1808. Chapter 1808 Extra Story: Beasts Without Borders [56]
However, ever since he met Xiao Jin, he began to doubt himself, did it really matter who he was?
Is that so? Actually, it’s not.
He came back from Hanlin Academy every day, had dinner at Wei Mansion, and then went to other courtyards.
Xiao Jin is not always here every day, but he will definitely come every two or three days.
Wei Ziyao didn't ask her what she was doing. Every time he saw her tired, he couldn't say anything and just felt a little sour in his heart.
It would be great if I could take care of her...
When she was in the other courtyard, the two of them actually didn't have as much to talk to each other as they imagined. Most of the time, he would read by the window, while she would stand in the yard facing the wind, looking into the distance, wondering what she was thinking.
The moonlight shone all over her body, and he was fascinated by her appearance.
Sometimes she would make a pot of wine and drink with him under the moonlight. Wei Ziyao would tell interesting stories about the court, and she would laugh and be in a very good mood.
Many times, he also wanted her to talk about his own affairs, but she seemed to have no intention of saying anything.
After knowing her for a few months, he actually didn't know anything about her. He didn't know anything except that her name was Xuanyuan Jin and that she was an orphan wandering alone.
I don't know where she comes from, why she is alone, or what she does.
What is that trace of sadness that always appears inadvertently between her eyebrows?
He didn't ask, and Xiao Jin didn't tell either.
Gradually, Wei Ziyao felt a little depressed. He wanted to understand her but couldn't, wanted to comfort her but didn't know where to start, and even wanted to get close to her but couldn't. It made his heart feel like it was soaked in water.
Like salt, it becomes more and more bitter.
That night, Wei Ziyao drank a lot of wine and got drunk. The drunkenness made him wanton and made him say many things that he shouldn't have said.
He shouldn't say it, he should keep these feelings in his heart, and only he knows about them, but...
"Miss Xuanyuan, do you know that in my heart, I really want to take care of you for the rest of my life... I know that I am not worthy of you, I..."
The bitterness in his heart has reached a critical point. If he doesn't speak out, he will really be suppressed.
The Wei family has mentioned his marriage to Wei Xue many times. He had always shied away from it on the grounds that he had just taken office and was busy with work, and he didn't have any career yet, so he didn't want to get married for the time being.
But recently, the two elders of the Wei family can no longer tolerate him escaping anymore. When he went back today, Mr. Wei was already furious.
Although he didn't accuse him loudly like before, the suppressed anger still made him feel like a stone was weighing on his heart.
Mrs. Wei's lukewarm attitude also made him very uncomfortable.
The most important thing is Wei Xue. When she saw him, she chased him and asked: "Hey! Wei Ziyao, do you have another woman outside, so you don't want to marry me? Really? Just tell me!"
Wei Ziyao was so worried by her words that he immediately threw up his sleeves and left.
In fact, I didn't dare to face Wei Xue's shining eyes again.
Although what Wei Xue said is not quite right, it is still half the truth.
No one knows his feelings for Xiao Jin except himself. Maybe Ji You knows a little bit, but he has never made it clear.
Tonight, after he said these words, Xiao Jin just looked at him silently, without saying a word for a long time. He held the wine glass in his hand and gently rotated it on his fingertips. The wine sloshed out, like splashing dots under the moonlight.
