After all, Liu Qian is no longer a student in the ivory tower. Years of social experience have tempered her character.
She quickly regained her composure.
However, the thoughts in my mind are still very confusing.
She frowned and spoke slowly to Master Xiao about her struggles and pain.
"...When I found out that there was a bug in the child's body, my first reaction was to take it out. No matter what, I had to take out the bug in the child's body."
"However, when I later learned that the wine bug could bring wealth to my children, even if there was a price, I deeply hesitated."
"I don't know which choice is the right one and what's best for the child."
…
"The biggest wish parents have for their children is that they live a smooth life, be prosperous and healthy."
"No parent wants their children to suffer."
…
“Money is an extremely important measure of success.”
"Now that I have such a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, even if my child has no future prospects, I can ensure that he will be wealthy and have a worry-free life."
"At least you don't have to bend your back for five buckets of rice."
Having said this, Liu Qian smiled faintly.
"only……"
Liu Qian took a deep breath, as if what she was going to say next was extremely difficult. She opened and closed her lips several times before speaking softly, but her voice was shaking more and more, even with a hint of choking, "When I think of my child
Later, when he grows up and gets old, and one day he closes his eyes forever, his body will be eaten by a bug."
"Being eaten by a bug, the body will be gone!"
"...My heart...is always feeling dull and uncomfortable."
"feeling bad."
...
"In this case, will my child not be able to find peace after death?"
"Will my child not even have the chance to be reincarnated?"
...
Liu Qian spoke softer and softer, her eyes gradually became unfocused, and at the end she was almost murmuring.
Her face was extremely pale, her thin body was trembling slightly, and her hands were tightly tangled together.
"Master Xiao, tell me, is our decision... really correct?"
Liu Qian's eyes were focused. The light in her eyes was so bright that it was almost dazzling, but it was so fragile that it seemed that it would be extinguished immediately if it was blown by a wisp of breeze.
…
Liu Qian like this makes people feel sympathy.
However, Xiao Xiao slightly closed his eyelids, feeling a little strange about his unusually calm heart.
He sighed a little and was a little indifferent.
The expression on her face was still gentle, but her whispering voice made Liu Qian shiver inexplicably.
"If you're so worried, why didn't you bring it up just now?"
When Mr. Zhang told them their decision, when they were talking and laughing at the dinner table, when they were changing glasses, there were obviously so many opportunities to express their thoughts.
Xiao Xiao wonders if this haggard and worried mother tried to do anything during the week when the Zhang family was thinking about it?
I don’t know if her silence today is because of the compromise that has been repeatedly rejected?
He only saw Liu Qian's silence before and her vague stiffness and resistance towards the child.
A contradictory attitude of wanting to get closer but unconsciously staying away.
…
Xiao Xiao recalled that when the child grabbed Liu Qian's pants, although she did not push the child away, there was a rather shocking look of disgust and fear in her eyes.
Although it's just a very faint trace, and since she came to him now and talked to him like this, it shows that even if Liu Qian has some psychological discomfort with children with bugs in their bodies, she still has maternal love for the children after all.
Got the upper hand.
…
However, she obviously had so many worrying thoughts, but she suppressed them and didn't talk to him until the end. So, what answer did she want to get from him?
He has said before that this is their family matter. There is no good or bad choice between the two choices. It all depends on their own choice.
...
Or, does she just want to get some comfort from him, so that she can put aside her worries with peace of mind?
...
Is it too mean for him to think this way?
Is he too strict for a mother?
Xiao Xiao curled up his lips inexplicably. He was probably worried about the disgust towards children that appeared in Liu Qian's eyes before, right?
...
Children are innocent, but they are often the most sensitive.
Xiao Xiao thought of the child's shrinking, confusion, fear and grievance after noticing the look in his mother's lowered eyes.
Even so, the child still stubbornly held on to his mother's wrinkled pants.
Because... compared to others, at least his mother is still by his side.
Xiao Xiao did not miss the fact that the child subconsciously turned his head to look at others after being frightened by his mother's gaze.
However, even though the distance was not far away, it was like a deep chasm. The little child looked up, but did not get a look back down.
Seeing no response, the child slowly lowered his head.
Xiao Xiao's hearing, which is far superior to that of ordinary people, allowed Xiao Xiao to hear the almost whispering call: Mom.
…
However, Xiao Xiao looked at Liu Qian.
Although children are sensitive, they are also the most forgetful.
He believes that as long as the mother of the child overcomes the psychological barriers and treats the child as always.
There shouldn't be any trace left in the child's heart.
…
"I……"
Liu Qian deliberately wanted to explain, but after uttering one word, she was speechless.
Finally, Liu Qian lowered her head deeply and said, "I'm sorry."
She felt that she was really embarrassed now.
And very ashamed.
It seemed that the secret, selfish, and obscure thoughts that he had buried deep in his heart, that even he had barely noticed, were nakedly exposed in front of the young Master Xiao in front of him.
Suddenly realizing this, she had no way of explaining it, not even a defense.
…
"You don't need to say sorry to me."
The corners of Xiao Xiao's eyes curved gently, "I can't comment on your choice."
"Just, what is your choice?"
"Are you sure?"
…
"my choice?"
Liu Qian murmured to herself.
After a long time, her expression calmed down.
"Master Xiao."
Xiao Xiao's eyes were like a still stream in a pond, showing the tenderness of his veins.
"The Zhang family's decision is my decision."
Liu Qian's voice was soft, but a little more firm and calm.
...
This is not the ancient times, and she is not a bitter wife.
In the past week, the Zhang family had repeatedly discussed this matter and consulted her opinion many times.
It was indeed her father-in-law who first proposed not to remove the child's alcohol bug.
Later, it was agreed by everyone including her.
…
In her generation, she actually no longer cares so much about what happens after her death.
For her, the most important thing is that her children live well while they are alive.