After taking the throne, I focused on the country and the country, and I have already achieved more than half of my dreams.
I want to dominate this world and have everyone crawl under my feet.
I used to be afraid of being in high places, but now I have become accustomed to loneliness, indifference, and betrayal...
But compared with these, it is not cruel. The most cruel thing is that the belief that I once swore to finally collapsed in an instant.
She actually set me up... and set me up again.
I took away the Dzi beads from my niece to pave the way for my future immortality.
But, is immortality really what I want?
When I was in Sifang City, I felt like I was dead.
Then why am I immortal?
Why?
Because I think that when everyone dies, I will be the one who stays with her in the end.
Is the reason ridiculous?
But she always thought that I took away the Dzi Beads just because I wanted to dominate the world.
During the days of being imprisoned, there was not a day when Xia Yan did not torture me to extract a confession. From those angry eyes, I saw a hatred similar to jealousy.
This makes me feel quite happy.
Why should Xia Yan hate someone who has nothing to do with him?
Just because he was jealous.
In my impression, Xia Yan would never be jealous of anyone because he was too proud.
Me too. I will never admit that I have ever been jealous of someone.
And I will never tell Xia Yan that I envy him more than his jealousy.
By the time I escaped, I already had a decision in my mind.
Let it be misunderstood.
No matter it was before or now, we have stood on opposite sides of each other for our own beliefs. We have no longer extravagant pursuit of love, so this hatred is deeply rooted in her heart.
So, I launched a war, provoked hatred between the two countries, and broke the hard-won peace.
I want this world to be full of bloodshed and never have peace again, otherwise I will ignore the crimes I once shouldered.
In a blood station, I fought desperately not for the world, but for her hatred.
I want her to hate me to the core, so that she will never forget Yan Xiaoqing for the rest of her life.
I did it. During the battle in Peacock Valley, when she tried her best to stop everything, I knew I had succeeded.
I am not afraid of divine punishment. I have defied family ethics time and time again and created magical weapons that have devastated all life on earth. I am very satisfied with my masterpiece.
But it's not enough. It seems that the beast inside can't be satisfied no matter what I do. It's a huge spiral nest that can never be filled.
My madness, my stubbornness, my paranoia, and my extremeness brought this battle into a desperate situation and created a situation with no way out.
And I no longer need a retreat.
All I want is a happy experience, even if the price is a bit high.
The battle at Peacock Valley exhausted all my energy, and there was nothing left to sacrifice except myself.
And her appearance once again made me the loser.
Xia Yan's sword pierced my body. I don't know whether it was a coincidence or God's arrangement, but it was in the same position.
Looking at her shocked expression, my heart felt unstoppable.
Sometimes I really want to die with her, so that I won’t be tied down by this disturbing emotion, and I will never have nightmares in the middle of the night. Unfortunately, even if it comes to this point, I can’t bear to hurt her.
One cent.
Losing is inevitable, but what I lost to was not Xia Yan, but my own heart.
If you hadn't loved deeply, you wouldn't have completely lost this huge gamble.
How wonderful it would be if I had never been deeply in love...
ps: Yan Xiaoqing’s extra story is over. Why didn’t anyone leave me a message?
