I originally planned to type in the afternoon, but after lunch, I felt so inexplicably sleepy that I fell into a deep sleep.
You might even think it's ridiculous to say it,
In my dream, I dreamed that I and my girlfriend were riding bicycles home. I felt strange, and then I woke up twice in bed.
It even took me a second to remember
This is afternoon, not morning.
I have a terrible headache.
When I woke up, I was alone at home. I slept too deeply. The back of my head hurt. I was terribly tired. All the thoughts I had worked up for the past two days were gone.
To be honest, nothing good has happened recently, it’s all bad things, which makes me feel very low. It’s not like I’m giving up on myself. It’s just that I’m tired of forcing myself to be energetic every day.
Although I got over the shock of the previous exam, I still couldn’t be happy after accepting the fact.
Also, to be honest, my grades have been getting lower and lower recently, and no matter how hard I try to write, there will always be comments like "I feel worse and worse lately", which makes me scared and panicked.
I am a senior in college and I have returned home. During this time, I have been busy playing with my graduation projects. I basically stay at home every day and do not go out. After finishing my work, I worked hard to finish today's update. When I woke up the next day, I saw such a low subscription.
,I'm really panicked,
Simple sentences such as "worse", "unsightly" and "boring" are actually quite destructive to the author.
Some people may think it's pretentious, but that's how I feel.
If I don’t have a novel, what else can I do? What do I have? If I get worse and worse at this thing, what should I do in the future?
Similar to this kind of thought, some people who have very few things can't help but think like this.
But I think I haven’t given up. Every day I update, I try my best to do my best, put my feelings into it, and think carefully.
Maybe this won't satisfy you,
I think this may be due to my poor state for personal reasons. My recent depression has led to such a decline.
So I won’t write today. The chapter I wrote in the middle of the night at this time will definitely not be good. Please reflect on yourself.
And I force myself to stay up late to finish writing, and then be told ‘no’ tomorrow, I think I might not be able to bear it.
I've been hit a lot lately (laughs)
Let’s reflect on it, accumulate inspiration and enthusiasm for writing, and also buy a PS4, so I’d better take advantage of the holiday to have fun.
Good night everyone, I hope you don’t have a good dream like me.