My sudden roar was like a bolt of lightning piercing the night sky, breaking the silence of the night.
She finally stopped talking and lowered her head, and I saw a tear fall from her eyes.
She is so distressed at this time, but I really can't get along with her right now.
"sorry!"
After saying these three words, I turned around and left, leaving her standing alone in the cold wind.
I didn’t go back to the farmhouse anymore, I ran directly back to the small wooden house at the entrance of the village.
I lay on my little bed and kept smoking, feeling as if my five-flavor bottle had been knocked over.
In fact, I can feel that there must be many stories between An Lan and I, and I also believe that what she just said to me is true.
But I can't remember anything now. To me, she is just a friend I just met.
How could I possibly be with her now? Isn't this ridiculous?
Even if I get to know her again, it will take a while!
This night, I have been shrouded in mist and mist, and I almost didn't fall asleep. I just lay on this small bed and stared at the grape grove outside in a daze.
It wasn't until it was almost early morning that I fell asleep for a short while.
In the morning, the sky was still gloomy, and there was even a slight drizzle, exaggerating my depressed mood.
I even don't know how to face An Lan. I said such heartless words to her last night. I have no idea how uncomfortable she is.
But when I saw Fu Zhiqiang and He Jing, they told me that An Lan had left. They left in a hurry before dawn, saying that they were going to the city to talk to the relevant person in charge about road construction.
I think she might not know how to face me just like me, so she chose to leave so early.
This is good, so that I won't be at a loss when facing her again.
Today, I cooperated with Xiaoqi's team to complete shooting tasks in various villages.
Every shot they take, even if it is just an empty shot, is scripted, and if a shot is not satisfactory at all, they will start over.
So much so that one scene is sometimes shot more than ten times. Judging from their rigorous attitude, it is really not an accident that they are so popular now.
And He Jing is not idle either. She actually composed a song for us, and so far she has only completed the lyrics.
She said that after returning this time, she would find someone to complete the composition of the song together, and strive to create the song as soon as possible.
None of them knew what happened between An Lan and I last night, and no one asked, but I was still a little absent-minded throughout the day.
At five o'clock that afternoon, they completed all the shooting tasks. Because of the tight time, they had to go back now.
After we parted ways, we left each other's contact information and said we would call each other when the time came.
Cheng Xiaohu was also planning to go to Chengdu with them to play. I didn't stop him. He had never been out of the county, so I just let him go out for two days.
Before leaving, I called Fu Zhiqiang over and told him: "After Cheng Xiaohu goes to Chengdu with you, please help me keep an eye on him. Don't let him act recklessly, and don't teach him bad things."
"Don't worry, brother, I'm measured."
I nodded and said to him: "If he needs anything, just call me."
"I know, but brother, are you sure you don't want to go back with us?"
"Where can I go now? There are so many jobs here."
“Isn’t it okay to go to Chengdu for two days?”
I shook my head, sighed softly and said, "I can't leave, so I'll come back when I'm free."
"Okay, brother, let's go then. We'll call you later."
I nodded, then turned to look at Cheng Lu who came with me to see them off, and said, "Lulu, how about you go to Chengdu with your brother for two days?"
I could tell that Cheng Lu wanted to go, but she asked me, "Brother Dashan, are you going too?"
"I can't leave, so I won't go. Why don't you go and play with your brother for two days?"
He Jing on the side said: "Sister, let me tell you, Chengdu has a lot of good and fun things, and you can even see giant pandas."
Cheng Lu had a look of longing on her face. I could really see that she really wanted to go, so I said to her, "Go ahead. I'll come to the county town to pick you up in two days."
But she still shook her head and said, "I'm not going. If I go, what will you do, Brother Dashan?"
I smiled and said, "I am such a big man, am I going to starve to death?"
Her little head shook her head from side to side and said, "If you don't want to go, I won't go. Let's go later."
Cheng Xiaohu stuck his head out of the car and said, "Okay, okay, if she doesn't go, she won't go. Let's leave quickly. It will get dark if we continue to play for a while."
I immediately said to Zhiqiang and Xiaoqi: "Yes, you should leave quickly. The road is not easy to walk after dark. Please pay attention to safety on the road."
After saying goodbye, Cheng Lu and I stood there and watched them leave.
The world suddenly became quiet. Looking at the direction they were leaving in the dust, Cheng Lu looked envious.
I raised my hand and patted her shoulder and said to her, "You still really want to go, right?"
She shook her head again and said, "I don't want to go. I will be wherever you are, Brother Dashan."
My heart suddenly tightened, and I was stunned before saying to her: "Lulu, you are actually a very smart person. You should go to big cities to see what you have learned."
Cheng Lu pursed her lips and said, "Brother Dashan, are you wrong?"
"What did I say wrong?"
"I'm so stupid and don't understand anything. How can I be smart?"
I smiled and said: "You are not stupid, you are simple. In fact, you know everything in your heart."
Cheng Lu didn't reply to me anymore, and I said to her again: "Let's go back."
On the way back, Cheng Lu suddenly asked me: "Brother Dashan, will one day you also leave our place?"
I don't know why she suddenly thought of asking this question. I'm afraid she already had a premonition in her heart.
I paused for a moment before replying: "Why are you thinking so far away? Let's just do the things in front of us now. Besides, you can't stay here forever, right?"
"I don't know. Our family has lived here for generations. Although my brother and I both long for life in the city, we know nothing and have no culture. We don't know what to do in the city."
"Didn't you tell me last time that you still wanted to go back to school?"
"I am already so old, and I have forgotten all the knowledge I learned before."
"Then learn it again. You are only eighteen years old, so you are not too old. There are others who are in their forties or fifties and are still in college."
Cheng Lu was silent for a while, and then suddenly said to me: "Actually, I envy the beautiful sister yesterday. I wish I could be like her."
"Which beautiful sister?" I asked curiously.
"That's the one who gave me the necklace!"
I fell silent immediately, smiled and said, "Why do you envy her?"
"She has an indescribable feeling about her. She seems to be very cultured and connotative. Anyway, she gives me a very good feeling and I want to be like her."
It seems that An Lan is really a woman that even women envy. However, what Cheng Lu said is indeed right. An Lan is so outstanding that I even feel that she is a bit unrealistic.
After a moment of silence, I finally said to Cheng Lu: "Lulu, you can make her your idol, but you have to remember that you are unique. You can't be someone else. You have to be uniquely you."
Cheng Lu suddenly stopped, looked at me blankly, and suddenly asked me: "Brother Dashan, do you like her like that?"