"Putao, have you ever understood how I feel?" He lowered his head and asked softly, his face half-dark in the afternoon haze.
I lowered my head in shame.
"I see!"
I really understand that Qi Xuan doesn't like Hanyang and is even a little annoyed with her, but because of Xia Yan, he has to accept this arrangement.
And I was his best friend. Instead of helping him get out of his predicament, I actually intervened and put him in a dilemma.
"Do you understand?" Qi Xuan looked up at me weakly and actually smiled: "Since you understand, why do you still make me feel so uncomfortable?"
"Loyalty and justice are difficult to balance. Don't you know your current situation? The prince is deeply loved by the queen. If the prince really ascends the throne in the future, where will you have a foothold? If you marry Hanyang, at least there will be Xia Guo.
Support you, haven’t you ever thought about this?”
"I have thought about it, I have thought about it seriously!" Qi Xuan looked at me: "I have thought that if I marry Hanyang in the future, my life will definitely be easier, but I have not thought that there are still people who force me to marry Hanyang.
you!"
I will never forget the way he looked at me, desolate and self-deprecating...
"From the moment you could bear to watch me being forced by them to have nowhere to escape, I knew that you must have never considered my feelings!"
At this moment, I feel that I am so disgusting.
Qi Xuan is right. I never considered his feelings from the beginning to the end. I thought that for Qi Xuan, having one more princess was just an extra pair of chopsticks in the family. There is no one who has been constrained by a political marriage these days.
?Didn’t Xia Yan and I come here the same way?
But I forgot that Qi Xuan is not me. He has his own ideas. When he fled from Qi to Anguo as a teenager, his unruly character was reflected. He didn't want to be manipulated by others*
***, I would rather be a beggar than go back.
"How about... how about I go to Hanyang and tell you that you are a broken sleeve!" I whispered.
"Why didn't you say I was having an affair with you?"
"No, no, Hanyang will beat me to death! Xia Yan will beat me to death too!" I shook my head like a rattle.
"I'm curious about something, why aren't you afraid that I'll beat you to death?" Qi Xuan looked at me seriously.
I also started to think about it, and it seemed like, no matter how extreme I had done, I had never worried about such a problem. I looked at him confused: "Why?"
Qi Xuan sneered and turned his head away: "Ask me, who will I ask?"
After scolding me, Qi Xuan felt refreshed and the previous haze was gone. However, I looked at his smile uneasily, feeling that there must be some ulterior conspiracy hidden under this smile.
But Qi Xuan remained tight-lipped and agreed to meet me at midnight tomorrow night in the Herb Garden of the Palace. If I didn't come, he would really beat me to death.
I nodded enthusiastically and swore that if I didn't come, there would be no need for him to take action and I would kill myself!
After returning to the palace, Xia Yan hadn't come back yet. I quickly tore up the note left on the table and threw it into the brazier. Then I took the wooden sword and ran to the small garden of the annex to practice my sword.
As I continued practicing, I felt something was wrong. When I looked back, I saw Liuchi half leaning under the sweet-scented osmanthus tree and smiling at me.
"You want to show me two moves?" I put away my sword and asked.
Liu Chi came over, stopped in front of me and said, "How about making a deal with you!"
