Her face seemed less pale than before, and her lips began to turn red.
I smiled coquettishly, and then sat beside her sleeping bag, with my legs bent and my hands holding my knees.
I probably have to sit like this all night, but I am willing to do so, because after this night I believe she should trust me very much.
That's right, everything I did was not out of kindness to her, but to gain her trust and let her send me to work at MD.
Perhaps because she saw that I was wearing relatively thin clothes, she suddenly said to me kindly: "There is one of my coats here, please take it and put it on."
"No, it's not cold yet."
"This is an order!"
"Okay, I'll obey."
We chatted for a while, and she asked me why I knew so much, and I kept chatting to her, but there was not a word of truth.
The more she talked, the more energetic she became, and she seemed to have no sleepiness at all.
While we were chatting, she suddenly asked me seriously: "By the way, when you gave me drugs just now, did you also infect yourself?"
"Definitely! But I've already rinsed my mouth."
"Weren't you afraid at the time?"
"I'm afraid, but you are my boss." I joked.
She rolled her eyes at me and said, "You're so glib, I'm becoming more and more suspicious of you now."
My heart skipped a beat, and I asked cautiously: "What does Sister Yan doubt about me?"
"I wonder if you often use these tricks to deal with girls?"
I chuckled and said, "Sister Yan, what you said is wrong! I have never been in love in my entire life."
"You haven't talked about it?"
"No ah."
Zhu Xiaoyan was silent for a while and then said: "Then I will introduce you to a beautiful woman another day."
I waved my hand and said, "No, no, I just want to make money now."
"No wonder you want to work at MD because you want to make quick money, right?"
I nodded, sighed deliberately, and said, "I'm afraid of being poor. I really want to become rich."
Zhu Xiaoyan smacked her lips and said after a long while: "Don't worry, work hard with me, I won't treat you badly."
I nodded heavily, and she added: "But business over there in MD is not easy. You must be careful everywhere after you go there. It's not as good as in China. I can't help you if something goes wrong."
"I know, in fact, human life is a gamble. Since it is a gamble, there are bound to be losses and wins. It depends on whether you dare to gamble."
"Do you like gambling?"
"I don't like it, but people can't help themselves in the world."
"What a man who can't help himself in the world."
"Yes! Is there anything that Sister Yan can't help doing?"
Zhu Xiaoyan suddenly fell silent, and after a while she said to me: "Do you think I have it?"
"Yes!" I said in a long voice.
Zhu Xiaoyan smiled again and asked jokingly: "Then what do you mean I can't help myself?"
"Your dad." I blurted out.
Zhu Xiaoyan was stunned for a moment, frowning and staring at me, her eyes gradually becoming cold and stern.
I quickly explained: "Sister Yan, don't get me wrong. It's just that you were drunk that day. When I sent you back, you were talking in your sleep."
Zhu Xiaoyan was stunned again, and then asked me: "What did I say?"
"You called you daddy, I didn't mean to hear it!"
Zhu Xiaoyan sighed, her eyebrows lowered, as if she was a little sad.
After a while, she asked me: "Do you have a cigarette on you? Give me one."
"Sister Yan, please stop smoking! Take good care of yourself."
"I'll give it to you if I ask you to. What are you talking about?"
I took out a cigarette and handed it to her, then lit one myself, and then opened the tent curtain.
We lit cigarettes at the same time and smoked silently.
After a while, Zhu Xiaoyan said to me: "You are right, I have something that I can't control. You are also right, he is my father."
I answered: "What about your father?"
"he died."
"Ah? Dead?!" I looked at her in surprise.
Zhu Xiaoyan said angrily: "I hope he dies."
"Oh, it seems you hate your father."
"I hate him so much that if he appeared in front of me now, I would like to kill him."
"Why? What did he do to hurt you?" I started to trick her.
I thought she wouldn't say it, but after a very long silence, she finally said: "She shouldn't have brought me into this world. Since she brought me here, she didn't support me, and she also took me away."
Living in this troubled world."
"Sister Yan, I don't quite understand what you said."
"Forget it if you don't understand. There's no point in telling you this. Just listen."
I stopped answering, and she continued: "Just because I am her illegitimate daughter, she didn't even give me a title. Do you know why my name is Zhu Xiaoyan?"
I shook my head, and she smiled bitterly, took a puff of cigarette and said slowly: "Because Zhu Xiaoyan is my mother's name, and my real name is Anna."
If I hadn't seen her ID card that night, I might have been surprised at this moment.
But I still looked surprised and said, "Does anyone know your name is Anna?"
She shook her head and replied, "No."
I said "Oh" and asked again: "Then has your father come to see you?"
"Look, every time you come here, you always ask me about my work. If you ask me to do a good job, you will recognize me."
I narrowed my eyes and said, "So, everything you are doing now was arranged by your father?"
"That's right! The industries here include," she hesitated, shook her head and said, "Forget it, I won't tell you about these."
Even if she didn’t tell me, I knew that the industry here, including the business at MD, belonged to Antonsen, and she was only responsible for helping Antonsen manage it.
To put it bluntly, she is just a target of Antonsen's use.
Can a person who even takes advantage of his own daughter be a good person?
After a moment of silence, I asked her again: "Have you ever thought about quitting?"
"I've thought about it," she paused, then said with a sad smile, "but I've already gone down this road, so how can I just quit? I can't look back."
From her words, I can see that she still wants to live a good life, but she just can't help herself.
This is something she has no control over, and adults must be responsible for everything they do.
"Then I understand, you want your father's approval, that's why you work so hard, right?"
"It used to be, but not now. Everything I do now is for myself, because I can't look back."
"Have you ever thought about turning yourself in?"
Zhu Xiaoyan suddenly frowned and looked at me, sneered and said, "Are you asking me to die?"
"Not necessarily!"
Zhu Xiaoyan smiled bitterly again and said: "I tell you, the things I have committed now are enough to kill me several times."
I lowered my head and fell silent, because I knew that sooner or later she would have this day, and maybe I would have to send her in with my own hands.
I don't know if she will blame me when she knows the truth.
Maybe you wish you could kill me sooner!
But I still don't regret it, because it was a mistake and she really deserves to die.
Especially when I think of Wu Fangfang's death, I hate them all.
So no matter how wronged Zhu Xiaoyan is in front of me now, I will not pity her at all!