"Okay, okay, you should be sleepy too, go to bed quickly." Su He pulled the quilt on Chen Jiao, not wanting her to cause trouble again, but fortunately she was big-hearted, otherwise she would have been depressed.
After pulling the quilt on Chen Jiao, Su He also lay down. Although her body could withstand this day, her heart couldn't bear it and she was too tired.
Because Chen Jiao didn't want to be gossiped about by the outside world, she chose to take a leave of absence. Although she took a leave of absence, Chen Jiao was not leisurely. As a student of Huaqing University, she was still under a lot of pressure, because as long as you don't move, you are regressing.
Su He did not choose to ask for leave. She continued to attend class. She had nothing else to do and devoted all her energy to studying. After class, she would occasionally come back to see Chen Jiao and bring her notes.
"You work so hard," Chen Jiao sighed and looked at Su He.
"If you want to learn something well, you need to be diligent," Su He said back to Chen Jiao without even raising his head while reading.
"No, no, no, everyone is lazy, but I haven't seen it in you. You always study when you have time. I'm quite curious. Don't you feel tired?" Chen Jiao looked at Su He and asked curiously.
Even if she was admitted to Huaqing University, she had never studied so hard. She always thought that it was just about right, and then she got here. Although her grades were never among the top, she was always in the middle.
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She thought Su He was stimulated when Su He studied without sleep or food before, but now, she could clearly feel that Su He had forgotten Ye Zhe, so it could only be Su He's normal behavior to study like this now.
Can anyone really enjoy studying like this? There are so many people in the class, and Su He is not the only one in the dormitory. They all work hard, but there are still few like Su He. Is it because they are not as involved as Su He?
"No, I will rest when I'm tired. I don't feel tired." Su He chatted with Chen Jiao all the time. She was now making good use of her multitasking.
"Why are you studying so hard?" This is what Chen Jiao is most curious about.
Chen Jiao doesn't know if other people have it, but she does feel confused sometimes. She doesn't understand the meaning of entangled life and the meaning of learning.
No matter how you live your life, there are only so many years in your life, and you may not necessarily have more money than others. In fact, if you have more money, it will only be spent on that thing.
She has never limited her consumption now, and her family can support her consumption in the future, or even higher. She seems to have no need to work hard. No matter how hard she works, she feels that her family will not give her as much.
So she doesn't know the meaning of her efforts. Even if she doesn't do some things, there are still people who can do them. Her father also has a hospital, and there are many capable people there, and she is not missing one.
Unless she is extremely talented, takes the postgraduate and Ph.D. exams, and then studies hard, she seems to be unable to bring anything, but the meaning is meaningless. Her father can spend money to hire such a person, so she can bring nothing at all.
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"People must have their own self-worth. I am realizing my self-worth now." Su He still didn't look up, she was looking at it in fascination.
"But even if there is no one, there will always be someone who can do it," Chen Jiao continued.
At this time, Su He felt something was wrong. She put down the book in her hand and turned to look at Chen Jiao, "Are you in a period of confusion?"
"Well, a little bit," Chen Jiao said, lowering her head.
"Actually, I have been through a period like yours, but I got through it, so I am still passionate about life." Su He couldn't help but laugh when she thought of the funny things that had happened to her before.
"Then how did you get through it?" Chen Jiao asked urgently. She felt that this state was very dangerous, but she really couldn't find a way to solve it.
"I just thought about it, but when it comes to this, people usually doubt life only when they are middle-aged. Why do you start to doubt the meaning of life at such a young age? You have so much time to go
Spend money and go have fun, what's the point of doubting it?" Su He joked.
"Haha, you are only middle-aged. Aren't you doubting life earlier than me?" Chen Jiao rolled her eyes.
"Uh" Su He was speechless due to the rebuke. She didn't think about herself, but she was almost middle-aged. She had been in middle age for more than 20 years in her previous life and nearly 20 years in this life.
But he couldn't say it so confidently, "Do you still want to know?"
"Okay, I was wrong, just say it." Chen Jiao approached Su He and hugged Su He's arm to coax her.
"Philosophers say that experiencing the process of things and getting happiness from them is the meaning of life."
"Existential psychologists say that rational ability determines the value of existence. If a person's life is just birth, old age, illness, death, and reproduction, there is indeed no essential difference from animals. The ultimate meaning of life is self-realization and establishing influence."
