.
Children are easily distracted.
...
But he went to the hospital more and more often.
The time spent in the hospital is getting longer and longer.
He began to feel uneasy.
He started making noises and didn't want to go to the hospital.
Even though my brother doesn't need to go to the hospital, why is he the only one who always has to go to the hospital?
He doesn't want to go either!
...
It is very troublesome for children to be stubborn.
Maybe he was upset because he was noisy and noisy...
Maybe his parents have accumulated too many negative emotions in their hearts because of him...
To this day, he still remembers his mother's hysterical shouting -
"Your brother is insane without you!"
...
He was stunned.
At that time, he still couldn't fully understand what his mother meant.
He was more frightened by his mother's appearance.
A mother who has always been gentle...
He had never seen his mother look so frightened.
...
"Child mother."
Dad pulled Mom, "What did you say?"
...
Mom's face froze.
Then he covered his face and cried.
The only sound in the quiet room was my mother's cries that seemed to have been suppressed for a long time.
He suddenly felt cold all over.
…
He froze on the spot.
At a loss.
For the first time, an unknown panic arose in my heart.
He was even more frightened than before when he took the failed test paper to sign for his parents.
No.
They...seem to be different.
But he didn't know...what was different.
…
He finally went to the hospital with his parents obediently.
…
He overheard the conversation between his mother and the doctor.
He clearly didn't understand the intermittent content, but the chill he felt when he saw his mother's terrifying expression that day was still in his body and spread out of his control.
"...I can't bear it anymore..."
"It's of no use at all..."
"...He hasn't changed at all..."
"I yelled at the child..."
"I don't want to..."
"But, I can't control it..."
"I feel uncomfortable, I feel very uncomfortable..."
"That child...how could he become like that..."
"Doctor, please think of a way..."
"You think of a way..."
…
He had never heard his mother speak in such a tone.
Like a witch in a fairy tale who wants to eat children.
He...is scared.
…
He is still in and out of the hospital frequently.
Perhaps because he was frightened last time, he unconsciously paid more attention to the attitudes of his parents.
He became a little cautious.
…
He began to consciously try to be a good child.
Even so, he found that his parents paid more and more attention to his brother.
But she seemed...more and more alienated from him.
He is uneasy.
He is afraid.
But he didn't dare to ask.
Maybe he had a vague premonition of the answer he would get.
He didn't know what happened.
He doesn't understand why mom and dad have become strangers?
Everyone has become...disliked him?
…
But soon, he no longer had the energy to pay attention to the changes in his parents.
The hospital has become so scary.
Doctors have become so scary.
Pale light, pungent smell of disinfectant.
There were also doctors and nurses who spoke coldly and impatiently.
He seems to have endless medicines to take and endless tests to do.
There are also endless inexplicable words that I can’t hear.
…
He became increasingly reluctant to go to the hospital.
Even though I still had concerns about my parents' attitude, my fear of the hospital gradually overcame everything.
Especially later, every time his father or mother just took him to the hospital and would not accompany him anymore.
Every time he comes back from the hospital, his parents won't ask him anything.
Turn a blind eye to his poor state.
Even if it is embarrassing, a manly man bleeds without shedding tears...
He didn't know how many times he hid in bed and cried.
…
After his parents decided to suspend him from school and put him in the hospital, his negative emotions that were already on the verge of breaking down... collapsed.
He cried and made a fuss.
He refused to go to the hospital.
He said he was scared.
He asked his parents why he had to go to the hospital?
He is clearly not sick!
Why are they all-
"you are sick!"
This sentence, which was like a verdict, made it impossible for him to say anything else.
…
He is sick?
Yes.
Mom and dad said he was sick.
My brother said he was sick.
The doctor said he was sick.
The nurse also said he was sick.
Everyone said he was sick.
…
He was confused.
Is he really sick...?
he does not know……
Even if he doesn't think he's sick...
But if everyone says he is sick, then he is...sick, right?
…
"I spent a time in the hospital that was not a pleasant one at all."
The man took a deep breath.
Perhaps it was because he was talking about this memory that was unforgettable even if he deliberately forgot it, that the man's words became much smoother.