Since I don’t have money to go to college, I have no choice but to slay dragons. Chapter Five Hundred and Eighty Eighth: Far Dreams (probably two in one)
Chapter Five Hundred and Eighty Eighth: Far Dreams (probably two in one)
It should have been one morning. School always starts in the morning. Lu Mingfei was riding his bicycle to Shilan Middle School. He passed by a black Passat, and the tires rolled up a locust flower and flew onto his shoulder.
, he saw the white shoulder figure from the car window that was getting farther and farther away. By coincidence, the other person seemed to be looking back at him in the car. Their eyes met and separated, and they passed each other.
Ten minutes later when they met again, he rushed to the school. Among the bustling crowd, he looked up at the two crooked cherry blossom trees in the corner of Shilan Middle School. He looked around and couldn't find the shadow he wanted to see, so he thought in his heart
He silently made a wish to the unknown master, but within a few seconds he gave up on his stupid move and sped up to rush to the new class. When he walked in from the door and looked up at the first glance, he found that his
Wishes come true, like divine revelation.
People are impression creatures, and the brain has a specific image for each specific person. It may be a smell, a scene, or a color. Then this girl must be white to Lu Mingfei
, the skirt has the fragrance of locust flowers, sitting by the window where the sun shines on the skirt, holding a copy of "The Lover" by Marguerite Duras.
They wrote vigorously on the blackboard that youth is easy to pass away and appearance is easy to age, so don’t waste your time, dance and sing.
But it was too late, too late. In that life, it came too early and too hastily. At the age of eighteen, it was already too late.
"Lu Mingfei?" Chen Wenwen called him back from his trance.
There was a faint sound of singing in my ears. It was not the BGM that played automatically in the background. If possible, Lu Mingfei really wanted to listen to "Love Transfer". If it was too fierce, he would play "End of the World". At least it would make him feel better.
He had that heartbreaking realization, but unfortunately, the song that was ringing in his ears now was "Li Song" by Xin Band.
In the private movie room dozens of meters away from the restroom corridor, someone was singing the song that was once popular in the streets, singing: You said that love is just a dream, and I can only return the happiness I borrowed from you, and then it reached the climax.
There was a burst of ghostly crying and wolf howling, the girls could barely reach their voices, and the boys roared heart-breakingly, singing: "You are the loneliest if you want to stay but if you can't," before the second half of the lyrics was sung, he suddenly burst into laughter because of his broken voice.
The sound cages gathered together and drifted here.
It's a bit unpleasant to listen to. The first one to break the sound must be Xu Yanyan, right? But at least the singing is quite suitable for the occasion. What's the next lyric?
Oh, Lu Mingfei remembered, it seemed like they hugged each other in silence a second before their hearts broke?
There was silence in front of the bathroom, drifting in the air, together with the sound of water, and the indescribable emotions. He seemed a little tired leaning on the water table, letting the cold water wet the trousers on his back and flowed down his calf to his socks.
Inside, the water wrapped around him like an icy snake.
"You know?" He put his hands on the water table to prevent himself from looking so defeated, and tried to be as strong as possible. After all, this was the first time in his eighteen years of life that he was so weak. He was a little at a loss. He hadn't even begun to confess.
The plane was hijacked, so damn sad.
"Um."
"When did this happen?"
"Very early."
Very early? When was it early? Was it early when they passed each other for the first time on the street near the locust tree? Or when he was in school, he lay on the desk and secretly looked at the girl who stood up to introduce herself.
when.
Lu Mingfei actually wanted to ask Chen Wenwen when he knew that he had prepared today's confession, but the other party seemed to have misunderstood something, but this answer was satisfactory.
"Actually, you have always known about it, right?"
"what do you know?"
"I know those things about you."
Lu Mingfei suddenly felt a little tired. Those things about him? What things could you please explain more clearly? But he knew that the girl in front of him had always been like this. He didn't like to speak thoroughly, as if it was about something that was dispensable.
The veil film is speaking through a layer of white fog, as if this can save some face for people inside and outside the fog.
"Why are you telling me now?" He leaned forward slightly and left the pool, because if he leaned so close, not only would his socks get wet, but even his underwear would be submerged.
He stood in a pool of water with the rose submerged in it. The water beside the flower reflected the girl looking at his face. She moved her lips slightly and said, "Lu Mingfei, in fact, besides me, there are many people who are worth it."
You go and like it this way.”
Ah, is this a good guy card? Lu Mingfei stayed for a while, scratched his hair, lowered his head, and didn't say anything for a long time. If this was a formal confession, the girl's words alone would be a death sentence.
Right? I just changed the form and issued a good person card, and declined politely to suit Chen Wenwen's style.
