973. Chapter 973 Like a shell that has lost its soul
Over the years, no one has mentioned her wound, because everyone knows that the wound is so damaged that no one can touch it.
She had waited too long.
It's like she is sitting here listening to the piano. In fact, everyone knows that she has not heard anything. Over the years, she has actually not understood what the piano is playing. My mother does not understand the music. Over the years, she has not heard anything.
She never understood that she was just pretending that her father was still alive through that voice.
That's all.
So no one stopped her, and she was allowed to be so willful in the palace, looking for a place to stop and listen to the sound of the piano that she didn't understand at all.
"Wujiang, please go back. I want to be alone." An Xici stood up and left, walking alone in the familiar yet unfamiliar palace. After so many years, she only now realized that she was still unfamiliar with this place.
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Because Yan is gone, everything has lost its meaning to her.
She doesn't know what love is, but she only knows that after so many years, her heart has not calmed down, but has become more restless. She likes to stand at the highest place, because she is waiting for him to come back. Standing taller,
You can see at a glance whether he is really back.
But she didn't wait. After waiting for so long, she still didn't wait.
When Yue Xiuyan found her, she was hiding alone on the tower, huddled together, like a helpless child.
Yue Xiuyan was so angry when she saw her like this. After so many years, can she really not let go and live with her?
"An Xijie, you can go now. Can you stop acting like you're dying?" Yue Xiuyan said coldly and sarcastically.
An Xici looked up and saw him, and rolled her eyes at him: "What are you talking about? Who wants to live or die? I can't bear to leave this place, just remember it, okay?"
Yue Xiuyan really wanted to go over and kick her.
"An Xijie, Wujiang told you that you can leave. Do you know that over the years, everyone has actually wanted to tell you that you can leave." Yue Xiuyan walked over and sat down next to her.
"I know." Of course she knew, knowing that they were all working hard for her.
That's why she never mentioned or said how much she missed Huangfu Yan.
In fact, she really missed him so much that her heart ached. It hurt so many times that she almost couldn't feel her own heartbeat.
It's not that she's not strong enough, it's not that she can't wait, it's just that now, she understands that waiting is the torture in this world that is worse than death.
Everyone is willing to wait, but this process is too painful and painful.
She kept telling herself that Huangfuyan must still be alive, must still be alive, he must have been delayed by something, that's why he didn't come back, he would always come back.
But she still couldn't help but be afraid, afraid that he was dead and wouldn't be able to come back.
She would rather he forgot his way home than die and disappear completely.
Every minute and every second of the days when she couldn't wait for any news was torture, so she listened to the piano, even if she didn't understand it at all, but as long as the piano sounded, she could always pretend that Huangfuyan was still there, pretending that he had never
He left, pretending that he would be able to see him when he turned around.
She has been pretending like this for so many years, but in fact, she also knows that she can't deceive herself at all.