The reason why Egger suddenly collapsed was because his spirit suffered multiple blows.
In addition to discovering the abnormality in his body, just now, Egger finally understood the meaning of his existence.
As a time traveler, the whole meaning of my appearance in this world is to consume that tube of serum.
If that tube of serum is not used on himself, maybe it will fall into the hands of an organization with scientific research capabilities, and then be studied, copied, and eventually produce thousands of anti-virus drugs.
Although it cannot save the infected humans in the end, it can end this blood plague.
The emergence of Iger is not accidental. He made a key investment at a key node and changed the future direction of the entire world with minimal variables.
The most ironic thing is that he once regarded saving mankind as his highest goal, but little did he know that his appearance ruined this possibility.
In fact, salvation is meaningless, and the same is true for death. Everything is meaningless.
When the world can no longer function, the power that created the world only needs to click "Restart", and everything will return to the day when the blood epidemic broke out, and then continue with the next round of new experiments.
A more absurd world.
What a ridiculous fate.
What a pathetic self.
In the midst of crazy crying, Egger's mind quickly diminished. Just when he was about to fall into true madness, Joanna pulled his heart back.
After hearing Joanna's words, Iger slowly stopped crying.
Am I real?
Egger stretched out his hand, put it to his mouth and bit it hard until he tasted the salty taste in his mouth, until blood flowed out from the corner of his mouth, until he saw his health slowly decreasing.
"This damn world, since you are so real, why can't you be more real! Why can't you be more real!!" Iger pushed Joanna away and let out a heart-rending roar.
Under Joanna's horrified gaze, Egger, who had already calmed down, suddenly became violent. Just when he was about to roar again with all his strength, he felt a pain in his jaw, his eyes went dark, and he fainted.
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Jixi Town.
Dr. Heidemi has never encountered this kind of situation. She is only an emergency specialist, not a psychiatrist. Now everyone is staring at her, and she has to find a way even if there is no other way.
"I speculate that Egger suddenly received extremely strong mental stimulation. Generally speaking, patients will be relieved after cutting off the source of stimulation and decompressing on their own. As for his situation, it is very strange. I can't imagine the stimulation he received at all.
What is the source.”
Dr. Heidemi said to the room full of people, "I have prepared sedatives here. After Iger wakes up, if he continues to lose control of his emotions, in order to prevent him from burning out his brain, I suggest injecting him with sedatives.
"
"Thank you, Doctor Hedme," Father Locke said.
"Also." Dr. Heidemi said to Father Locke: "After such a strong mental fluctuation, Egg's mind may be temporarily reduced. I can't say how much it will recover in the future."
Everyone fell silent after hearing Dr. Heidemi's words.
This happened so suddenly.
Nicholas said that Egger's face suddenly became ugly, and he asked himself: "Did you hear that?" No, he asked "Did you hear that" twice, and he suddenly fell into a coma just after he finished speaking the last time.
After waking up from a brief coma, Egger's behavior became a little strange. He walked alone towards Todo Town, and then his mind collapsed while walking.
When he was about to go crazy, Nicholas hit Egg with an uppercut on the chin, knocking him unconscious.
As a result, Iger fell into a long coma, and the field team had returned to Jixi Town and had not yet woken up.
It is already clear that Egger must have suffered some kind of mental shock. This kind of mental shock was so intense and highly directional that other people could not even perceive it except the person being attacked.
There is no need to guess, the answer is already there. The one who launched the mental attack should be the Heart of Blood Plague.
Egger said that the Heart of Blood Plague is the fusion of screamers. Hundreds of screamers are melted together and superimposed. It can burst out spiritual energy that instantly makes people go crazy.
What everyone can do now is to pray that Iger can survive and recover as soon as possible.
…
He didn't know how long he had been asleep, but Egger woke up slowly. The hysteria he had felt before had subsided, and he only felt deeply tired.
Egger opened his eyes and stared at the ceiling for a while. By identifying the patterns and colors on it, he finally recognized that this was a ward.
