I learned from the spies that the poison was very difficult to cure, and Wancheng was deserted. If you wanted to find the antidote, you would have to go to heaven.
In order to deliver the antidote to Yan Xiaoqing without leaving a trace, I planned a false appearance of defeat. My uncle Xiahou Liancheng pretended to be captured and then presented the antidote.
For this plan, I spent hundreds of lives to fill it. I thought it was perfect, but it made me experience the biggest failure in my life.
My uncle, in order to fulfill my selfish ambitions, risked his life and died on the watchtower in Wancheng.
Sometimes, even if a person is invincible, there are times when he has no choice.
The moment I turned around and stepped off the tower, I realized how incompetent I was.
Never before has anything or anyone caused me to be as defeated as I am today, so I really answered that sentence, losing my wife and losing my army.
The moment Xiahou Liancheng died, the pain in my heart could not be greater.
And her appearance surprised me.
One above the city and one below.
She raised her head and I lowered my head.
For a moment, I wanted to jump off the tower, hug her tightly, and tell her that from now on, I will never have an uncle again.
But her sight put me off.
She is like this. She often criticizes me for being inhumane and cold-blooded. She always thinks that I am a cold-blooded animal without emotions.
That's right, I have always been this image in her mind.
I have no feelings, no sense of gratitude, and when people around me die one by one, I will always be indifferent. When the sun rises the next day, I will do whatever I should do instead of spending a period of time to remember it like ordinary people.
Everything that has passed away.
But are these all what I want?
How did she know that just because she remained silent on the surface, it didn't mean that I wasn't sad.
Does she have to see me in grief to be satisfied?
Not long after he ascended the throne, Pang Xiu told me that from today on, your Majesty must get used to others being afraid of you and being frightened of you.
I asked him why.
Pang Xiu said, "Have you ever seen anyone get close to a snake?"
In fact, the snake itself is not scary, as long as it has no teeth.
Pang Xiu said that even without teeth, snakes are creepy, which is unavoidable because they are cold-blooded animals and do not understand the warmth of the world.
Now that I think about it, Pang Xiu really has the ability to predict the future.
In An Changting's heart, even if I voluntarily pull out all the poisonous fangs that can hurt people, I still can't become a kind, gentle, and open-minded ordinary person. Because on the basis of the poisonous fangs, I am still a cold-blooded animal.
Since I came to the throne, countless people have scolded me for being cold-blooded. For a while, I really thought they were right, because nothing could move me anymore. I felt more and more like I was just a puppet.
The puppet of the heart, until she appears!
I ordered someone to put down the ladder, and I told myself that as long as she came up, I could forget about it and start all over again.
The puppet has no heart, but the moment An Changting appeared, I realized that there was no need for the master to control the spool, and I trembled involuntarily.
It backfired, she didn't, she said to Liuchi, let's go.
The body floating away from me didn't pause for a moment. I looked up at her back as she gradually moved away. What made her so decisive? And what made me stand still and watch her leave?
I will always remember that when I was sleeping, she whispered in my ear that instead of spending time alone and seeing the vicissitudes of the world, I would rather spend an ordinary life with ordinary people.
Could it be said that it is destined to be a pale and empty oath?
