The matter of Xiao Qi was settled as it was, but the cold war between Xia Yan and I continued, and neither of us seemed willing to take that step back.
I was determined to leave at first, but now I am hesitant.
I wanted to leave first because I thought Xia Yan had killed Yan Xitong. Since I knew that Yan Xitong was not dead, the idea of leaving was not that strong.
Just when I was undecided, Rui Xueji helped me make a decision.
I remember that night, I made a lot of preparations and wanted to have a good chat with Xia Yan. I felt that in this dispute, we seemed to be eager to hurt each other and anger each other, but we never thought of sitting down and listening to each other's feelings.
, ask the other person why they did this.
Everything was ready, I took Xiao Guozi to the imperial study room.
But when passing by the Imperial Garden, I suddenly heard the clash of swords. I was startled and thought it was an assassin. The Imperial Garden is connected to the Imperial Study Room, where Xia Yan spent this time reviewing papers and meeting ministers.
I rushed over with Xiao Guozi, but what I didn't expect was the scene of Rui Xueji and Xia Yan competing in martial arts.
Rui Xueji's whip and Xia Yan's sword were flexibly intertwined, like two inseparable lovers. After an instant, the two separated again. Under the gorgeous moonlight, the shadow of the sword mixed with the whistling of the whip, the picture was so beautiful that people couldn't help but
Can't bear to disturb.
I stared blankly at the two people not far away who were immersed in the fun of sparring, and a strong sense of inferiority surged into my heart.
At this moment, I finally saw the difference between me and Rui Xueji.
She is the king of a country, and so is Xia Yan.
They have common topics, a common ideal of expanding territory, and can even understand the reasons behind each other's killings.
But I am just a flower locked in a greenhouse. Any smell of blood makes me feel disgusted and puzzled.
But for Rui Xueji, she understands this. What's more, not only can she understand, but she can even help Xia Yan in some aspects.
These are too difficult for me. I will never be able to do it.
I stopped Xiaoguozi from communicating about where he came from and how he was going back without disturbing anyone.
Xiaoguozi was a secret guard, so naturally he would not leave any footsteps for anyone to hear, so we left silently.
Returning to Panlong Palace, I asked the nanny to bring Chang En over. Seeing that I was in a bad mood, Xiao Guozi quickly comforted me: "My queen, you will always be the queen of the Xia Kingdom. No matter how close King Rui is to the king, he is still an outsider."
"Xia Yan sent you to serve me, probably not because of your ability, but because of your ability to understand others, right?"
Faced with my half-joking tone, Xiao Guozi smiled coquettishly: "Sure enough, I can't hide anything from you."
I can understand Xiao Guozi’s good intentions. He was afraid that I would misunderstand something, but in fact he was wrong.
I just saw Rui Xueji and Xia Yan, and I didn't misunderstand them at all. I never thought that Xia Yan would fall in love with someone else, because Xia Yan is not a person who changes his mind when he sees different things.
But at that moment, I decided to leave.
It's not for anything else, I just suddenly realized that I'm not suitable to stay here.
Although the palace is very gorgeous, it is not what I want. Just like I wanted to eat apples, but Xia Yan gave me a cart full of pears. No matter how good and sweet the pears are, they are not what I want.
It would be the same if it were Xia Yan.
The queen he wants is not like me. He needs a queen who can fight alongside him, support him, help him, and understand him, not a little girl like me who has the kindness of a woman.