In the doctor's diagnosis room, the doctor asked me many questions and then gave me a physical examination form.
Zhou Mo kept following me up and down to do the check-up. Because he was an acquaintance, I didn't have to wait long to get my check-up form.
When I saw the notes on the inspection report, I just felt like the sky was falling.
On the examination report, it was written in black and white: malignant tumor of gastric epithelial tissue.
This is the medical name of gastric cancer!
Zhou Mo was also a knowledgeable person, so he saw the problem at a glance.
When she saw my diagnosis result, she was also stunned, as if she had received some kind of stimulation.
We sat on the bench outside the diagnosis room, and it took a long time for Zhou Mo to ask me: "When did it happen? Did you know about it early on?"
I nodded and replied calmly: "Yes, but I wasn't sure at that time."
"Why didn't you tell me?" Zhou Mo looked at me with an increasingly sad expression.
I lowered my head, let out a long sigh and said, "What's the use of telling you?"
Unexpectedly, Zhou Mo suddenly started crying, which made me feel a little overwhelmed.
"Why are you crying?" I looked at her and asked.
"You don't regard me as a family member. Why didn't you tell me that such a big thing happened? Why did you hide it from me?"
I was speechless, and the hand holding the inspection report kept shaking.
After a while, Zhou Mo stood up, pulled me and said, "Let's go to the doctor and see what the doctor says. We will cooperate with the treatment."
I have no idea how I walked to the doctor's diagnosis room. I was in a daze all the way from the examination center back to the diagnosis room, as if my soul was out of body.
Sitting in the diagnosis room, the doctor looked confused after reading my examination report.
Zhou Mo first asked the doctor: "Doctor, does my husband have stomach cancer?"
The doctor nodded solemnly: "It's stomach cancer, but it's not too late to find it yet."
"Can that be cured?" Zhou Mo asked anxiously again.
"This," the doctor hesitated for a moment, then said, "The possibility of curing gastric cancer is very small. Even if it is discovered early, we still need to continue to observe the development of the tumor."
"I don't understand what you're talking about. Just tell me briefly, can it be cured?" Zhou Mo was really anxious, and she almost didn't give me a chance to speak.
The doctor was silent for a while and then asked us: "Are you living in Beijing? If so, I suggest you go to the hospital now. There will be many follow-up examinations. According to the current examination report, the tumor has developed to stage three.
Already."
"Ah!?" Zhou Mo was so frightened that he almost couldn't stand still, and then said with a worried look, "Then why did you find out at this time?"
The doctor shook his head and sighed: "Early gastric cancer is difficult to detect. In your case, you have already discovered it early."
"But" Zhou Mo hesitated, then turned to look at me with a sad expression.
Then I finally said: "Doctor, we don't live in Beijing. I just want to ask, can my situation be cured, right?"
"Yes, for stage III gastric cancer, there is a 50% survival rate after surgery. Even after surgery, a lot of regular chemotherapy is required, which is not cheap."
Zhou Mo hurriedly took over and said: "Money doesn't matter, we will treat you no matter how much it costs, but I want to ask the doctor, is there really only a 50% chance of survival after the operation?"
"Yes." The doctor nodded heavily, as if he had sentenced me to death.
A fifty percent chance of survival means that half of my body has already entered the gate of hell.
After coming out of the doctor's diagnosis room, Zhou Mo and I didn't leave immediately. We sat on the bench in the corridor outside.
Zhou Mo's eyes were a little red, and I felt very uncomfortable. Who wants to suffer from such a disease?
In the silence, Zhou Mo started crying again. Her voice was very small, but her tears were real.
At that moment I realized that she really cared about me, because it was impossible for someone who didn't care about me to shed tears at this time.
At the same time, I also thought about An Lan. If An Lan knew about my situation, what would happen to her?
No, I can't tell her, I can't make her sad.
"How could this happen? Why would a good person get stomach cancer?" Zhou Mo said with choked sobs.
In order to comfort her, I forced a smile and said, "Stop crying. Didn't the doctor say anything? There is still a 50% chance."
"But fifty percent is half the chance of survival. This is too small, really too small."
"But that's it now, let's just resign ourselves to fate!"
"Why did you get stomach cancer?"
I shrugged, because I didn't know either.
Zhou Mo began to complain again: "It must be because you often didn't eat on time, especially breakfast, or because you often ordered takeout, and it must be because you had irregular meals."
After finishing speaking, she said as if talking to herself: "But it shouldn't be! You are still so young, you shouldn't be suffering from gastric cancer!"
I stretched out my hand, patted her shoulder, and comforted her: "Don't worry. Since it happened, just face it. Don't be afraid."
"If An Lan knew you were like this, how sad would she be?"
Zhou Mo rarely mentioned An Lan in front of me, but it seemed that at this time she was completely thinking from my perspective.
I was stunned for a while and then replied: "Don't think about it. We can't let An Lan know about this."
"Why? Why didn't she know that such a big thing happened?"
After saying that, she added: "She should know, you call her now and I'll tell her."
"No, don't tell her, I beg you."
"Why?" She looked at me with puzzled eyes.
"I'm just afraid that she'll be worried and sad, so I don't want to tell her."
"Then are you going to keep hiding it like this? What if I tell you what if there are risks after the operation?"
I was silent for a moment and suddenly made a difficult decision.
I said to Zhou Mo: "Zhou Mo, can you do me a favor?"
"What?"
"I need you to tell An Lan, just tell her that you are pregnant with my child, and I will also tell her that I have fallen in love with you, and I will live with you from now on."
I made this decision because I was not sure whether I could still live. In order to prevent An Lan from worrying about me and to allow her to find someone else, I could only do this.
After Zhou Mo heard this, he shook his head and said without even thinking: "No, this is absolutely not possible."
"Let me beg you."
"There's no point in begging me. She must be told the truth."
I suddenly felt a little painful. I grabbed my hair with both hands and said painfully, "Please don't do this, okay? I really don't want her to be sad. I hope she can be happy for the rest of her life."
"But you are undoubtedly hurting her by doing this? Have you ever thought about what will happen to her after you tell her this?"
I didn't say anything, and Zhou Mo said again: "I am a woman, I can understand her feelings, she will definitely be very sad."
"But that's only temporary. I understand her. Once I tell her the truth, once I really die, she will probably never look for me again in her life."
Zhou Mo suddenly fell silent, and her eyes gradually became complicated when she looked at me.
After a while, she said to me: "Okay, I promise you."