This is a very strange feeling. People I have never seen before and places I have never been to bring me a vague familiarity. I am very confident in my memory and I am sure that I will not forget it, but
The mood I feel at this moment makes me confused. I don’t know how long this confusion will last, and I don’t know when I will find the answer.
Involuntarily, I looked at Qingqing, who was leading the way. Her steps had not changed, steady and brisk. She didn't lie, she was very familiar with this mountainous area that was already deep in the mountains.
"I asked, how long do we have to walk?" The old magician may have been running around for several days and was exhausted. After all, he is an elderly person. Especially walking on rugged mountain roads consumes a lot of physical strength and is a bit too much.
"There's still a way to go." Qingqing stopped and turned back to us: "If you walk fast, it will take about three days."
"We still have three more days to go?" the old magician muttered, looking at Qingqing and then at me.
I didn't speak, but the surprise in my heart did not disappear. According to Qingqing, her eyes have not been able to see light since she was born, and her parents abandoned her. How could she survive in that environment? This may be
It's a past event that Qingqing doesn't want to recall. I don't want to make her sad, but if I don't understand these issues clearly, I always feel stuck in my heart.
I was thinking about something and got distracted. The old magician suddenly pulled me behind me and made a gesture to me. I slowed down and he lay next to my ear and said in a low voice: "Are you the old man?"
My dear student, I don’t doubt you, but tell me, who is this girl?”
"What?" I looked at the old magician. It is very likely that he had some doubts about Qingqing. This is normal, because he cannot have that inexplicable familiarity with Qingqing like me. I can see through everything.
He could reach Qingqing's heart, but the old magic stick couldn't. He naturally became suspicious of such a strange blind girl.
"Not really, it's just that I feel uneasy." The old magic stick rubbed his nose. His appearance was very vulgar, but inadvertently, I saw a sharp light in his eyes, that light was like a knife,
Extremely sharp.
"She is very reliable." I frowned. I didn't want Qingqing to hear these words. It would also be an invisible harm.
"I just want to tell you that I have been here. Sometimes, you may not be able to truly understand a person." The old magic stick squinted his eyes and continued: "There are some mistakes that you cannot make. Even if you kill someone, there are still
There is a chance to escape, but if you look at the wrong person, you will be doomed."
I became anxious all of a sudden. I am not a person who cannot be persuaded, but the suspicion of the old stickman made me impatient.
"Forget it, let's just talk, why are you so angry?" The old magician saw that I was going to get angry, so he shut up at that time.
"I'll only tell you once." I looked back at Qingqing, who had slowly walked away. Her back looked so lonely and fragile in the mountains. I trusted her as much as I trusted myself: "She is very reliable."
The old magic stick said nothing more, and we caught up with Qingqing in front of us. The next journey was very boring. The mountains in this season have not yet reached the time when vegetation flourishes. The mountains in the north are rough and desolate. Every time I rest at night, I
It’s hard to fall asleep because I feel more and more that this is not the first time I’ve walked this mountain road. I’m thinking back on my journey from childhood to adulthood, and whether there are any experiences that are worth noting but have been ignored.
My experience is really not complicated. Although I still feel a little sad when I think about it now, I can recall almost everything that happened during the period. I deny the possibility of amnesia in my life, but the more I am sure of it,
It only made the doubts in my heart even more intense.
What exactly is going on?
It’s not like I’ve never climbed mountains when I was working in the institute. The journey was very tiring, but I could persevere. Almost every once in a while, the old man would complain that his legs were about to break, but he complained very fiercely.
, but did not fall behind. This old guy looked like he was needing to be scolded, but I vaguely guessed that he must have had a very solid foundation and physique when he was young.
When we were about to approach the destination mentioned by Qingqing, we could no longer see any human traces. This kind of wasteland located deep in the mountains has been deserted for thousands of years. Unless there are special reasons, they may remain there forever.
It fell into silence, as if completely isolated from the real world.
"It will be there soon." Qingqing stood on the top of a hill, her gray eyes seemed to be looking into the distance.
Following the direction she was looking, I saw a mountain that was not very majestic. It was very ordinary, not high, not big, and was not eye-catching at all among the mountains. But when I saw it from a distance
, an inexplicable impulse surged in my heart.
It is an impulse to worship, just like an ancestral land, ancient and mysterious. It is like the heart of the entire earth, although it is not obvious, it affects everything on the horizon.
We walked slowly, because the closer we got to the mountain, the more solemn and solemn it felt to me. Qingqing's footsteps became heavier, and the melancholy on her face was vaguely visible.
