From the time I can remember, I knew that I was a prince and that I would have the opportunity to sit on that high position in the future.
But I also understood that my father had so many princes, not necessarily me. At that time, I didn’t think too much about it, and I would play well with other princes. I would only quarrel with them when others spoke ill of my mother and concubine.
That was the prince, and the third brother could play well, but as we grew older, the struggle between our biological mothers made us estranged.
I know that my father doesn't love me that much. I felt this after my ninth brother was born. I used to think that my father treats us brothers the same way.
It is indeed the same, the same indifferent love.
Only for Ninth Brother, he really cares about him in the palm of his hand. Whenever Ninth Brother feels unwell, the father is always the first to rush over and guard him anxiously until Ninth Brother recovers.
I know that's because my father loved Ninth Brother's biological mother deeply, but his biological mother was not favored, or in other words, she wasn't really loved by his father, she was just one of the women in the harem.
I once asked myself, why did he become what he was later? Is it because of the behavior of his mother-in-law? Is it because he was poisoned by his mother-in-law? In order to let his father come to see her once, she did not hesitate to hurt her biological son.
The emperor finally came to see him. His father's face was anxious and worried, but it was different from that of his ninth brother.
Perhaps it was because of repeated jealousies and repeated losses that he finally developed resentment towards his ninth brother and felt that his ninth brother was his biggest enemy in his life.
Later, one incident after another made him full of disgust and indifference towards this palace, but he could still only live here. He wanted to climb to the highest position, no longer depend on others, and no longer let others decide his life or death.
He was saddened by the death of his mother-in-law, but he was not depressed. The death of his mother-in-law only strengthened his belief that he must control his own destiny.
But what he didn't expect was that his firm belief would be shaken when that woman appeared. If she said: If you were not the emperor, I would be with you.
I think I would give up the throne for her. If I were with her, the throne wouldn't be that important. He only needs to guard her and look at her smile. He doesn't want her to become one of the women in the harem.
Tian is in the midst of plotting and being plotted, and that is not the life she wants.
He never thought that he would remember a woman deeply in his heart and not be able to get it out of his mind. Even if he hadn't seen her for a long time, he would still miss her, look at a woman who was similar to her in a daze, and recall the past.
I don't know when I started to like her and start to care about him. I just know that by the time he found out, it was too late. He had no time to stop. He could only watch himself sinking little by little, watching himself get angry and sad because of her.
He actually had such a great idea. He felt that as long as she was happy, it would be fine. If she couldn't get it, she wouldn't get it. He didn't want to destroy her. She was the woman he truly loved. If he destroyed her, it would be a disaster.
Destroy yourself.
Now that he has become the king of a country, he no longer fantasizes about having any love. Even if there is a trace of true love, it will be wiped out bit by bit by the palace's conspiracy.
Just like his father, he could not save his ninth brother's mother in the end, and she died.
The palace is a cannibalistic place, and he is destined to grow old alone and be buried here.