Bad things are not very good, and annoying things are not liked that much. You are a good person because there are many people besides me who are worthy of your liking.
He couldn't speak for half a minute. The air was as heavy as a jar in high pressure, making people want to break the walls or open the mouth of the jar to escape. If he didn't say something, then today's story
This is probably the end, the girl will walk away, he has no reason to keep her, the story ends like this, labeled END.
The 99 roses in the paper bag were drowned in the stagnant water and sank together with the full emotion. They sank to a place where no one could find them and rotted in the mud.
Chen Wenwen looked at Lu Mingfei who had his head lowered and was silent for a full minute. Maybe this was also torture for this girl, right? She suffered for a minute and finally took a step back and said, "The movie is about to start, are you still coming?"
?”
Lu Mingfei did not answer, and remained quiet for dozens of seconds. It was not until Chen Wenwen turned around that he spoke. It was like a high-pressure urn leaking a gap, and white mist and full emotions rushed out from inside.
He came out and sang a high-pitched but dull self-narration amidst his whine.
"Actually, Lin Nian told me about this before."
Chen Wenwen stopped and looked at the boy behind her. He still lowered his head so that his face could not be seen clearly.
"He said there was no need for me to hang myself from a tree."
"Yeah." She nodded slightly.
"Actually, people often tell me not to hang myself on a tree, because there is a whole forest ahead." Lu Mingfei said in a low voice, "Everyone is saying that it is impossible for people who loved me in high school and junior high school to leave.
I forget exactly what it said in the end, but it probably means the same thing."
"'A Tree and a Forest' was written in a book by the Greek writer Albero." Chen Wenwen whispered, "Don't give up the entire forest for a tree."
"Well, you know better." Lu Mingfei smiled bitterly in a low voice, "Lin Nian told me about this more than once. He said that there are 20,000 people in the world who will fall in love with you at first sight. Falling in love at first sight with you 20,000 times may not necessarily mean that you will fall in love with you at first sight."
The one you meet now is the best among them, and the better one will always be next.”
"It's like this, it's always been like this," she said.
"I don't think so." Lu Mingfei raised his head slightly and looked at Chen Wenwen, "Do you still remember the two crooked-neck trees in our school?"
"Remember."
"It's ugly, right? There's only one tree left now," he said.
Chen Wenwen didn't know what the boy wanted to say, but she couldn't leave as long as he was talking. If a person thinks that his words have no weight, then he will never speak seriously, but if a person thinks that every word of his is very important,
It's important, then she has to listen to what he says. If he speaks seriously, she listens carefully.
"Tell me, what would happen if a person had never seen a tree in his life and the first tree he saw was the crooked-neck tree?" Lu Mingfei asked.
Chen Wenwen didn't know how to answer this question, so she didn't speak.
Lu Mingfei said, "Actually, I think each of us has a learning process. We didn't know what a tree looked like before. It wasn't until we met the first tree we liked for the first time that we had a concrete idea.
I have the impression that the tree actually looks like this.”
"Just like the first time I saw a tree, it was the Crooked Neck tree. When I looked at every other tree in the future, I couldn't help but compare them with the Crooked Neck tree. I felt that none of them were as good as the Crooked Neck tree because
It was the crooked-necked tree that taught me what trees are.”
""
"What I said may be a bit roundabout." Lu Mingfei took a breath, "I just want to say that Lin Nian said in a book called "Shanghai Fortress": There are 20,000 people in the world who will fall in love with you at first sight, but I
I feel that actually you know what 'love at first sight' is, after all, it was the first person who taught you."
"Every time Lin Nian told me that there was someone else worthy of my liking, I ignored him, because no matter who I looked at, I always seemed to be looking at the same person, because it was that tree that taught me what liking is.
Before the so-called forest mentioned earlier, my concept of trees was all taught to me by the first tree you met."
"Lu Mingfei."
"So every time I saw a different tree, it was her shadow. She looked like she was walking into the forest with her head lowered and pretending not to see. After walking around, she would still come back to the crooked-neck tree outside the forest and take the
Hanging myself on a rope, after all, she taught me what it means to like." He said, "She taught me what love at first sight is, she taught me what a tree is, so what if there is a forest in front of me?
When I walked in, everyone looked like her, so why didn’t I hang myself on that crooked-necked tree willingly?”
"Lu Mingfei." Chen Wenwen said.
Lu Mingfei paused for a moment, looked up at the girl with her head hanging down, and realized that her emotions were a little skewed. She lowered her head and whispered, "Well, you tell me."
"I'm sorry," she said, "I actually have someone I like."
