Guo Shan hated herself for asking questions knowingly.
Why?
She clearly knows why!
She hated herself even more for being unable to even ask such a question knowingly!
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Guo's mother thought it was because her brother was studying too hard, so she went out of her way to help him improve his health.
When she saw her brother smiling and telling Mother Guo that she had nothing to do with her, and when she saw Mother Guo lovingly touching her brother's head with a look of relief, she was shouting in her heart: No, no!
My brother is not so thin because he studies hard!
There is a monster, there is a monster haunting my brother!
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But in the end, she just lowered her head and picked up the rice stiffly and mechanically, without knowing how to taste it.
Suddenly there was an extra piece of meat in the rice.
She raised her head, and her brother smiled as gently as ever, saying how she ate only white rice and no vegetables, and that the meat today was delicious.
Looking at her brother's slightly sunken pale cheeks and listening to his gentle words, at that moment, she smiled as if she was crying.
…
Several times, she hesitated to speak when she saw her brother's concealed expression and behavior.
The brother she likes so much, the brother who is so good to her...
I didn't quite understand anything, and felt hatred for the first time in my heart.
She hates that monster!
...
She saw her brother in such pain and despair, and she knew it.
Obviously she knows...
However, she did nothing!
There is nothing she can do!
Because she is afraid!
She is really scared!
So scared!
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When she first discovered the monster, she obviously only saw a rough outline, but at that moment, the feeling of being stared at by the evil beast's eyes full of malice and greed was so terrifying.
The feeling that once she makes a move, she will be devoured, so scary!
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She seemed to be tightly wrapped in darkness that was so thick that no light could shine through. She felt as if her throat was being suffocated by sharp claws, and sharp nails were digging into the soft neck flesh. She even smelled it in a trance.
The smell of bloody rust.
She opened her mouth, but she could only make a "ho ho" sound that only she could hear, like a broken doll.
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So scary, really scary!
Guo Shan burst into tears, her hands involuntarily grasped her neck tightly, but her round nails scratched red marks on her delicate skin.
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Xiao Xiao reached out and grabbed Guo Shan's hand, gently but irresistibly taking the child's hand away from his neck, which had been a little shocking in a short period of time.
He felt that the child's strength was so strong that he seemed to have exhausted all his strength.
But for Xiao Xiao, he was still "vulnerable".
He allowed the child's hands to struggle and scratch in his hands.
The child looked like a shrinking and desperate little beast wailing.
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Guo Shan seemed to be trapped in some kind of nightmare.
Her voice was hollow and vague.
In fact, there was one time when she really couldn't bear it anymore. She wanted to hug her brother and tell him not to be afraid, she would be by his side.
"belch."
Guo Shan actually wanted to laugh, but what came out of her mouth was a hiccup.
She was a little dazed.
Because she suddenly remembered that she had never hugged her brother again since she discovered that there was an unknown monster in his body.
Not once.
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How could she go so far?!
How could she be so cruel?
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That impulse quickly dissipated.
Because that monster actually wanted to rush to her?!
Although he was stopped by his brother in the end.
Seeing her brother's dejected and desperate look, she couldn't say anything.
She heard her brother's low roar, what he said was - don't touch my sister!
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But what about her?
After her brother told her it was okay, she actually thought it was okay.
Perhaps because of the guilt and uneasiness that was about to bury her, she urgently needed to do something to cover up her guilt and unbearability. She subconsciously grabbed her brother's arm, but he dodged it.
For a moment, she didn't know whether to feel more chilled or more grateful.
Brother Xinliang finally hates her as a cowardly and timid sister, or is he glad that he didn't catch his brother's arm?
Because my brother also has a monster on his arm.
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However, her brother quickly took her hand and smiled weakly but gently at her.
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"Master Xiao, I'm really bad, aren't I?"
Guo Shan gasped loudly and kept twisting and struggling with the strength of Xiao Xiao's hold on her hand, which seemed to alleviate some of the pain in her heart.
"I don't deserve to be my brother's sister!"
Guo Shan's face was filled with tears, her expression was gloomy and regretful.
For such a young child, his tender little face should have been full of innocence, but at this moment it was twisted and almost ferocious.
"I really didn't hide it from my brother on purpose."
"I'm so scared."
...
"sorry."
"I'm sorry, brother."
...
"Wow~"
Guo Shan burst into tears again.
She has been depressed for too long.
She was about to collapse from the guilt.
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Xiao Xiao closed his eyes slightly and looked down at the crying and pitiful child.
Still just a child.
But... Guo Shan is just a child.
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Guo Shan two years ago is almost the same age as Guo Shan now.
He was so scared, so lonely and desperate.
He thought no one could understand him.
He works hard to protect everyone.
However, the only person who could give him comfort always pretended to turn a blind eye.
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Xiao Xiao's expression revealed a hint of indifference.
Some people may think that he is too harsh on a child.
Guo Shan is just a child, or a more delicate girl. Her timidity and shrinkage are understandable and understandable.
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However, if he hadn't met him, Guo Shan would have probably ended his life that was too short and too dark with despair and loneliness.
Until the last moment, no one could really comfort this child.
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Guo Shan can obviously make up for this shortcoming.
Two whole years, two years, not one or two days, nor one month or two months, but twenty-four months, a whole seven hundred and thirty days, did not allow this little girl to step out even as a child.
One small step!
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The sister who sacrificed her brother for her, and pretended not to know the pain of her brother because of her own cowardice.
In fact, I can’t say who is right or wrong, or whether it is worth it.
It's all your own choice.
...
However, just treat him as nosy, but he is really not worth it for Guo Shan.
He still remembered the light in the child's eyes when he said he wanted to protect his sister.
I remember the child said - if someone must bear all this, let him do it.
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The child obviously couldn't hold on any longer, but for the sake of his sister, he persisted for two years.