So, I told everything about my trip to Xinjiang with Xiao Siya in the past few days, including my cooperation with Xiao Siya.
An Lan listened very carefully. After she finished listening, she looked at me in shock and said, "You have experienced so much in just three days?"
"Yes! Who would have thought? Originally we were going to find Siya Clothing to cooperate, but the result turned out to be like this, but I think this is good."
An Lan said thoughtfully: "That's good, but why is Li Liyang still here? He is everywhere."
I sighed and said, "Isn't it true? When Xiao Siya told me about this, I was also shocked."
As I said that, I paused and then said, "But let's not expose this matter yet. No one else knows about the cooperation between Tiancan Yunsi and us."
"Well, if Li Liyang knew about this, it would probably be troublesome."
I nodded and said to her: "It's very late. Go to sleep. I'll be here with you."
"You are very tired after coming back from such a long distance. You should go and rest quickly."
"I'm fine, I just want to watch you here."
An Lan smiled and said, "What's so good about me? I don't have any makeup on, I'm so ugly."
"Are you ugly? If you were ugly, then no one in the world would dare to say you are beautiful."
"Me! I'm already thirty."
I was also in a daze, time went too fast.
I still remember that when I first met An Lan, she was still a 26-year-old girl, and four years passed in the blink of an eye.
I really didn't expect that we have known each other for four years, but it seems like four days have passed to me.
I grabbed her hand tightly, put it on my face, and said softly: "So what if I'm thirty? We still have many thirty-year-olds, and you don't look like a thirty-year-old!"
An Lan smiled, gently stroked my cheek, and suddenly said sadly: "Husband, your face has become rough."
I smiled bitterly and said, "No, you are already thirty-four years old. You are old!"
An Lan chuckled and said, "I'm not old, I'm still young, and my husband is the most obedient."
"I remember the two years when I first met you, you were quite aloof and fierce. How come you have become so gentle now?"
An Lan smiled and said, "Am I going to be fierce all my life?"
"No matter what you are, I like you."
"Ever since I became pregnant with Xiaoman, I have really become different from before. I don't know why. Maybe it's because I feel like I have become a mother."
Yes, An Lan's changes are from the inside out and are visible to the naked eye.
Of course, so do I.
Both my personality and appearance are different from before. I have become calmer and smoother.
I used to be just a technical guy who didn't know how to deal with others, didn't know how to deal with the world, and I didn't know how to make a girl happy.
Even now, I still have a lot of carelessness, but compared to before, I have definitely changed a lot.
Isn't the best state of marriage like this? Learn more responsibilities and responsibilities from each other.
It's a pity that I can't accompany An Lan until the end. Maybe this time next year I will...
Every time I think of these things, I feel terribly uncomfortable.
I really can't bear it!
But so what?
This is the fact, this is fate!
I can't change my destiny. The only thing I can do is to give An Lan and my two children double my love during the countdown of my life.
In fact, every sign of truly entering middle age does not seem to care about age, but whether fantasy has been replaced by memories.
An Lan has fallen asleep and I am sleepy too, but I don't want to sleep. I just want to sit here and keep looking at her.
I want to remember her face clearly, hope that there will be an afterlife, and hope that I can find her again.
Maybe she is not the most perfect, or maybe she is not that good in the eyes of others.
Yes, she also has shortcomings. She can be willful sometimes and won't give up until she achieves her goal. She is a typical stubborn person.
But, so what?
I still love her, everything about her, including her soul.
I can’t explain clearly what love is, but it’s definitely not a game, not cold violence, not a yoke, not a humility, nor is it something that makes people suffer all kinds of grievances.
Obviously, I can't experience this when I'm around An Lan.
We rarely even quarrel, even over trivial matters in life, we seem to have never had any quarrels.
Isn't this the best state?
The moonlight shines in from the window, falls on the white sheets, and shines on every corner of the ward, reflecting a quiet world and a quiet night.
I have been holding An Lan's hand. There is no disturbance in the world at this moment. There is only her gentle breathing in the night, which also affects my heart and makes me no longer so anxious.
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I don't know when I fell asleep. I was woken up by the cold in the morning.
After waking up, I found myself lying next to the bed.
After sleeping in a sitting position all night, I felt sore in my waist and back, and my neck seemed to be stiff.
After feeling uncomfortable for a while, I went to the bathroom and washed my face with cold water to sober myself up a bit.
I looked at the time and saw that it was only six o'clock in the morning, and the sky was just getting bright.
I opened the small door leading to the balcony from the ward and walked out.
Then he lit a cigarette, lay on the guardrail, and looked at the rising sun in the easternmost part of the city.
I want to try to find the hope of life in it, but I am really scared.
I was afraid that one day I would suddenly leave An Lan, and I was even more worried about how their lives would change after I left her and the children.
I didn't dare to go any further and went down first. I turned around and stopped looking at the rising sun.
Because it is at best a spiritual sustenance and does not bring real hope.
An Lan is still sleeping, and I plan to go out and buy her some breakfast.
I went to a breakfast shop opposite the hospital and ordered a basket of steamed buns and a bowl of porridge. After eating, I packed two more brown sugar steamed buns and porridge.
An Lan doesn't like to eat steamed buns, but brown sugar steamed buns are her favorite.
When I returned to the ward, I heard a man's voice coming from outside the door.
"You're recovering pretty well now. I'll help you change your medicine again today. Make sure you have a good rest and don't walk on the ground for the next few days."
After hearing this voice, I knew it was a doctor.
Immediately afterwards, the doctor asked again: "Hey, didn't someone bring you to the hospital yesterday afternoon? Why are you alone today? How can you do this without anyone to take care of you?"
An Lan replied: "It's okay, my husband is here."
"Um, okay, where are the others?"
I immediately walked into the ward and said, "I'm here, doctor. How is my wife?"
The doctor looked at me, nodded and replied, "It's very good. I'll take her to change the medicine again in the morning. I've already written the order and put it here."
"Okay, thank you doctor."
"Well, have a good rest." He warned again and left the ward.
An Lan then asked me: "Husband, where have you been?"
"I bought you breakfast. I bought your favorite brown sugar steamed buns." As I said that, I picked up the steamed buns in my hand and shook them at her.