He was stunned for a long time, and the emotions he had accumulated suddenly collapsed. He raised his hand to comb his hair, but after moving his fingers, he gave up this too strenuous action. After being depressed for a long time, he grinned and said with a bitter smile, "You
"I told you earlier"
"I'm sorry." Chen Wenwen said.
"" Lu Mingfei opened his mouth and finally sighed softly, "I'm sorry for what. It's me who should be sorry. When we misunderstood, you said you didn't like me that much, but I could tell that you liked me a little bit. It's me.
I’m being pretentious, but I’m still curious, was it because I wasn’t good enough that I was rejected?”
"I won't change my attitude because of what you become. This is true love." Chen Wenwen said.
Lu Mingfei was speechless, and suddenly burst into laughter, somewhat self-deprecating.
At this time, footsteps suddenly came outside the corridor. It was Xu Miaomiao, one of the twins, who rolled like a ball in front of the bathroom. He looked at Lu Mingfei and Chen Wenwen, who were standing opposite each other, and was stunned for a moment. After hesitating for a few seconds, he said, "What are you doing here?
?”
"Nothing to do, just chatting." Lu Mingfei blocked the paper pocket on the side of his leg and said, "What's wrong?"
Xu Miaomiao was stunned for a few seconds and glanced at Lu Mingfei, then looked down at his trouser legs and raised an eyebrow, "Have you peed your pants?"
Lu Mingfei was also stunned for a moment, and glanced at his wet trousers and didn't know how to explain it, but Xu Miaomiao didn't seem to be prepared to make fun of this, but immediately came forward and urged, "Okay, okay, movie
It's about to start, Zhao Menghua asked me to urge you to hurry over! Lu Mingfei, aren't you going to go on stage to give a speech? No, your speech."
He handed over an A4 paper filled with speeches, but when he got halfway through it, Chen Wenwen suddenly caught it.
"I will give the speech." Chen Wenwen took the speech and said softly.
"Ah? This is all arranged. Leader, it is Lu Mingfei's job to give the speech." Xu Miaomiao smiled and watched Chen Wenwen try to withdraw the speech, and fiercely threw a tantrum at Lu Mingfei, which made Lu Mingfei a little bit
Stunned.
"It's okay, tell Zhao Menghua that I will give a speech today." Chen Wenwen said.
"No, it's not true. Leader Chen, you have other things to do today. Just let Lu Mingfei do the small things like the speech." Xu Miaomiao took a few steps forward to get the speech, looking a little panicked.
"It's okay, it's just a speech. There's nothing wrong with me." Lu Mingfei also reached out and pinched the corner of the A4 paper, but it didn't twitch. He looked up and saw Chen Wenwen's lowered gaze. He suddenly seemed to understand something.
paused.
"I said I would do it. I am the president of the literary club, and this job should be mine." Chen Wenwen finished her speech and turned around and left the bathroom.
"Hey, wait, it's about the speech." Xu Miaomiao glanced at Lu Mingfei and then at Chen Wenwen. Although her expression was strange, she still rolled out as if she was anxious. The footsteps in the corridor got farther and farther.
Lu Mingfei stood in front of the sink for a long time. He turned around and turned off the faucet that should have been turned off long ago. The cold water overflowing from it finally stopped. He grabbed the paper bag and was about to leave. Suddenly he saw water from the corner of his eye.
There was a wilted rose in the pool. After standing for a few seconds, he turned around, lowered his head, picked it up, put it into the bag together, and left the bathroom.
The corridor was not long, and it was enough for him to collect his emotions. His trousers and socks were still wet, but no one could see his embarrassment clearly in such a dark environment as the cinema, right?
He returned to the movie hall. It was pitch dark, there was nothing, everything was quiet, and it wasn't dead silence either. The sound of people's voices was rustling, like hearing the sound of cotton squeezing in the pillow while sleeping. It was a restless sound.
There was a slight squirming sound on the seats, as if everyone was looking forward to something, hiding in the darkness and looking forward to it.
With a click, strong light suddenly illuminated the entire stage. White light shot through Lu Mingfei's head at the end of the auditorium and shone on the white screen. Everyone subconsciously squinted their eyes to adapt to the strong light, including Lu Mingfei,
After the light dimmed a little, a low voice came from the theater.
A name and two English words are projected on the screen in the cinema.
Chen Wenwen, i Love temptation
A huge English alphabet sign stood on the stage. The round figures of the twin brothers Xu Yanyan and Xu Miaomiao were creatively transformed into two letters "o". And in the lowercase 'i', perhaps he should have been replaced by someone else.
But now the girl in a cotton white dress raised her hand to gently block the glare.
