"Actually, I'm not afraid that she doesn't love me, I'm just afraid that the person she loves is not her true lover." That day, I said quietly to the loneliness in the room.
Pei Yuan showed me a strange smile.
It wasn't until much later that I understood the meaning of that smile.
It was a smile with a hint of pity and helplessness.
Because Pei Yuan already knew that neither An Changting nor Ao Xiaoying would love me after all.
There was still an hour before the contract was due. An Changting crouched over the case and wrote a letter to Xia Yan. Afterward, she urged me to hand the letter into Xia Yan's hands.
After the thunder sounded, the person who opened his eyes again was Xia Yan. He got out of bed, and the first thing he did was to ask me: "Where is the letter?"
After Xia Yan read it, he tore up the letter without hesitation. While he was rushing out, I pieced the letter together.
The first half is very trivial, and almost nothing can be seen. There is only one sentence that has been remembered to this day.
She said, if you can't see me before midnight, please forget about me.
There are obvious traces of water stains on the word "forget".
I couldn't help but think, why did I plead with me not to let her forget her in the first place, but now I use the same method to ask Xia Yan to forget her?
Pei Yuan later explained that only when you truly love the other person, you will consider everything for the other person. Just like you before, in order to protect the princess from conscience in the future, even if you are reluctant to let her go, in the end you still choose to let her forget.
And now the princess is the same as you before. She obviously doesn't want to do this, but it is good for Xia Yan, so she must do it.
Pei Yuan looked at me meaningfully and said: "This is fate. You won't be with her. You can't help but be willing to do it. You can't help but don't want to. Unless you go against nature, just like me. In fact, you are going against nature.
So what? Fate has arranged a place for everyone, and even if they are temporarily misplaced, they will eventually return to their original position."
I asked him, what is my destiny?
He said that anyone you hold in your hands will never come back once you let go. You should never let go from the beginning.
I asked him, why are you still unwilling to let go?
He said, you don't understand that liking someone is fate, and even if it is destined to be a disaster, it is inevitable.
I admit that he spoke my mind.
As fate would have it, Ao Xiaoying is someone who is out of reach in my life. To give her freedom is to forgive myself. If I don’t know how to let go, I will become a trapped beast.
Since you can't give her happiness, then give her a ride.
If she wants to dominate, I will kill everyone who prevents her from dominating the world. If she doesn't want to, I will kill everyone who forces her to dominate.
Pei Yuan is one.
He has always wanted Changting to regain the leadership of the Wu clan and promote the Wu clan. But these are not what my little princess wants. She just wants to marry her husband, raise her children, and live an ordinary life.
Pei Yuan's expectation has undoubtedly become an emotional shackles. She does not want to betray the Wu clan, let alone Xia Yan.
If I really had to choose between the witch clan and ordinary life, I would choose the latter.
That day, I told Pei Yuan that the little princess wanted to have a child.
Pei Yuan drank a lot of wine without saying a word.
Later, when he was drunk, he said, Liuchi, I know what you want, but you don't need to do anything, I will die soon.
I asked him how he knew?
Pei Yuan pointed at his silver hair and said, "Do you know that I was not born with white hair?"
