After listening to my explanation, An Lan felt relieved.
I turned back to Gao Sheng and asked, "What are you doing out so late?"
"I see you haven't come to bed yet, so I came to see you."
As Gao Sheng spoke, he said to me in a serious tone: "Boss, don't think too much about the company's affairs. At worst, let's take it slow. Anyway, we still have a lot of time."
An Lan also nodded in agreement: "Yeah, I don't know why you are anxious? You have to take your time when doing business. You can't eat hot tofu if you are anxious."
They didn't know why I was anxious, but I couldn't tell them.
I just smiled and said, "I know, I'm not in a hurry."
With that said, I stood up, yawned and said, "Go to bed, it's already so late."
Gao Sheng said to me again: "Boss, please don't come to my room to sleep. Anyway, I already know that you and your sister-in-law are acting. Besides, the people living here are all our former friends, so I don't think they can."
It’s the one who caused the destruction.”
I hesitated for a while and then stopped worrying about it, because sometimes, after the play is over, it seems even more fake.
I had some insomnia this night. This was also the first time I had insomnia since I came back from Chengdu.
Even when I fell asleep, I had many random dreams.
Flying in the sky for a while, chasing ghosts on the ground for a while...
After struggling until 5:30 in the morning, I couldn't stand it anymore, so I had to get up and go shopping outside.
In the countryside in midsummer, at half past five in the morning, the sky has already begun to light up.
I walked alone on the country road, accompanied by bursts of birdsong, the fragrance of flowers, and the smell of earth watered by early morning dew.
My restless heart gradually began to calm down.
Today happens to be the day for the market in our small town. Although it is still early, some villagers who are rushing to the early market have already set off by walking or riding electric bicycles.
Looking at the children following the adults, I suddenly remembered that when I was a child, I had glanced at them and looked forward to going to the market.
Because every time I go to the market, my mother will give me fifty cents, and I will be happy all day long.
But since I stepped out of this small town, I can no longer experience that kind of happiness.
My mother is no longer alive. I want to call her mom, but no one agrees.
That feeling is really sad, and now that I am a father, I can better understand how my parents desperately wanted to send me out of this small town to go to school.
Like them back then, I want to leave enough food for An Lan and my children so that they won’t have to worry about it for the rest of their lives.
But, I only have one year left, can I do it?
In fact, I don't even have confidence in myself anymore.
Because it is too difficult, it is a challenge full of unknowns for me.
At this moment, looking at the bustling people going to the market, my heart gradually calmed down.
I don't even want to worry about gains and losses for achievements that may not be achieved. I just want to spend the last time of my life spending time with my family.
A gust of wind blew with a hint of coolness, blowing away my thoughts and bringing peace.
I finally made the decision not to think about the gains and losses. Even today, I want to stay with my family.
When I got home, An Lan had also woken up and was helping the cooking aunt make breakfast in the kitchen.
Seeing that I was back, she asked me: "Husband, why are you going so early in the morning?"
“I went out for a walk and the air in the morning was quite good.”
"Why don't you call me? I'll accompany you!" An Lan said with a smile.
"I woke up at half past five. You were still sleeping, so I didn't wake you up."
After finishing speaking, I paused and then said: "After breakfast later, we will take Yangyang and Xiaoman with us and go to the city to play."
An Lan looked at me in surprise, as if he thought he heard wrongly.
I said to her again: "I have been busy during this period, but the results of my busyness are obvious, and it did not meet my expectations... I have thought a lot, and now I just want to leave more time for you and my children."
An Lan didn't say a word, only used an expression to tell me that this was what she hoped for.
So while having breakfast, I told Gao Sheng some work arrangements, and I didn't plan to worry about it anymore.
It's not that I don't want to be responsible, but I'm really tired and need a day to calm down.
I even sent Huang Yong a WeChat message, and he planned to come over today to help me move the equipment.
But today I just wanted to give myself a day off, so I asked him to come back tomorrow.
After breakfast, I drove into the city with An Lan and the two children.
I even set my mobile phone to reject all incoming calls. Today, even if I call me, I will not answer it.
When it came to going to the city to play in the amusement park, Xiaoman was definitely the most excited. He was so excited all the way.
My purpose is very clear, I will go to the amusement park in the morning and the zoo in the afternoon.
Today happens to be Saturday, and there are quite a lot of people in the amusement park, most of whom are bringing children, and there are also many couples.
All of them had happy smiles on their faces. In fact, happiness is really easy, at least for most of them.
As soon as we entered the amusement park, Xiaoman took me to play bumper cars.
An Lan had to take care of Yangyang, who was not yet one year old, so Xiaoman and I could only play together. She was holding Yangyang next to the venue and watching us.
Sometimes he stretched out his hand to accuse us of saying this to Yangyang, and sometimes he took out his mobile phone to take pictures of us.
Xiaoman was really happy. She sat in my arms while I drove the bumper car around in it.
I hit the heads of all the people inside, and then they all turned on us.
I didn't show off, I just took on the posture of one versus ten and let the game go.
Xiaoman is different from other children. She is as playful as An Lan. The more she is like this, the happier she is.
Of course, this is under the premise of ensuring safety.
After playing bumper cars, we went on to ride the Trojan Horse, which is a relatively quiet project.
This time, An Lan was asked to accompany Xiao Man, while I held Yang Yang beside him and watched.
Suddenly, he found some large and small bubbles floating in the sky. Yangyang especially liked those bubbles, so he picked them up with his hands.
I turned around and discovered that there was a stall selling bubble guns near us.
I immediately carried Yangyang to the stall, and after talking to the boss, I spent 120 yuan and bought two bubble guns.
The reason why it is so expensive is because the bubble guns I bought are unusual. One is a Gatling bubble gun with 28 holes, and the other is a double-barreled rainbow bubble gun.
In fact, I am a very playful person, but I have been burdened by all kinds of trivial things in life these years.
Once I let go and play, I can play better than anyone else.
An Lan and Xiao Man hadn't finished the wooden horse project yet, and I was holding Yang Yang and sitting on the bench for tourists to rest.
I took out my beloved Gatling bubble gun, pointed it at the sky and pressed the switch.
In an instant, those bubbles seemed to have seen a beautiful new world, and they swarmed out from the circular exit.
They floated higher and higher, some were blown by the wind, and some were still floating in the air. They were colorful and really beautiful.
Yangyang, who was sitting on my lap, kept stretching out his young hands to catch the bubbles after seeing so many bubbles.
There are more and more bubbles, flying all over the sky.
My world is filled with Yangyang's laughter, and it also attracts many children, who chase the bubbles in front of me.
At that moment, I really let go of all my obsessions.