She was holding the speech that should have belonged to Lu Mingfei in her hand, and her cheeks were illuminated like apples buried under the snow.
Lu Mingfei was stunned for a while, not knowing what expression to put on, but no one could see what he looked like in the shadows under the light.
In the audience, Zhao Menghua held a large handful of crimson roses and jumped onto the stage surrounded by several good brothers. He seemed a little surprised when he looked at Chen Wenwen on the stage, but this did not hinder his plan. It was even unexpected.
Even better, he said something noisily, but Lu Mingfei didn't listen carefully. He looked at the girl, but suddenly found that the girl was also looking at him in the dark, and no one noticed him.
Suddenly, the music burst, and the climax of the movie appeared on the screen. The scene of Eve and Wall-E breaking the sound barrier and leaping through the sky was played on time. If the time card was correct, Lu Mingfei should be standing there now holding the gossip.
After finishing his confession on the stage, he was now standing where no one could find him like a passer-by, holding a bag of roses dipped in cold water.
In the boundary between darkness and light, Lu Mingfei and Chen Wenwen looked at each other from a distance, and then the girl nodded to him gently, as if she was telling him the answer to many things.
—
Lu Mingfei had planted this tree for 18 years, and the annual rings went round and round. It never bloomed or bore fruit. The people under the tree sat in a trance for 18 years.
Perhaps her nod was regarded as an answer to the passionate confession. The theater was boiling. Zhao Menghua went to hug Chen Wenwen. The girl hugged back. When she looked back into the darkness, the boy standing there had disappeared.
He slowly walked out of the cinema, then quickened his pace, and finally ran until he stopped in front of the door at the end of the corridor. He put his hand on the door and before he pushed it, he heard the howling wind behind the door. It was like a strong wind.
Howling and roaring, he felt as if he was on the verge of the end of the world.
For the first time in his eighteen years of life, he pushed open the door, and the sound of wind poured in from the outside.
The wind roared.
The entire cinema was startled, and roars lingered in the sky above the private cinema. It was like a monster shouting its anger, as if a hole had been opened in the cinema, and a huge amount of noise and sea water seemed to pour in, shocking people.
The eardrums were trembling wildly. Everyone rushed out of the theater and ran into the corridor. They saw the door pushed open at the end of the corridor. Next to the door, there was a paper bag filled with ninety-nine roses.
The rose covered with cold water that stuck out of the pocket was trembling slightly in the wind.
Everyone rushed out shouting and talking, trying to figure out what happened. Chen Wenwen, who noticed the paper bag in the crowd at a glance, seemed to have a premonition and gently pulled Zhao Menghua's sleeve. The boy stopped and looked at her to comfort her.
Nothing would happen. He took her and everyone to the door and pushed the door open completely.
The sound of wind, voices, and whistling were swept up into the sky by the rose petals in the paper bag that fell on the ground.
The blazing white light, several times the size of the studio's spotlight, fell from the sky. Everyone raised their hands to block the light amid the noise, and tried their best to look up at the sky. They only saw a giant bird circling and falling, with a sense of fate.
The sense of solemnity makes people hold their breath and dare not speak lightly.
In the distance, a pair of men and women in black trench coats, familiar to everyone, stood leaning in front of the stone pier and looking at the people in front of the movie hall. However, the eyes of the two people did not fall on anyone at the door of the movie hall;
Looking at the boy who opened the theater door and walked alone. The helicopter's light hit the boy who left the theater and rushed away, so everyone saw clearly who it was. They were a little disbelieving but couldn't say anything.
Discourse.
The huge helicopter fell and stopped behind Lin Nian in front of the clearing. The propellers wheezed in the strong wind. He did not look back. He raised his hand and opened the hatch behind him. He looked at Lu Mingfei who was walking in front of him and asked, "
Have you thought about it? Professor Guderian can't wait, this helicopter will take you directly to see him, and then there will be no turning back for you."
His answer was a silent nod, and he took a slight breath, as if he couldn't hold back under this extremely exciting scene.
"If you can't hold it back, you have to hold it back for me. This is your own choice. You will be happy to win, and you will be happy to lose. You have heard this sentence." Lin Nian said.
He helped Lu Mingfei get on the helicopter, then reached out and took the hand of the girl below to guide her up. He glanced at the movie theater with white lights in the distance and whispered, "You have had such a dream before, then...
Just finish it like a dream."
The helicopter roared into the air and soared up in the strong wind. The boy on the seat looked down at the gradually disappearing figures on the ground, with his hands on his knees and his waist straight. He remembered the dream, in which the boy walked up
Get out of the helicopter, never look back, get ready to blend into the adult world vigorously, fight alone there, and become more indestructible than anyone else.