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Human beings are very strange creatures. They always like to be with people who are more compatible with them.
In Asuna's words, she was the kind of girl who would not willingly succumb to someone's feet. The reason why she chose to stay with Wu Lingfeng was because she found in him someone who suited her.
People like to bury their secrets in the deepest places, not letting their secrets be seen, not letting their fragility be discovered, not letting the strong appearance they have built be stripped away, they are always disguising themselves, because otherwise
Can't live.
In the midst of hesitation, what people like most is to cover up or forget this hesitation, and then define a better position for themselves and live hypocritically. There is no way. Frail people need this to give themselves the chance to survive.
courage.
When she was trapped in the world of Sao, Asuna was hesitant at first, but in the end she threw away this hesitation and set a goal for herself: "Even if I lose to a monster and die, I don't want to lose to this one."
Games and the World”.
In SAO, Asuna thought about quickly conquering the entire world and then escaping, sometimes even forcing others to fight together.
However, when she was reincarnated in this world, she saw a so-called sense of happiness in Wu Lingfeng. The harmonious relationship between Wu Lingfeng and the people around him made her feel that she might be too impatient and struggled with it.
In this world, it is better to enjoy this world. This is the philosophical thinking of life. Instead of feeling helpless, it is better to experience this beautiful world happily.
Asuna's heart was opened by Wu Lingfeng. So she wanted to retaliate and help Wu Lingfeng open his world.
Although Wu Lingfeng looks very strong on the surface. Whether it is facing various things in the outside world or his attitude towards the people around him, he does very well.
But Asuna knew that Wu Lingfeng was hiding the fear, uneasiness, and hesitation in his heart. It was not brought to him by the world, but by himself.
"Stop escaping, otherwise this will become your eternal fear!" Asuna said to Wu Lingfeng.
"What are you running away from? I don't understand what you are talking about. It's getting so late. Let's go back. Really, what nonsense are you talking about?" Wu Lingfeng pushed Asuna's body away and walked forward.
"You coward. Cowardly guy, is escaping yourself like this your ideal? A person, no matter how dirty his past is, how glorious his future is, but he is always him, and the past and future are him. These are
It is the existence that constitutes the human being. You choose to abandon your cowardice and keep your strength. Are you denying yourself?" Asuna said loudly.
Wu Lingfeng immediately turned around angrily and said: "I'm not denying myself, but you are the one who speaks like this to the master who summoned you. If you don't want to stay here, please leave. I don't need it!"
"Have you talked about your pain? But if you keep burying this pain in your heart, it will become your eternal fear. Even if it is suppressed and not exposed now, one day you will be overwhelmed by your own darkness.
Devoured." Asuna said seriously.
Wu Ling walked up to Asuna angrily, stared at her with wide eyes, and said: "I tell you, no. I am so outstanding now, the most talented divine bloodline in the continent, and there are so many powerful people around me.
People, and there are so many people who love me, how could I..."
"Pa..."
Asuna immediately slapped Wu Lingfeng, interrupted Wu Lingfeng, and said: "This is just the perfect appearance you are trying to maintain. Your heart is actually fragile. Come on, tell me if you have any pain."
Talk about it and I will be a good listener for you.”
Wu Lingfeng sighed heavily and said, "Did you see it?"
Asuna nodded and said: "Well, during the battle, you were completely immersed in it and didn't show it. But in the past few days, you have been in a daze. Maybe others thought you were too tired.
Yes, but I don’t think so. Well, maybe I have been in this state before, so I understand you..."
"Isn't it good to keep hiding it? I am living a very free and unrestrained life now..." Wu Lingfeng said in a self-deprecating tone.
"Come, tell me, it's very uncomfortable to be alone in your heart. Although I don't understand your past, I am a good listener." Asuna said while sitting on the grass, using her little hands.
He patted the place beside him and motioned for Wu Lingfeng to sit down.
"Um……"
Maybe it was because he had been holding back the pain in his heart for too long. Wu Lingfeng also wanted to find someone to talk to, but he never found the right person. No, or maybe he didn't like his embarrassed appearance to be seen by other girls.
