After waking up from the dream, Su He was a little silent. Those things were still rolling in his mind, so Su He was in a bad mood at this time.
In fact, Su He had always remembered these things, but when she woke up, facing an unfamiliar environment, only those good memories supported her and made her feel dependent, so she subconsciously ignored the bad things.
matter.
Everyone has two sides. She lived like that in her previous life. It's not her fault that everyone looked down on her. She looked down on her, let alone others.
There's nothing wrong with her parents, it's just that the contrast between the two is too strong. Anyone would choose a daughter who is well-spoken, good-achieving and sensible, and an uneducated daughter with low wages and no future.
She even thought it was wrong to blame them for being partial. People's hearts are inherently biased, and God is unfair. How could she ask her parents to treat everyone equally?
The palms of the hands and the backs of the hands are all flesh, and both of them are flesh. If they were compared, she would be the flesh of the back of the hands, and her sister would be the flesh of the palms.
However, if she was facing an outsider, her mother would still choose her without hesitation. Su He understood her thoughts, but she still couldn't accept it emotionally.
When she saw faces that looked exactly like those of her grandparents in her previous life yesterday, all those memories came flooding back. Only then did she realize that it wasn't that she didn't care, she still felt aggrieved.
It’s just that she has become accustomed to being generous and magnanimous, showing the best of everything to the outside, and not holding back any grievances in her stomach. Even if her cooking hand is injured, she will cover it up so that no one else can see it.
There is a saying that a crying child has milk to drink, but she is not born to give in and talk about her grievances. Doesn’t it hurt if she is hurt?
Of course she was in pain, but she subconsciously didn't want others to see her weakness. In fact, she was not a saint, and the thoughts in her mind were actually very dark and shameful.
She is jealous of her younger sister, who has better grades and appearance than her, and a bright future. She is jealous of her cousin, who is doted on by her grandparents because she is a boy. She is jealous of her uncle and aunt's two sons, who have had problems without working hard since childhood.
everything.
She even hates this world. Why is life different from birth? Why can't God be fair to her?
In this life, she actually always felt that she was stolen, so she kept thinking of the memories of her previous life to remind herself that she was just an ordinary person, so she studied all the time, and she also felt that money could not be taken away, but in her memory
These things are different.
Look, how selfish she is, everything is for herself, but who doesn't think about themselves for the rest of their lives, unless they are really saints.
However, despite these barriers, she still really missed them, because no matter what, they were still her family, and these bad things could not completely erase their kindness to her.
Especially when those family members and she would never see each other again, there was no way to erase the good things. But at this time, when she thought of those bad memories, she still couldn't treat them with a normal heart.
"Dong dong dong... Su He, are you back?" Su He's thoughts were suddenly interrupted by a knock on the door.
"I'm back, I'm a little tired, I want to lie down for a while." Su He did not open the door. It was not suitable for her to go out at this time, which would put everyone in a bad mood.
"Well, there is breakfast on the table, remember to eat it when you get up," Sister Juan said.
"Okay" Su He replied dully.
Listening to the footsteps fading away, Su He breathed a sigh of relief and began to calm down her emotions. Her mood was very bad and was not conducive to her subsequent studies.
There is still one month left before the start of school. In the next month, she will forget all the bad things, let the good memories stay in her mind, and start a new life.
Because of this dream, Su He completely forgot about the Su family. They had never interacted with each other before, and something unpleasant happened yesterday. In Su He's opinion, it would be best for everyone to live in peace in the future.
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Facing the sea, the spring flowers are blooming, and looking at the vast sea, Su He's bad mood seems to be relieved.
Originally Su He planned to go back to the same city and visit the high school, but because he remembered those bad things, Su He suddenly wanted to see the sea.
In this life, she just did what she thought of, so soon she was standing on the land of City S, and then went to the nearest coast.
She went to the beach a lot in her previous life, and later on, she didn't miss it at all. But this time, looking at the blue water, she felt more peaceful than ever before.
Suddenly, Su He felt a big black shadow shrouded in front of him, "Can you add me as a friend?"
Looking at the sunny boy grinning nervously in front of him, and the boy companion winking at the side, Su He didn't feel disturbed at all, "Okay."
Sometimes life is not necessarily all about rejection. For example, at this time, if she feels happy, then it doesn't matter if she agrees. Besides, if she refuses at this time, it will make the other party very embarrassed.
