Shan Fangze even wanted to take half a bottle of sleeping pills.
He didn't believe that he could dream like this.
...
But the single mother discovered it.
Sleeping pills were scattered all over the floor.
...
"Pa~"
Shan's mother slapped him.
...
It was the first slap given to him by a single mother since he was born.
...
"You don't want your life?!"
The single mother was trembling all over.
Even though she was consciously trying to control her emotions, her voice still trembled.
...
Shan's mother hugged Shan Fangze, the corners of her eyes were red, "Xiao Ze, don't be anxious."
"Do not worry."
"Mom and dad will find a way."
"We will find a way."
"There will definitely be a way."
...
Shan Fangze gradually became silent towards his parents.
He doesn't hold grudge against that slap.
He just discovered that his emotions, which had not been well rested for a long time...had some uncontrollable violent tendencies.
He was afraid that he would inadvertently hurt his single father and single mother.
...
"I feel like I'm going crazy."
Shan Fangze's brows were filled with exhaustion and violence, like a beast trapped in a cage, spinning around, his teeth hissing and his claws scratching, but he only ended up with bruises all over his body.
To get out of trouble...doesn't help.
...
"I wonder what this dream is about?"
"I saw many doctors, including a psychiatrist."
"but-"
Shan Fangze spread his hands, his eyebrows drooped, and his breath was weak, "The result is as you can see."
"I'm still tortured by that nightmare."
…
Gu Youxuan and the others looked at each other in confusion.
He opened his mouth to speak, but for a moment he didn't know what to say.
…
If this incident hadn't happened to one of their classmates, if they hadn't seen Shan Fangze in such terrible condition with their own eyes, they would have really thought that this was a made-up plot.
It is true to have nightmares, and it is not incomprehensible that dreams continue.
Maybe I have something to think about during the day and something at night, because I am always thinking about the dream I had before, and it is not impossible to dream about the subsequent development later.
But, keep having the same dream?
is it possible?
…
"Have you been having the same nightmare?"
Zhou Zhou asked uncertainly.
…
"Yes, since my dream developed to the point where I sank into the water, whenever I fall asleep, I will be submerged in water when I wake up in the dream."
"The strong feeling of suffocation almost made me think I would die in my dream."
Shan Fangze couldn't help but stretched out his hand and touched his neck, with a hint of unconscious fear in his eyes.
"But every time I really can't hold on and want to give up, I wake up."
"Then I found myself still lying peacefully on the bed."
…
"That-"
Winnie's eyes lit up and she suddenly shouted.
…
Shan Fangze waved his hand, "I know what you mean."
"Do you think that since this is the case, wouldn't it be better if I just give up and wake up every time I dream?"
…
"Uh-huh."
Winnie nodded, then realized something was wrong and asked: "Isn't this... okay?"
Shan Fangze guessed what she meant at once.
Does this mean that he has also thought about it or even tried it?
The result...is not satisfactory?
…
"no."
Shan Fangze shook his head, "I later discovered that I wouldn't wake up if I gave up."
"But-"
"I won't wake up until I'm exhausted."
…
"This dream seems to be trying to torture me, rather than beating me to death with a stick."
"It just makes me suffer!"
Shan Fangze roared in a low voice, his hair being messed up by him.
The aura around me is restless, like a taut string that may snap with a snap at any time.
…
this……
Shan Fangze's real problem was beyond all of Gu Youxuan's expectations.
Not sick.
But it can be said to be a "terminal disease" in another sense.
Non-stop nightmare?!
…
Everyone felt that the development of things had become a bit mysterious and strange and fell into silence again.
…
"Is it possible that you already have this understanding in your heart that you will dream as soon as you sleep?"
Mu Yan considered it and said, "It's equivalent to you giving yourself a psychological hint."
…
Mu Yan's words made everyone look surprised.
This statement sounds reasonable, right?
Everyone looked at Shan Fangze.
…
"Of course I've thought about it."
Shan Fangze's tone was a little impatient.
Since the nightmare, his temper has gotten worse and worse due to lack of rest.
"Those doctors said the same thing."
"But no!"
"Hell no!"
Shan Fangze looked ferocious and roared loudly.
Everyone around him subconsciously took a step back.
…
"I watch a lot of comedies."
Shan Fangze gasped loudly, "I even watched a lot of horror movies."
"I also memorized books."
"I let my mind fill up with all kinds of other stuff."
He stretched out his hand to cover his head, "I felt like my head was going to explode and it was throbbing in pain."
"I thought I really forgot."
"But-"
He couldn't help but hit the ground hard, "No!"
"As soon as I fall asleep, I will enter that nightmare."
"It's just a ghost!"
…
Shan Fangze lowered his head, his voice low and hoarse, "I also tried hypnosis."
"Chi~"
He snorted disdainfully, his lowered face full of sarcasm, "What hypnosis?"
"I still had that nightmare."
"Then I remembered everything I had forgotten under hypnosis."
…
"Obviously it's me who's dreaming."
Shan Fangze's voice changed from high to low, "Why is it that I am the one who is passive?"
"That dream was absolutely demonic."
"You won't let me go no matter what."
"How can I stop having this nightmare?"
"Will it follow me forever?"
…
The room was quiet.
Shan Fangze's whispering like a wounded beast made everyone feel a little uncomfortable.
The single mother tightly covered her mouth to prevent her choking sounds from coming out.
There was a tear falling from the corner of his eye.
…
Shan's father couldn't help clenching his hands hanging by his sides, his nails digging into his flesh.
He boasts that his abilities are quite good, and after most of his life has passed, he can be said to have achieved both fame and fortune.
Now, he is helpless about his son's problem.
A strong sense of powerlessness and frustration swept through my body.
He leaned back on the door panel, his usually straight back slightly hunched.
…
The aunt whispered "Amitabha."
What evil has been done?
How has a good child been tortured?
…
Gu Youxuan and the others stayed until dark before saying goodbye and leaving.
…
For a whole day, they tried their best to think of many ways.
Various ways.
...
However, everything they could think of, and even all the aspects they hadn't thought of, were also thought of by the Shan family, the doctors Shan Fangze had seen, and the experts they visited.
And it is far more in-depth and detailed than what they thought in a flash of inspiration.