"There is a very big pine tree over there." Qingqing pointed forward, her voice was very low, with a touch of sadness: "I don't know how old it is. When I was very young,
It was already so tall back then, has it changed now?"
I can see that tree, it is a common coniferous pine here, but it is really rare to see such a big coniferous pine. The big tree is very close to the hill, with countless dark pine needles stretching and intertwined, the crown of the tree is like
It's a huge umbrella.
"At that time, I liked rain the most. When it rained, I could hide under the big tree and listen to the raindrops falling on the ground drop by drop." Qingqing said as she walked slowly, and I followed closely. When we left the university
As the tree got closer, I vaguely saw a slightly raised earth bag under the big tree.
The shape and size of the earthen bag are easily reminiscent of a lonely grave. It is unknown how many years it has stood here, but when Qingqing walked to the big tree, her eyes suddenly became wet.
I saw her walking very lightly to the side of the dirt bag, then squatting down, groping around bit by bit with both hands, slowly removing the clumps of needles, and pulling out the weeds that had sprouted up.
It was clean. I don’t know where the old magic stick got into. I didn’t take a step away and just stood beside her. Qingqing’s back was turned to me. I couldn’t see her expression, but I seemed to be able to sense her emotions.
She was very sad, extremely sad. This confirmed my previous idea that this bag of dirt might be an isolated grave, and perhaps buried under the isolated grave was a person who was very important to her.
I can't comfort Qingqing, because I understand that some sorrows can only be endured by oneself, and then slowly resolved. There is no other way.
After a long time, Qingqing stood up. I walked over quickly and held her shoulders. I knew she couldn't see me, but my eyes showed sincere concern, regardless of whether she could see it or not.
I want her to know that, in fact, she is not alone, at least I am here.
"You asked about the past, but I avoided it." Another layer of tears welled up in Qingqing's gray eyes. She was no longer a little girl who loved to cry, and she was very unwilling to let go.
Her own sadness infected me, but she couldn't control it. The sadness that came from the deepest part of her heart was like a slowly burning fire that could not be stopped.
"That's okay. Everyone has a past that they don't want to face, and I have it too."
"No, no, no, no matter how sad the matter is, as long as you ask, I am willing to answer you." Qingqing shook her head, tears falling silently from her eyes: "I'm just afraid, afraid that if you know everything, what will happen to you?"
You think I'm a weird person who will leave quietly one morning. I'm afraid I'll never see you again. I'm afraid..."
"It's silly." I smiled and wiped away the tears on her face, and pinched her nose. I was smiling, but my eyes were already sore.
"Just stay here with me and sit for a while." Qingqing took my hand and walked to a rock near the big tree. I pulled her up the rock and sat side by side.
We looked at the hill together without saying a word, but that feeling was unprecedented in my life. In fact, I don’t know what the feelings between men and women are. I have never wanted to let go of any woman.
Deep down in my heart, I know myself. The door in my heart has always been locked, but if one day, someone can break in, then I will have no way to drive her away from my heart. I don't want to do that.
Passive, this may be a selfish protection.
We sat there from sunset to night. The night in the mountains was quiet and clear, and the full moon seemed to rise above the hills.
"Is it the moon?" Qingqing raised her head and slowly stretched out her hand, as if holding the cold moon in her palm.
"A very round moon."
She is really a very easy-to-satisfy person. A full moon can temporarily free her from sadness. I saw her smiling slightly, and that smile was like the most innocent and beautiful thing in the world, which made the full moon
Lost its brilliance.
"I'll tell you everything you want to know, but..." Qingqing turned her head and begged: "No, don't leave me."
"No, never."
I don't know if this is considered a promise, but after Qingqing heard this, she felt relieved. At that moment, I looked at her smiling face, and my heart felt like a needle pricking me. How did she get here all these years?
Her trust in me seems to be far greater than my trust in her. What worries her is just that she is afraid that I will leave suddenly?
"I grew up here." Qingqing slowly took out the necklace she was wearing around her neck. It might not be considered a decoration at all. It was a rough thin rope with a tooth tied to the other end of the rope.
.
Those might be the teeth of some animal. Many years have passed, and the teeth have lost their white luster and become slightly yellow. On the teeth, the word Qingqing is engraved.
"Under that big tree, buried..." Qingqing's smile froze at the corner of her mouth, and I could see that her heart was twitching.
"What was buried?"
"Yes..." She seemed to muster up all the courage in her body and said to me: "It's a wolf head."