Looking at the boy who walked towards his companion happily, Su He felt a little emotional. She probably would never be so innocent and brilliant again in her life. Although she was not old, her mentality was already old.
Sometimes she wonders how people who are reborn as children in novels can play the role of children so well, especially those who were very old before they were reborn.
For example, she was only in her twenties before her rebirth, but when she was a child in this life, she could clearly feel that her mentality was completely different from the children around her, even though everyone said she looked like a child before her rebirth.
But acting like a child is completely different from being reborn as a real child. The cleanliness of a child cannot be imitated by someone who has been in society.
The boy's friend application was approved. In fact, Su He agreed to add the friend for another purpose, that is, the boy's appearance matched Su He's aesthetics, and it was quite eye-catching to put him in his friend list.
Before Su He could finish his daze, the sudden vibration of the cell phone in his hand that he had not put down in time interrupted all Su He's thoughts.
"Hello?" This was a call from an unknown person. Su He usually did not answer calls like this. Most of them were harassing calls, but she was in a good mood today.
"Su He, I'm uncle, aren't you at home today?" Su Hang was holding a bunch of things in his hands, but he was turned down.
"Well, I'm going back to City S today," Su He said one after another.
She didn't know where Su Hang got her number, but Su He didn't intend to get into it. She answered when she was in a good mood, and it was none of her business to care who called when she was in a bad mood.
"Why did you suddenly run away to City S? Why didn't you tell us?" Su Hang thought that Su He went to Su's house yesterday, which meant that she agreed to return to Su's house, but why did she run away without saying a word?
Thing.
"I haven't eaten a grain of rice from the Su family or drank a drop of water from the Su family. I don't owe the Su family anything. I think I should have the right to decide what I want to do." Although Su He answered casually, there was a hint of emotion in his tone.
Full of mockery.
Su Hang realized that he had made a mistake and quickly made up for it, "Uncle, that's not what you meant. It's just that your grandma was afraid that you wouldn't be able to eat well, so she asked me to bring you a lot of food. I didn't expect that you were not in city B."
"Well, I'm not short of food, you can take it back." After that dream, Su He didn't want to see the Suhang family for the time being, because it would remind her of those bad things.
Thinking about it, she is a bit pretentious. She is the one she wants to see, and she is the one she doesn't want to see. In fact, what she wants is just the missing. She will only miss her when she can't see her. After seeing her, she will feel like nothing more than that.
"These are your grandma's thoughts. Old man, she is wholeheartedly doing it for her children. These things are not easy to break. Why don't I leave them out for you first?" Su Hang subconsciously played the emotional card.
He was getting more and more strange now. Su He was an orphan. Although the property in front of her was not a villa, it was still expensive. Even if it was just renting, it would cost a lot of rent per month. She also had such a casual personality.
You must know that in this society, what can support her to travel around is not time, but money. Without money, she cannot even guarantee the future, how can she be so unrestrained.
And her parents are ordinary migrant workers, so how much legacy can they leave to her? Su He hasn't even gone to college yet, so she can't earn much by working part-time.
So now he is becoming more and more confused. The information he was given before was not similar to reality at all, which made him make many miscalculated decisions. He couldn't do a good job with his money. It was time to replace him.
"No, it's not convenient to leave it outside. Take it back. I don't know when I'll go back." Did she provoke another gummy?
She didn't like these emotional cards from Su Hang. Her father didn't enjoy much favor from the Su family. Everything he had was earned by himself, only the favor of childbirth was not repaid.
She, even less so, did not stay at Su's house for dinner that night. She is short-tongued and does not want to be restricted by these restrictions. As for her father's gift of giving birth, she will repay it on her father's behalf.
From now on, she will decide based on her mood whether to continue to get along with each other. Getting along depends on the wishes of both parties. Even if she has this intention and the Su family does not have this intention, she will not get along with her.
"Well, let's talk about it after you come back." Su Hang didn't say any more. When you don't understand the situation, it will be wrong to say more.
"Um"
After that, there was endless silence. Su He had no habit of abusing himself to please other people. Su Hang always let other people find topics, so he just accepted them, so after a few words, there was no topic to talk about.
"Then hang up now and talk to you next time. You have fun," Su Hang said.