Qiao Zhenshan's dark and resolute face suddenly twitched violently several times. He stretched out his hand and clasped her weak shoulders forcefully, "Song Simin!!! What on earth are you venting your anger on me? When did I say that?
But, I want to divorce you? From the beginning to the end, you have always been the one who insists on divorce! Even if I, Qiao Zhenshan, am a bastard, I have never thought of abandoning my wife and children!..."
Unexpectedly, when Song Simin heard what he said, she became even more excited. She stood up from her seat angrily, "Yes, you didn't say that... But, Qiao Zhenshan, you have to touch your conscience."
To be honest, have you ever forgotten that woman in your heart over the past twenty years?"
He thought that she didn't know that that night, when he was lost in thought and couldn't wait to fly from city a to city c, what did he do and who did he meet?
Completely ignoring the pain in her eyes, he followed the woman all the way to where she lived! She waited for him at home for most of the night, then endured the sadness and returned to the hospital to work the night shift, but he was in that woman's house.
I stood downstairs for a whole night!
——Qiao Zhenshan, how unkind and cruel you are to me? How can you keep saying "no divorce"?!
Thinking of every night that has been like a year in the past six years, Song Simin feels like her heart is twisting: Some people say that the farthest distance in the world is when I stand in front of you, but you don't know that I love you.
But she would rather have this result than the fact that her lover who has been together for more than 20 years has always been out of your reach! You have touched every scar on his body, but you can never touch his heart!
Pain! The pain of being deceived, and a heart that was completely trampled on! When had he really cared about her feelings? When she was in pain, would he feel the same way?
In a cold and suffocating stagnant atmosphere, Qiao Zhenshan had a sullen face, pursed his lips tightly, and said nothing, "..." without answering or denying.
Song Simin's face was horribly pale. She had known that he had not forgotten that woman and would not forget it. If he had really forgotten, he would not have abandoned her that night. She was a fool. Since she understood that it was pain, why
Why do you still need to sting the wound again and again when you mention that night?
However, there is a sore on the heart. If you refuse to bite your teeth and endure the pain, it will grow bigger and bigger until it becomes inflamed, ulcerated, and the body is completely covered...
Song Simin stared blankly at that familiar, dark and resolute face, which still had the familiar upright figure of a soldier, but she couldn't see into his heart: Qiao Zhenshan, since you can't erase the image engraved in your heart.
Name, why don’t we just let each other go? Don’t you know? You are the cancer in my heart that I can’t remove no matter how much I do!
When she looked back, she forcefully pushed away the big hands on her shoulders, "Divorce is the best choice I can make. Commander-in-Chief Qiao, are you trying to renege on your words?"
With a look of indifference, deliberate coldness, and ruthless rejection, Qiao Zhenshan realized for the first time that his wife, who had been smiling gently by his side for twenty years, turned out to be so stubborn!
The stubbornness is irritating and depressing, "Women just like to tell the truth! Song Simin, don't I know you yet? You married me when you were 22 years old, and you have never had any other man in your eyes, so why are you trying to show off in front of me?"
Qiang, what nonsense are you talking about about divorce? Stop making trouble, divorce is not good for anyone. I coaxed you, I coaxed you; I admitted it was wrong; you scolded me, I also let you scold me; ...you still want me
How to do it? I will rely on you in everything, okay? You clearly still care about me in your heart, so don’t do anything that you will regret—"
"Qiao Zhenshan!!!" Song Simin suddenly stood up from her seat and pointed at Qiao Zhenshan's nose with trembling fingers, "Do you mean that I am making trouble without reason?!"
Since he knew that she still loved him in her heart, why did she always do things that made her sad and painful? After 20 years of hard work and mutual support, why did he brush it off with an understatement of "duplicity"?
"..." Qiao Zhenshan turned his face away in silence, still not answering or denying.
This made Song Simin even more angry. She suddenly grabbed his arm and strode out, "Commander-in-Chief Qiao, I won't regret it! You can't take back the water you spilled! Please, come with me now
Go sign the divorce!"
He had already put down his position to persuade her. How could this woman have such a stubborn temper? Qiao Zhenshan endured it again and again, but finally couldn't bear to see her acting so aggressively. "Just leave..."
With a decisive tone, Song Simin was stunned for a moment, "..."
I feel sad for no reason, I miss my mother who is far away in my hometown for no reason, I want to go home for no reason, I really want to hold my mother and cry loudly!
