Chapter 1578: I won't be a human anymore in my next life
I am not a person without feelings. Even if I have no feelings for Xiao Wei, I still know when she asks me what day it is.
Today is January 3rd. Eight years ago today was the day Xiao Wei and I got married.
But I didn't say it directly. Instead, I looked at her and said, "Why do you ask this suddenly?"
"You must have forgotten, right?" She smiled bitterly, then picked up the wine glass and took a sip of wine.
"In your eyes, am I, Chen Feng, such an emotionless person?"
Xiao Wei raised her head, with a faint smile on her lips: "What? Do you still have feelings for me?"
"I only hate you."
Xiao Wei shrugged and said nothing more, turning his head to look out the French window.
I sat down on the chair opposite her, turned my head towards the floor-to-ceiling window, and said calmly: "Do you want to see me because you caused such a thing?"
"Yes and no."
"What's the meaning?"
"If I didn't, could I see you?"
I was silent, and Xiao Wei continued: "There is no other meaning. We are husband and wife. I just want to see you one last time before I die."
I was stunned for a moment, turned to look at her and said, "What do you mean by dying?"
"literal meaning."
"What’s wrong with you?"
"Are you concerned about me?" She smiled again, but it was very bitter.
"You can say it if you want to, or if you don't want to."
She turned around, took out a hospital test report from her bag, and handed it to me.
I took it over and took a look. The diagnosis result on it was written with three big characters: "Cervical Cancer".
When I saw this report, it would be a lie to say that I didn't feel any fluctuation in my heart.
I was stunned for a moment. After returning the report sheet to her, I was silent for a while and then said, "This can be cured. It's not a terminal illness."
"It's late." Xiao Wei said with a smile, but I clearly saw despair in her eyes.
I was stunned for a moment: "Why didn't you find it before?"
She shook her head, as if she didn't want to say anything.
I suddenly thought of myself, I am also a dying person, and suddenly I didn't know what to say.
Of course I didn't tell her about my affairs, and there was no need.
In my silence, Xiao Wei said with emotion: "I admit it, I have made too many mistakes in my life, especially to you, I owe too much."
"There is no need to talk about this now, it's all in the past."
"But you hate me, and I don't want you to still be filled with hatred after I die."
As she said that, she suddenly stood up, walked to me, and then knelt down in front of me.
I was startled and said to her hurriedly: "What are you doing? Get up quickly!"
She did not get up, but said repentantly: "Chen Feng, I am really sorry for you. I am not asking for your forgiveness, because a person like me does not deserve forgiveness. I just hope that after I die, you will not
Don’t hate me anymore.”
"You get up first and talk."
She shook her head and said with pain: "Just let me kneel down. That will make me feel better. I really don't have the face to see you again."
I never expected that she would make such a big fuss just to confess to me in person.
I can't understand her behavior, but at this moment, my heart softens.
I stretched out my hand to support her and said, "Get up quickly! Let's talk after you get up, or I'll leave now."
She then stood up with my help, but her face was already filled with tears.
I asked her to sit back on the chair, then lit a cigarette in my annoyance and asked her, "Where is Panpan?"
"At his grandparents' place."
"Do your parents know about this?"
Xiao Wei shook her head and sighed heavily: "No one else knows except you."
I was silent for a while and then said: "Don't be too sad. Cervical cancer is not a terminal disease now. Even if it is late stage, it can be treated with chemotherapy."
After a pause, I continued: "At the beginning of the year, I was also diagnosed with gastric cancer. I thought I was dead at the time, but after going to Beijing for treatment, I'm fine now, right? So don't give up."
Xiao Wei immediately raised her head, looked at me with tearful eyes, and said, "You, stomach cancer?"
"Well, stomach cancer is more serious than yours, right? So, there's really no need for you to be so sad."
"So, are you cured now?"
I was silent for a while and then said: "Okay, otherwise I wouldn't be able to stand in front of you alive now."
Xiao Wei suddenly sighed again: "But I'm in the advanced stage, and the doctors don't even recommend surgery."
"I was in an advanced stage at the time, but after surgery and chemotherapy, I still succeeded. You can go to those big hospitals in Beijing and give it a try. Don't give up. Just think about it and look forward to it."
Xiao Wei shook her head in despair and sighed: "It's useless. I've been to West China Hospital for a checkup. Mine is already rotten."
I suddenly didn't know what to say. Maybe this was fate, it was destined.
In the silence, Xiao Wei suddenly laughed again, poured wine again, and said to me, "Let's have a drink."
I didn't hesitate anymore, I picked up the wine glass and touched it lightly with her, then raised my head and drank it in one gulp.
After drinking the glass of wine, Xiao Wei said to me again: "Don't worry, I just want to see you through Dai Litao. I won't affect him and your company before you came.
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"I said, why are you doing this? You can come to me directly, there is no need to make such a big fuss."
Xiao Wei smiled bitterly and said: "If I come to find you, can I find you? Even if I find you, will you see me?"
I remained silent again because what she said was true.
Xiao Wei poured the wine again, took a sip alone, and continued: "Forget it, let's not talk about this. It was me who was sorry for you first. I really regret it, but there is no use regretting it."
"You drink less." I saw that she was about to pour the wine again, and finally stopped her.
She didn't care so much, she still poured the wine and my glass, and said: "People like me probably deserve to die! So, it's okay, I don't want to be a human being in the next life."
After saying that, she raised her head and drank the whole glass of wine in one gulp.
After drinking this glass of wine, she seemed a little drunk, and her eyes became a little misty.
She said to me vaguely: "Chen Feng, I have one last request. Can you give me a hug?"
I looked at her unmoved and said, "I told you to drink less, why do you bother?"
"It's okay, I'm okay, I feel very good now. I just want you to hug me, okay?" Her voice became softer and weaker.
I won't hug her, even if she doesn't want me to hate her anymore, I won't hug her.
I just said to her: "Go to bed and rest yourself. After a nap, you'll be fine."
Before I finished speaking, she suddenly fell down on the chair and ended up with a carpet on the floor.
I quickly stood up and prepared to help her to the bed.
But when I stood up, I suddenly felt dizzy, as if I was drunk.
But it shouldn’t be!
I just drank a small glass of wine. I'm not going to get drunk, right?
At this moment, Xiao Wei suddenly said vaguely: "Chen Feng, I'm sorry!"