The sanity of middle-aged people collapses only in a moment. But before this moment, there are countless times of accumulation of mental pressure and countless times of wandering on the edge of collapse.
On the first day that Egg came into this world, he wandered between survival and destruction several times.
This world left Egger with no desire to survive, and the fear of death made him instinctively seek to survive. In this torture of not wanting to live but not wanting to die, Father Locke saved him for the second time. Father Locke gave Egger the chance to live.
Faith and hope.
Egg keeps Father Locke's kindness to him firmly in mind, which is the anchor of his existence in this world.
In the days that followed, Egger lived a very devoted life, but he was not the kind of person who was very adaptable, so he also lived a very painful and miserable life.
No one else can understand Iger's true pain.
What Iger needs is not material, women, power, or glory. What he wants is just to have enough motivation to live.
Whenever Iger tried to use emotional involvement and immersion to offset the sense of intellectual emptiness, the icons and numbers in his field of vision would mock him coldly, tearing his mind apart bit by bit.
crack.
Iger knew that one day, he would either go crazy or become a ruthless "player".
In the doomsday world, the most terrifying people are not those hysterical anti-human lunatics. In fact, any person with feelings, or even anyone who can be "crazy", is not the most terrifying.
The scariest thing is the players.
A player is not a profession, nor a character. In fact, it is a mentality, and that mentality is called "who care".
Creatures with this kind of mentality are the most terrifying creatures. No logic, reason, or emotion can be used to predict their behavior.
The most common situations are usually "Oh, my hand slipped", "I just want to try it", "It can still be operated like this".
What Egg wants is to live, to live truly, not to live like a madman or a monster.
With continuous emotional investment and self-hypnosis, Iger gradually dispelled the feeling of nothingness.
Even Avila and Lily, even if they often make Iger angry and sad, are actually helping Iger and making him feel that he is living in a real world.
Sweet, sour, spicy and salty make up our sense of taste.
Joy, sorrow, and pain make up our lives.
These feelings are the anchors that Iger needs most.
In addition to these, Iger has always had a fantasy. He felt that since he was sent here by an irresistible force, he must be shouldering some unique mission.
Iger told everyone about his ambitions. Part of it was due to his personality, and part of it was his belief that he was responsible for changing the destiny of the world.
It wasn't until today that Iger discovered that the mission of his existence had already been completed.
At the moment when the illusory sense of destiny was shattered, Egger's long-suppressed emotions finally burst. He couldn't hold it any longer, so he lost control on the spot.
After lying there and staring at the ceiling for a long time, Egger gradually regained his consciousness. He lay on the bed and let his mind go in a daze.
The illusion that I once used to deceive myself has been exposed. How should I live in the future?
Is this world meaningless to you?
In the void, the figure appeared in Egger's mind.
In his previous life, Iger missed many good girls. He mustered up the courage to confess his love to Joanna. He just wanted to avoid leaving any emotional regrets for himself in this life.
I really like Joanna.
This is real.
No matter what this fucking world is like, if someone cares about him and he cares about her, maybe that's enough.
Just like Joanna said, no matter whether the world is empty or not, you are real to me, and that is enough.
I want to live with Joanna.
I want Joanna to live happily.
Yes, I am extremely eager.
Thinking of this, Egger felt that he shouldn't lie like this. He still had many urgent things to do.
Iger wanted to get up, but he fell down again halfway through struggling to get up. Now his body didn't obey the command at all, as if he was seriously ill.
After giving up the struggle, Egger opened his character bar for self-examination.
Physical condition: Restricted health.
Morale: -70 , despair.
Egger's eyes were fixed on the blood-red word "Despair", and several rows of small letters appeared next to it:
Everyone’s trust:30
Joanna's Dependence:50
The truth about this world:-150
"Fuck you, you actually deducted so much from me." Iger was so angry that he cursed out.
Later, Egger discovered that his character column had changed.
living human body
Age: 11 years old
Personalized tags:
1. A person who has insight into the truth of the world
Explanation: You got it, you got it, you got it!