When she was young, she didn't understand how warm her mother's embrace was, so she fell into the grave of love as soon as she was young. She was only 22 years old when she married Qiao Zhenshan!
Knowing that she wanted to marry a soldier, or a soldier with a child, her mother objected very strongly and argued with her almost every day. Her father could not persuade her no matter how hard she tried. She also complained secretly that her mother was not considerate at all.
…
It wasn't until she gave birth to Xiaoxue and her mother came to help her take care of Xiaoxue without saying a word that she completely let go of her mother's concern.
The mother said, "Now that you have a child, let's live a good life! I will never talk about you again. I will go home often when I have time. Your father said that I am not used to not having my daughter by my side..."
At that moment, when she saw her mother's tears, she realized that she was also very unfilial.
Because of her mother's opposition, she never returned to her parents' home once after she got married until Xiaoxue was born. Even though she cared deeply about her parents, she also knew that her mother would always miss her more than her father...
My mother said at the beginning, "Simin, if I didn't do it for your own good, why would I have tried to stop you knowing you would hate me? It's not easy to be a soldier's wife, and it will be even harder for you to be the stepmother of a child! Mom
I don’t want you to regret it in the future. If you marry this man, you will suffer a lot..."
But she left without hesitation, thinking that her mother's words were just a bluff, and she was completely immersed in this man's tenderness.
Only now do I realize how far-sighted my mother’s words were! I just wonder if my mother thinks her repentance comes too late?
…………
Was it his sonorous and powerful three words "leave now!" that broke her heart, or was it the thought of her mother whom she had not seen for a long time that made her weak?
Song Simin suddenly started crying, choking silently and shedding tears silently. The moment she knew that he had abandoned her and turned around to meet that woman, she had not shed a single tear. But at this moment, she seemed to have endless tears.
, I can’t stop, “…”
The man hesitated for a moment, and his slender body stopped in front of her. He subconsciously raised his head and touched her tearful cheek, but she waved it away with a cry, "Don't do this, I don't need your pity... neither do I."
I hate you, divorce is the result I want, I can afford to lose..."
But the man stubbornly pressed down his big hand, and his rough fingertips, with the warmth she was familiar with, slowly fell on her tear-stained cheek, and wiped it gently,
"Don't cry... It's my fault that made you hurt! I originally thought that after so many years, I had forgotten it. It wasn't until I saw that face exactly like hers on TV that day that I realized that I
My heart still feels uncontrollable severe pain! I'm sorry, Simin..."
He originally thought that everything would become easier after he made the decision. But why was he feeling so obscure and lonely at this moment? It felt like he had finally let go of something, and also felt like he had lost something forever in an instant.
In his mind, Xia Lingwei's young and fuzzy face overlapped with Song Simin's elegant and indifferent face, what were they murmuring to him?
He tried hard to hear clearly and grasp...
Later, he saw that unforgettable past and heard his beloved Weiwei saying that she loved him...
There were countless scenes that made his heart break, but they were sometimes interspersed with thoughts, laughter, resentment, or crying faces, making his heart indescribably complicated and uncomfortable. At this moment, he got
Gain more, or lose more?
For twenty years, the familiar touch of Simin's skin still seemed to linger between his rough and gentle fingertips, and he could still hear her gentle voice in his ears. She was a woman as clear and transparent as water.
When she was happy, she hugged his neck and laughed; when she was sad, she cuddled into his chest and cried; when she was shy, she whispered in his ear and asked, "Zhenshan, do you love me?"...
He had never given her an answer, and he couldn't give her an answer now.
It's just, Simin, I thought about giving it to you. I once thought about forgetting everything and pretending that there was no past, pretending that you and I were the same as when we first met. I said, "I have a child. Although
He is not my own biological child, but if you can't treat him as if he were your biological child, then there is no need for our marriage!"
And you looked at me with such adoring and infatuated eyes, "I agree. I just admire the chief's aboveboard, responsible and responsible style."
That day, we only met once and said two words, and you followed me without hesitation. When I held your hand and walked into the Civil Affairs Bureau, I asked you, "Do you regret it? You can still be alone now."
Get out of this door."
You raised your energetic and bright little face and said to me, "I have no regrets. Wherever the leader is, I will be there."...
——Simin, you don’t know that at that moment, when I saw your young and trusting face, I thought about trying to give you happiness...
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I was so dizzy yesterday when I was revising my article that I forgot to say Happy Holidays to everyone. I’ll make it up today, happy everyone, hmm~!