"You know? In fact, when I came to this world, I felt faintly excited and happy. I left my family, friends and everything on the earth, and suddenly I felt like I had gained a new life. I felt free and my life became brighter.
My mother has been gone since the time I was born. My neighbor’s aunt said that my mother suffered from severe labor bleeding when I was born... When I can remember, when I see other people’s children with their mothers, I feel faintly
of pain and loneliness.
My father loves my mother, so he never married another woman, but you know what? Every time I face my father, his eyes are lifeless, and he doesn’t have any emotional fluctuations when looking at me. Every day when I go outside
Work at the construction site, then come home drunk...
I started to be independent when I was five years old. Because I didn’t want to go hungry, I learned to wash dishes and cook by myself... Once I burned my hands while cooking and my father didn’t have any reaction. I had no choice but to go to the hospital for treatment. Haha, at that time
I was still very naive, I thought it was my fault, and the hot hand was caused by my failure to do good things.
When I was seven years old, I went to kindergarten. In order to make my father happy, I started to study hard and got the first place in the school. I put the certificate, automatic pen and the two yuan reward in front of my father, but you
You know, he took the two dollars and went out to buy wine, but I still thought on the bright side, thinking that the father was pleased that his son was capable and bought wine to celebrate...
Then in the first grade, I got the first place in the school. Two 100-point test papers in Chinese and mathematics were placed in front of my father. I also received a notice to go to the town to take the town's outstanding student examination, but...
But do you know? What did my father do!! Use it as toilet paper. At that time, my heart suddenly broke. I could no longer be strong, work hard, or smile any more!
When I was in second and third grade, I was still a little restrained. Although my ranking dropped a bit, I was still among the top five in the school. But gradually, the fatherly love I expected did not come. I was sinking and hating this.
The world hates myself. Yes, I feel that I killed my mother. I should be hated by my father, and I should also hate myself!!
I caused troubles and fights, skipped classes and surfed the Internet, and even tried to rape a female classmate. Although my final rationality prevented me from taking the last step, the reason why I did not take the last step was that the girl had a crush on me and she did not resist.
, Facing a girl who loves me like this, I can’t bear to torture her...
I'm a scumbag, a bastard. I've never had that kind of thought about girls since then. I just kept fighting and skipping classes and surfing the Internet. Finally, the girl who had a crush on me also gave up on me. She liked me because she was in kindergarten.
, I saw me who had excellent grades, cheerful personality, bravery and strength, so I thought I would get better, but, haha, I let her down.
No matter how strong a child is, how can he be strong in the face of a family like mine? I think if a car accident suddenly killed me, I would be considered happy, so I am really happy to come into this world...
Just when I chose to forget the past, once, in a dream scene, I saw my father living on a hospital bed, and then he was holding a yellow piece of paper with a
The dark red 100 points is my elementary school test paper. Does this tell me that my father has been keeping it?
At that time, I felt that maybe I was wrong. Maybe my father loved me, but he just couldn't forget my mother's death. So...then my self-destruction was nothing!!!!
Although it's just a phantom, I think it's possible that it's the truth. After all, what father doesn't like his child?
But is it true or false? I am afraid of going back. If the scene in the phantom is false, I might as well stay in this world. But if it is true, then I will be so happy. Without maternal love, at least I have a father.
Love, although my father didn’t do anything that looked like love, as long as he didn’t hate me, it was love. If he really kept that broken 100-point piece of paper in his hand, then he would be an extremely profound father.
like.
I can't tell the difference, Asuna, tell me, what should I do? Should I go back or choose to live in this world, should I deny the past or accept the past?"
Asuna was immediately shocked. He, his life experience was so tragic. It was a miracle that he was alive. If it were him, he might not want to live. Yes, how can we help him judge? Ying
Shouldn't we go back? A normal person would not want to go back, after all, it is a hell, a hell that devours people.
Wu Lingfeng shook his head and said: "Forget it, let it continue to remain, we will make any judgment. I hope you don't tell other people about today's matter, I don't want them to know my past..."
"Pa..."
Asuna immediately grabbed Wu Lingfeng's hand and said: "Don't leave..." (To be continued, please search Piao Tian Literature, the novel is better and updated faster!
