Only now do I realize that without soul exchange, Xia Yan and I would have nothing to do with each other.
It turns out that my fate was brought about by Pei Yuan's mistake. Because of this, Pei Yuan changed my destiny, causing me to go against fate again.
"God's punishment will come at any time. I don't have Pei Yuan's ability to see through the future." Liu Chi said with a helpless smile.
I thought about it carefully: "No, if Yan Qingqing is Pei Yuan's lover who has been reincarnated many times, why didn't Pei Yuan do anything during this time in Yan Kingdom?"
Liu Chi was stopped by my question. He thought for a long time, sighed slightly and said, "Maybe he is tired."
I was silent with him. For Pei Yuan, waiting for someone's reincarnation may not be too tiring. The most tiring thing is that after enjoying the taste of love, the lover leaves, leaving the sadness and pain to him alone.
No matter how strong your heart is, it cannot withstand such torture.
Now I finally understand why Pei Yuan never smiles.
…
When night came, Xia Yan came back smelling of alcohol.
After he took a shower and I hugged him, I suddenly felt so scared.
I don't know if I will have the patience like Pei Yuan, waiting for someone to reincarnate, waiting for decades, and then continuing to wait after the other person dies.
Life is so long, and we have to be close to each other every moment.
I suddenly felt resentful, why did God want me to live so long?
The pattering raindrops fell suddenly and hit the window lattice, making a crisp and cold echo.
"What's wrong?" Xia Yan pulled my face and rubbed my forehead affectionately with his nose.
I sniffed: "Xia Yan, I'm suddenly so scared, afraid of losing you."
Although there is a saying that no one can survive without losing someone, but if I lose Xia Yan, even if I can survive, the feeling of survival will probably be worse than death. I don't want to be like that.
"I didn't destroy you." Xia Yan said calmly.
I arched my head into his arms and nuzzled him like a cat: "That's not it...it's actually more serious than you destroying me."
"I don't know how to take a concubine."
I groaned and hurriedly looked up from his arms: "What did you say?"
In the darkness, Xia Yan's outline was blurry, but his voice was clear: "I have signed a life-and-death contract with Pei Yuan. I will never have a concubine in this life, and I will never ask for other women to enrich my harem. It violates this oath."
, I will not die a good death."
"Won't the ministers have any objections?" Whether he dies well or not is another matter later. In fact, this is what I am most worried about.
Xia Yan put one hand behind his head and held my shoulder with the other: "What are you afraid of when you have a widow?"
What do I have to be afraid of? He only marries me and it’s too late for me to be happy. Why should I be afraid? I’m just worried about his situation.
Since ancient times, emperors have had harems. This is not entirely to satisfy the emperor's desires. One of them is to maintain power in the court, and part of it is to have more children and more happiness. If there are more women, there will naturally be more children, and then there will be more choices.
many.
But now he only wants me, doesn't that mean our child will become a king?
And Xia Yan indeed meant this: "When you return to Xia Kingdom, you can help me give birth to a little prince, okay?"
"I will definitely help you with this, but...but what if you can't give birth to a little prince?"
Xia Yan's tone dropped. He felt that I was a bit 'impressed with other people's ambitions and my own prestige was destroyed', so he said displeasedly: "Then keep having children until you give birth to a little prince."