2, teenager
Explanation: You have entered puberty, do you feel it?
3. Blood plague survivors
Explanation: Although the blood plague is cured, it changes your body (you know what).
Physical energy is permanently reduced by 20 points.
Life is permanently reduced by 15 points.
Blood plague resistance increased by 100%.
4, marksman
Explanation: Genius is 99% talent and 1% hard work.
It was a truly malicious explanation. Iger wanted to know if this world was only for himself, or if it was like this for everyone.
Then there is the attribute column, Physique: 6, Dexterity: 6, Mind: 3, Combat: 1, Shooting: 7
Special skills: Know-it-all
All skills are at least level 1.
Although the morale is a bit low, there are still 3 mental points, which is stronger than when we first came here.
Middle-aged people recover faster than young people after a mental breakdown.
In fact, there is no secret, it is just a matter of getting used to it.
After resting for a while, Egg gathered some strength and slowly sat up from the bed. Just as he was about to get off the ground, the door opened and Joanna came in.
As soon as Joanna saw that Iger had woken up, she quickly walked over in two steps. She squatted in front of the bed and said to Iger: "You're awake. How do you feel?"
"It's not good." Iger said to Joanna, "I almost went crazy this time. Fortunately, you and Nicholas saved my life."
"We all know the matter. You were affected by the mental impact of the Heart of Blood Plague." Joanna put the canned fruit in her hand on the table. In addition to eating meat, Egg also likes sweets, such as this
A very ordinary sugar apple.
Um?
After hearing Joanna's words, Egg was stunned for a moment. What kind of reasoning is this?
However, Egger quickly changed his mind and realized that it was not a bad thing to explain his mental disorder in this way, and it would better pave the way for his future action plan.
"I want to get out of bed and see Father Locke, but I can't get enough energy." After sitting on the bed for a while, Iger decided to continue lying down. He said to Joanna: "You can take Father Locke, right?
Would you like to call Nicholas too? I have something important to report to them."
Joanna put Iger down, put two pillows behind his back, and then hurried out and left.
The impact on morale was really huge. Now, apart from being forced to lie down flat, Egger could not move his body or mind.
No, I have to get rid of this state, or I can take the help of some drugs.
After a while, the ward was filled with people.
The first person beside Egger was Dr. Hedme, who was checking Egger's physical condition.
"The blood pressure is low and the heartbeat is strong, but the heart rate is a little slow. Have you had a heart disease before?" Dr. Heidemi put down the stethoscope and asked Egger.
"No. Well, probably not." Egger said to Dr. Heidemi.
"Okay, you can have a conversation that is not too complicated and should not exceed 10 minutes. The patient needs to rest." Dr. Heidemi turned to the person behind him and said.
After Dr. Heidemi left, Egger said to Father Locke: "Godfather, I am in a very bad state now and cannot think continuously. I now apply for a bottle of the energy drink that I sent someone to hand over last time."
Father Locke hesitated for a moment after hearing what Iger said, but Iger said firmly: "Don't worry, this is a safe dose. I need it very much now so that I can reorganize my thinking."
"Child, don't push yourself too hard." Father Locke refused.
"Wait a minute." Egger called out to Father Locke who was about to turn around and move away. He said to Father Locke: "If possible, I also hope to lie in bed and rest like this. But we have no time to waste."
After Father Locke stared at Egg for a while, he turned his head and gave an order to Sister Maria.
A few minutes later, Sister Maria brought a small plastic bottle and handed it to Iger.
Iger picked it up and saw that the number on it was "3". He unscrewed the bottle cap and drank the drink inside.
After a while, it was like a strong wind blowing, instantly blowing away the fog in his brain. Egg suddenly became very clear-headed. As his consciousness became clearer, his mind started to spin like an engine with full oil.
Egger sat upright immediately. He said seriously to Father Locke and others: "I was 'connected' to the Heart of Blood Plague just now. It can sense me, and I can also sense it."
