"Brother Dashan!" She pressed her warm face against my neck.
I patted her back gently and said softly: "Okay, don't think about anything, have a good sleep and forget all this!"
She nodded obediently, and then I let go of her and sent her back to bed to lie down.
"Go to sleep, don't worry, I'll be watching you all the time. When you fall asleep, I'll go back to sleep."
She pouted slightly and said, "Brother Dashan, I can't sleep, what should I do?"
I smiled, reached out and pushed a strand of hair from her face behind her ears, and said, "Close your eyes first, and I'll teach you how to count sheep. You'll fall asleep soon."
She said "yes" obediently and closed her eyes.
I said: "Now follow me and count the happy sheep, lazy sheep, beautiful sheep, and boiling sheep."
Cheng Lu was amused by me and burst into laughter.
"What are you laughing at? Now count by yourself, from the first one to the last one, and then from the last one to the first one several times before you fall asleep. It is very effective in treating insomnia."
"Brother Dashan, stop teasing me."
"Why am I teasing you? This is what I do when I can't sleep."
As soon as I finished speaking, Cheng Lu suddenly made a move that surprised me.
She moved her body to the inside of the bed, then reached out and gently patted the mattress on the outside side, and whispered: "Brother Dashan, can you sleep here?"
I was stunned, touched my nose, and said hesitantly: "This, this"
She immediately turned her head away in shame, but I could still see the blush on her face, her cheeks were red, and even her small and exquisite earlobes were red.
I know she mustered up the courage to say this. If I reject her request, she will be even more embarrassed.
But I have to refuse! What does it mean if I sleep with her?
Even though we are engaged now, we are not really together!
I paused and then said to her: "Lulu, let me sing a song for you, and you can fall asleep if you like."
"What song is it?"
"Listen!" After saying that, I started singing.
"Summer passes quietly, leaving little secrets behind
I can't tell you from the bottom of my heart. The night breeze blows and warms my heart, and I think of you again.
How sweet it is, how can I forget it, I can't forget you, write you in my diary
I can't forget you, I'm still thinking of you
In the romantic summer, there is still a romantic you, giving me a pink memory."
After listening to me singing, Cheng Lu laughed again, and the atmosphere was finally not so awkward.
I took a long breath and said, "Can you sleep well now?"
She nodded, but then asked me: "Brother Dashan, do you think I'm particularly messy?"
"No," I smiled, reached out and stroked her hair, and said, "Even if you continue to be messy, I won't blame you, because you are my sister!"
Cheng Lu's eyes suddenly looked strange, and she suddenly said: "Do you really only think of me as your sister?"
From my heart, Cheng Lu is really my sister. Like Cheng Xiaohu, I love her the same way I love my sister.
Of course I knew what she meant when she asked me this question, but I suddenly didn't know how to answer it.
In silence, she looked at me steadily and said, "I don't want to be your sister."
I knew what she was going to say, but I was so helpless. I really didn't know how to tell her. I really just treated her like a sister.
When I'm upset, I like to light a cigarette, take a deep puff, and then say: "Lulu, I know what you want to say, and I also know that you should listen to what I say first. But you should look at the problem this way.
Sometimes, many things are often done out of love, and there are many kinds of love, such as "
Before I could continue, she interrupted me: "You, don't you like me at all?"
My wrist holding the cigarette suddenly shook, and I pretended to lower my head and flick the ashes, because I wanted to have a buffer period.
In order not to disappoint her, I said with a smile: "I like it, you are my sister. If I don't like you, who else do you like?"
Cheng Lu's eyes full of expectation dimmed little by little.
She half turned her head and murmured: "But I, I don't want to be your sister, I want to be your girlfriend."
I was stunned and speechless. I didn’t know how to answer. In fact, I knew she would say that, but I just didn’t know how to deal with it.
In the silence, Cheng Lu suddenly rushed towards me again and hugged me tightly again!
I raised one hand high because I was afraid that the cigarette butt between my fingers would burn her.
Her face arched into my arms, and her arms tightly hugged my waist. She was speechless. She seemed to enjoy the feeling of being in my arms.
"Lulu, you, please don't do this, okay? I'm embarrassed when you do this."
"What's the embarrassment for? Aren't we about to get married? Is it wrong for us to do this?"
As she spoke, her arms tightened.
I tried to push her away, but she seemed to use all her strength to hold me tightly and said: "I know, there is a relationship between you and that beautiful sister. I can see that I am not stupid."
, I already knew it from the time she gave me and my brother gifts.”
I'm speechless!
She continued: "But no matter, you are mine, I don't want you to leave me, I like you, I don't know what to do."
I know that her love is not a sister's love for her brother, but a woman's love for a man.
Of course I don't hate her, but when she said these three words, I was really at a loss what to do.
Because, why, I can’t tell you at the moment
I haven't even thought about what would happen if we really got married?
"Brother Dashan," she continued to murmur in my arms, "do you understand my heart? Do you understand? I like you, I really like you, and I don't want you to leave me."
Her voice was small, but her tone contained huge emotions.
I hugged her blankly, not knowing how to respond to her enthusiasm.
I let out a long breath, gritted my teeth and said to her: "It's too late, Lulu, you should rest. I'm sleepy too. Can we talk tomorrow?"
After all my coaxing, she finally calmed down, left my arms, and turned away to prevent me from looking at her face.
I slowly stood up from my bed and walked out of her boudoir.
To be honest, I'm not stupid, and I don't want to pretend to be confused. I can see that Cheng Lu's liking for me has changed.
Maybe her love for me before was just like a younger sister's love for her brother, but now her love has gone beyond brother-sister love or friendship. I can clearly feel her unusually warm gaze.
Like, I'm not, and I don't want to pretend to be confused.
It's just that I don't know how to respond to her or reject her.
On the other hand, I don’t know what to think about An Lan’s openness to me, and how should I respond to her?