Fu Qingjiao went crazy for a while after her plan was exposed and her father Fu Qiuyuan died tragically in prison.
She was trapped in the palace and could not go out. The palace servants around her said they were here to serve her, but they made it clear that they were looking after her.
How could an arrogant Fu Qingjiao endure such a dark day?
It was under such circumstances that when Fu Qingjiao looked at the young sixth prince, she suddenly had the urge to strangle her son to death and then put an end to it.
However, when her fingers covered the sixth prince's neck, which was so slender and soft that it seemed like it could be easily broken, she finally failed to be cruel.
After all, this was the child she gave birth to in ten months of pregnancy. Even though the child's father was no longer around, and even though the child could no longer help her sit in a higher position, she couldn't bear to hurt him.
With such hesitation, the Sixth Prince grew up slowly and unconsciously.
He learned to walk, could hold Fu Qingjiao's clothes and call her "mother" in a sweet voice. His smart eyes were full of clarity, and everything in his world was so clean and harmless.
In this way, Fu Qingjiao will no longer be cruel.
Even if she is sitting in a high position, she will not know what to do next, and her life will begin to feel like a pool of stagnant water.
The sixth prince was a bloodline of the late emperor, and the late emperor specifically asked Leng Moran to take care of him before he died. Therefore, after the sixth prince left the palace, he was given a mansion in the capital and was granted the title of king as a matter of course.
Emperor Honghui only loved her as a concubine, not this kind of deep love.
No matter how much you love me, you won't be able to love me alone.
This kind of pampering cannot be compared to other concubines.
Fu Qingjiao was able to call out "donor" calmly, and then poured tea for the two of them without any disturbance.
Fu Qingjiao even felt that her status in Emperor Honghui's heart was definitely not inferior to that of Queen Murong Si.
You can also face everything you have experienced in the past calmly.
No matter where you and I are, we only have each other in our hearts, and there is no room for anyone else.
According to regulations, the sixth prince's mother and concubine must be named the Queen Mother.
No matter how early she met Leng Moran, Leng Moran still didn't have her in his heart.
She had never seen such love before, and she didn't know it could be like this.
She couldn't accept it in the past, but now she can finally face it calmly.
The days passed slowly in such an ordinary life.
Many years later, Fu Qingjiao met Leng Moran and Xiao Xixi who had abdicated in the nunnery and came to Shangxiang to stay for a while.
There are many good men in the world, and even if Leng Moran is gone, she still can't find a good marriage.
Fortunately, none of what she did was successful.
Fu Qingjiao even vaguely felt that in a certain life, the sixth prince ascended the throne and she became the queen mother, but that was not what she wanted.
But when she saw that after Leng Moran came to the throne, Xiao Xixi was still the only one in the harem, Fu Qingjiao suddenly understood that there would be such a love.
As the sixth prince grew up, it was obviously not suitable for him to continue living in the palace.
She clearly did not love Emperor Honghui and had no feelings for him, yet she entered the palace as a concubine out of anger and competed with a group of women every day for his favor.
Whether it is painful or unwilling...
Fu Qingjiao never thought about taking the Sixth Prince to death together, and even wanted to survive herself.
Thinking back to the time when she was heartbroken because Leng Moran wanted to marry Xiao Xixi, and she entered the palace as a concubine as if she was angry, she felt childish and ridiculous.
Even her son, the Sixth Prince, might not necessarily want to ascend the throne by murdering his brothers.
This kind of love can be encountered but cannot be sought.
So she can blame everyone but not this child.
It's a pity that at that time, she was arrogant and unwilling to admit that she lost to Xiao Xixi, so she chose to enter the palace to prove herself.
Seeing the three thousand black hairs slowly falling to the ground, Fu Qingjiao felt like she could let go of everything.
It was she who brought such a clean child into this world.
Since she wanted to enjoy the dignity brought by the emperor's favor, she also had to accept that the emperor had other women.
It is the world that is dirty, it is her, not this child who knows nothing.
She was clearly not greedy for power, but she poisoned and murdered the former prince just to put her own son on the throne.
She thought it would be better if she could understand this earlier.
After figuring it out, Fu Qingjiao couldn't help but laugh.
No one expected that Fu Qingjiao rejected the Queen Mother's decree and expressed her desire to go to a nunnery to practice cultivation.
Fu Qingjiao forced herself to calm down, and at the same time advised herself that emperors were like this, so she shouldn't be too emotional.
After living in the nunnery for several years, Fu Qingjiao felt that her mood had become more and more peaceful.
Fu Qingjiao quietly raised him in the palace.
But, is this really what she wants?
Probably not.
Although Leng Moran was surprised, seeing that Fu Qingjiao had no other bad intentions, he agreed to her request.
And she didn't expect that she would be able to obtain this.
Fu Qingjiao cruelly left her parents and children without even a maid, and found a nunnery alone to become a monk.
She had long since let go of her youthful love for Leng Moran.
You won't live in vain for so many years.
Lifeless.
But now that I think about it, I not only think it was totally wrong, but also ridiculous and childish.
After entering the palace, Emperor Honghui really doted on her.
Assigned to Fu Qingjiao, no matter how much he was pampered, it was already too subtle.
She didn't even think about whether these were what she really wanted.
But as an emperor, there were so many women in Emperor Honghui's harem, and Fu Qingjiao was just one of them.
Xiao Xixi also smiled at Fu Qingjiao and told her that the sixth prince was doing very well in the capital now, and the eldest princess Yongzhao was going to choose a princess for him.
Fu Qingjiao chanted sutras every day, copied sutras, and followed his master's lectures on Buddhism.
Nowadays, she has put aside all the matters related to the emperor's concubines, and her daily concern is to chant sutras, practice meditation, eat fast and go to bed. Simple little things can make her experience unprecedented happiness and comfort.
Love or not is not something that can be explained simply and clearly.
One person cannot take all the good things in the world.
Looking back now, Fu Qingjiao feels that she has done too many wrong things in the past, but at that time, she did not think that what she did was wrong.
Seeing that Fu Qingjiao had not been a demon for many years, Leng Moran let her leave the palace with the sixth prince.
She felt that she was not in the wrong place.
Emperor Honghui wanted to divide his favor into many parts and give them to the countless concubines in the harem.
He has also let go of his hatred for Xiao Xixi.
After hearing this, Fu Qingjiao also smiled calmly. She believed that the eldest princess would choose a good marriage for the sixth prince.
How great would it be if we could be so indifferent earlier?
Fortunately, it is not too late now.
She still has time to slowly experience the beauty that life brings.
For the rest of her life, she just wanted to live quietly in the nunnery, and watching the sixth prince get married and have children with the one she loved was enough.