"But no matter what others say, what you think is the most important thing is, and the meaning of my life is a sense of accomplishment. I like that sense of accomplishment, which makes me feel that my existence is meaningful and that I can help others.
I can bring good influence to others and I am not useless, so I chose this course.”
"But this course is not that simple. It is different from other subjects. It requires zero mistakes and zero tolerance for mistakes. So I read books when I have nothing to do, just so that I don't have to worry about things when I encounter problems in the future.
As for being at a loss”
Su He said with a smile, "I really like this subject, not because it is my task, so I don't feel tired of studying it."
After listening to Su He's long words, Chen Jiao was deeply shocked. She really regarded it as a task just like Su He said. She would do what was asked of her, but other than that she didn't do anything.
There is no passion either.
Maybe this is the reason why Su He was at the top of every exam, but she was in the same class and dormitory, but her grades were far behind.
"But what is the meaning of my life?" Chen Jiao was even more confused about her life.
"It's up to you to find it yourself. If you really find it, it's not this subject. You're still a freshman and you still have time to change." Su He sincerely planned for Chen Jiao, "If you can find someone of your own,
If you like something, you won’t be so tired when you do it, and it will also feel meaningful.”
"What do you like?" Chen Jiao was stunned. Her family had always given her the choice, and her mother had given her the choice. She didn't seem to like anything. Liu Hu was the first thing she liked, but in the end this was the solution.
, then what else does she like?
"Yes." Su He nodded, "Just like I feel that saving lives and healing the wounded makes me feel very accomplished. Learning a knowledge point makes me feel very accomplished. I like this profession and I am willing to work hard for it, so this is
Makes me feel very meaningful”
"I don't seem to like anything," Chen Jiao said cowardly.
"How could it be? It's just that you haven't found it yet, and you will find it eventually. Even if you don't find it in college, you can still work hard for it in the future. It's just a little late, but it won't be a delay." Su He said with a smile,
Comforting Chen Jiao.
"Really?" Chen Jiao asked suspiciously. She had never felt that she liked any industry. She didn't care about anything and just went with the flow. She would do whatever her family asked her to do.
Just like this time when filling out the application form, my mother said that doctors save lives and heal the wounded, and their profession is very high, so she came to study medicine. However, she had no feeling about saving lives and healing the wounded, and she just followed her mother's wish.
She felt that other people's affairs had nothing to do with her. Doctors never healed themselves, and those who studied medicine could not cure their own illnesses. So what was the point of studying medicine? Others had to worry about other people's affairs.
"Yes, I believe you can find your target. If you don't find it now, just live happily." Su He patted Chen Jiao on the shoulder, "Don't be confused, everything will be known when the time comes."
"Yeah" Chen Jiao nodded, but she was already confused about her future, and she didn't even think she could find what she liked to do.
"Be happy, there is no confusion in life, just think clearly." Su He persuaded a few more words, then lowered her head and continued reading. This is the case with this subject. The more she learned, the more she felt that the knowledge was not enough. She just
I can devote more time to it.
Although studying doesn't make her happy, it does give her a sense of accomplishment. Once she has a sense of accomplishment, she will be very satisfied and naturally in a good mood. Isn't that how happiness comes?
Looking at Su He who was continuing to read, Chen Jiao stood up and stopped disturbing her. Su He was always immersed in it and rarely cared about other things. This time, he was able to listen to her talk a lot of nonsense and talk to her a lot.
It's rare, so she shouldn't get involved and make others unhappy.
She was thinking, what does she like? Does she really not like anything? No, it seems that she does.
In my memory, she seemed to have something she liked. When she was in elementary school, she especially liked drawing. She liked it so much that she didn't like to do anything else. She also forgot about studying, which was followed by a decline in academic performance.
Originally, her family enrolled her in a painting interest class, but since then, she has been able to take other interest classes, except painting. At that time, she also had troubles for a while, but it was of no use.
Later she realized that she could learn anything, but she couldn't abandon her studies because of one thing, and the main culprit of her abandoning her studies was definitely not being able to continue studying.
Later, she forgot about it. She didn't touch painting for a long time, and she didn't feel anything anymore. Now, when she can make decisions for herself, does she still like painting? Can she still hold a paintbrush?
Chen Jiao looked at her hands and fell into deep thought. These hands could play the piano, the violin, and write, but they had forgotten how to draw. Could she really do it all over again?