At this moment, the whole world was quiet, and even the intensive care unit, which was filled with various medical equipment, was so quiet that you could hear a needle drop.
Only the wind that keeps blowing in from the window reminds me that all this is really happening and not in a dream.
My chest felt like it was blocked by a huge stone, and tears poured out like a dam, dripping down my cheeks and onto the ground.
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My legs softened and I sat on the cold ground again.
If, if I had known about Huang Li's situation earlier, maybe it wouldn't have ended like this?
But there are so many ifs in life!
I covered my chest with one hand and clutched the guardrail of the hospital bed with one hand, whimpering in pain.
My heart felt as heavy as lead, so oppressive that it was hard for me to breathe.
Tears had blurred my eyes. It seemed that I had shed all the tears I had shed over the years. The heart-wrenching feeling made my insides almost burst.
Huang Qiu'an is not much better than me, because she loves Huang Li deeply, and to him, Huang Li is his relative.
I don't know how much time passed before I came out of that extremely sad mood, stood up with difficulty, walked over to Huang Qiu'an, and patted his shoulder.
I know that no words can comfort him at this time.
So I didn't say a word and just stayed with him quietly. I think this is probably what Huang Li was thinking.
She told me that she doesn't like to be too sad, she likes to be lively.
After a long time, Huang Qiu'an agreed to the medical staff to send Huang Li's body away.
I helped Huang Qiu'an back to the ward. He seemed to have had his soul taken away from him. He sat on the chair next to the hospital bed without saying a word, staring at a certain place with empty eyes.
I put all the luggage and items that he had thrown on the floor into the suitcase.
But when I saw Huang Li's cosmetics and hairpins, my nose felt sour again.
She has always been a woman who loves beauty. She has always been beautiful since I met her.
So even yesterday, knowing that it was the last time she would see her, she still showed her most beautiful side to me.
They say that when you see something, you miss the person, so that’s probably the case.
The ringtone of my cell phone suddenly rang without warning. I quickly walked out of the ward, took out my cell phone and saw that it was An Lan calling.
After sorting out my emotions, I answered the phone: "Hello."
"Have you asked? Are they willing to go to England for treatment?"
I paused for a moment before replying with a choked sob: "There's no need to go."
"Why? Are they unwilling to go?"
"No...it's not necessary. Huang Li...has already left..."
There was silence on the other end of the phone. After a long time, An Lan said in surprise: "Oh my God! Why is it so sudden?"
"I just realized that yesterday was the last time I saw her... When I got to the hospital just now, Huang Li was already dead."
"This is too unacceptable, too sudden."
"It was very sudden. Let's not talk about it for now. I went in to see her husband. Her husband is in a bad mood right now."
"Well, you're fine too, don't be too sad."
After hanging up the phone, I returned to the ward again, only to see Huang Qiu'an leaning back on the chair with his eyes closed, tears still falling from his eyes.
How can this prevent people from being sad? How can this prevent people from being heartbroken?
…
Huang Li's funeral was scheduled for two days later. On the day of the funeral, there were only An Lan, me, and Huang Qiuan.
None of us wore black and white clothes because Huang Li had told her before her death that his funeral must not be so sad. She didn't like sadness.
That day, I knelt in front of Huang Li's tombstone and cried bitterly for a long time. Although I was standing in reality, I didn't want to believe this fact.
I don’t believe that the girl who used to talk and laugh with me, think of ways to pick up girls for me, buy me drinks, and let me pretend to be her boyfriend, just left this world.
She seemed like a brilliant pop that crossed my life.
After a moment, the scenery disappeared without a trace, but it left countless memories in my heart.
In fact, I don't know how I got out of this shadow in the past two days. It seems like a long time has passed, and it seems like it was just yesterday.
It wasn't until after the funeral that Huang Qiu'an took out an envelope and handed it to me and said, "Mr. Chen, this is what Huang Li asked me to give you the morning she left."
I took the envelope, walked aside, opened the envelope and read it.
Above is Huang Li's handwriting:
"Chen Feng, words are like words. I know that when you see this letter, I have gone to another world. Don't be sad, don't be sad. Because everything is the best arrangement...
In fact, I have known about my situation for a long time, and I have worked hard. I have gone to major hospitals across the country, and they can only try their best to relieve my pain. I have tried my best, even though I also want to live, and I love this very much.
world, but this is my life!
Counting the time, I have known you for thirteen years. I still remember the first time I met you. You were not yet 23 years old at that time, and I was only 21 at the time. I was thinking at that time, what has this boy been through?
What, why are you so vicissitudes of life, I want to know you, and that’s how we got to know each other.
There was a time when I loved you, I really loved you. I don’t know why, maybe it was a kind of dependence. I like to be with you, you are the person... I can’t tell you what’s good about it, but it just makes people happy.
hard to forget.
Okay, let’s get down to business! Having said all this, I actually hope you won’t be sad. I’ve been very happy these past two days. I also know that I can’t resist it anymore. I may have to leave soon... I hope you can be happy in the future.
Have a smooth journey, and I hope you and An Lan will be together for a long time, and that your family will be in good health.
Haha, do you think these words are very cliché? Yes, I am a very cliché person, but I think this is the most sincere blessing. I hope you are well, and I hope you can all be happy, but please don’t
Forgot, there was a woman named Huang Li in your life.
Well... there's a lot more I want to say, but I really don't have the energy to write any more. I'm a little tired, so that's it!
Take care!——Huang Li”
After reading the entire letter, I was so depressed that I felt like something was blocking my chest and I couldn't breathe.
I covered my chest with one hand and clutched the letter tightly with the other. I raised my head and tried not to let myself shed a single tear.
Because she said she didn't want to see me sad and I couldn't shed tears.
A pair of gentle hands suddenly placed on my shoulders, and I knew from that familiar breath that An Lan was beside me.
She didn't speak, just stood beside me quietly.
I'm actually quite sad because I've bid farewell to two good friends in these years.
One is Liang Jing and the other is Huang Li.
I hate this kind of separation so much, it’s really disappointing!
"If I had known about her situation earlier, maybe she wouldn't have died."
An Lan gently held my shoulders and said softly: "This is not your fault, don't blame yourself."
"I feel sad, very sad..."
She hugged my head to her chest and gently stroked my hair.
A gust of wind blows in the face, bringing the smell of dust to dust and earth to earth...