I did not continue this topic with her, and instead said to her: "Go to sleep, I hope it will be a sunny day tomorrow."
She didn't say any more, nodded, said "good night" to me, and then closed her eyes.
I also turned off the lights in the car, and it was instantly dark.
All you could hear was the rain still falling outside the car window, and Su Yue's breathing that gradually became evener. Everything seemed so quiet.
But I felt a little melancholy because I missed An Lan again.
Looking out of the car window into the depths of the night sky, I could see the incomprehensible vastness. I was wandering like a ghost in the vast time, feeling a little lost, a little confused, and some unspeakable helplessness.
It feels like the world is a boundless wilderness, and both my shadow and my heart feel inexplicably lonely.
Even though I knew it was poison with no antidote, I still kept taking it.
Maybe this is love, even if there are hurts, even if there are tears, I still look forward to the small happiness.
I love her, but she doesn't love me, and she even talks about divorce so lightly.
We only seek the happiness of being together and the pain of separation. God really opens a window and closes a door.
Could it be that we are destined to be just passers-by in each other's lives in this life?
If you just meet and can't stay, it's really better not to meet.
I don't want to admit it or accept it, she is a passer-by in my life.
My heart began to waver again, and I was wondering whether I should go to London again.
But I'm afraid of going to London. I don't want to see her happy. That will hurt me even more.
I just kept thinking about it, and then I couldn't sleep. On the one hand, it was because I kept thinking about these things and whether I should go to London.
On the other hand, it was because of the cold that I gave my coat to Su Yue and I only wore a T-shirt. Although it had been spring like for a long time, the night in the mountains was still very cold.
I slept intermittently for a few times, but I was woken up by the cold every time, and even when I fell asleep, I didn't feel at ease at all.
In the morning, when it was dark, I didn't sleep anymore. I had a splitting headache. I was sure I had a cold and I didn't have any energy.
I stared at the car window absentmindedly. The temperature difference between the car and outside was very big, and a layer of mist quietly covered the car window glass.
I stretched out my finger and wrote the word "An Lan" on it one stroke at a time.
The water mist passed by my fingertips gathered into water droplets and slid down the windshield, just like the tears I had been holding back, falling gently on my heart that was tense with longing, and it hurt.
I don’t know how long it took before Su Yue’s lazy voice reached my ears.
"You woke up so early?"
I turned to look at her, nodded and said, "Why don't you sleep a little longer?"
She yawned and said, "It's a bit cold. I woke up from the cold."
She was wearing two pieces of clothing, and she was crying out cold even with my coat on. This shows how I managed to survive last night.
Immediately, she realized it, handed me my coat and said, "Hurry up and put your clothes on. I forgot that your coat is covering me. Why don't you take it over?"
"I took it away. Aren't you even colder?"
"Then how cold are you? I feel cold like this, how can you bear it?"
"Ache!"
I sneezed and said, "It's okay. My body is better than yours and I can still resist."
"No, put it on quickly, you look like you've caught a cold."
After putting on her coat, Su Yue reached out and wiped the foggy car window, looked out the window and said, "It doesn't seem to be raining anymore."
"Well, it has been stopped for a long time. Let's wait a little longer and see if the sun will come out."
"Can we go out when the sun comes out?"
"Not necessarily. It depends on whether we can walk the way we came. If we still can't walk, we have to walk back."
Su Yue let out a long breath and said: "I will definitely remember this experience in my heart. I will never be so willful again in the future. I almost hurt you."
"You are too devoted. Why did you come so far just to paint this village?"
Su Yue said in a low voice: "Because of my dad, my dad has always wanted to come back here for a visit, but the doctor wouldn't let him leave the hospital, so I just wanted to draw a picture of the village and take it to the hospital to show my dad."
"Well... then why not just take photos?"
"I think it is a wonderful thing to paint the village with my own hands. Although the photo may be clearer, the painting can be preserved longer."
"You like drawing, right?"
"Well, I've been learning to draw since I was a child."
"No wonder when I saw you that day, I felt that you were very artistic."
Su Yue smiled and then arranged her hair.
I also got off the car and went to find a place to pee, and also to see if we could still walk on the road we came from.
The sun has come out, but the road is still muddy, and we won't be able to wait until it recovers completely.
But it's not raining anymore, so I can give it a try. After all, the performance of this car is still very good.
When I got back to the car, I said to Su Yue: "I just took a look and the road is still very muddy, but I can give it a try. What do you think?"
"I'll listen to you."
"Then let's try it. If it doesn't work, let's come back."
Su Yue nodded, and I immediately started the car.
I didn't dare to drive too fast, and I couldn't hit the brakes at will. After all, this was not a professional off-road vehicle, and it would be dangerous if the tires slipped.
You can only switch from automatic to manual mode, and then use low speed to drive slowly.
Su Yue was still quite nervous, holding onto the armrests with both hands and not daring to look out of the car window.
If I didn't have relatively rich driving experience and the performance of this car was pretty good, I wouldn't dare to take the risk.
I just kept driving at a constant speed and drove for nearly forty minutes. I finally got out of this muddy road and found safety on the concrete road.
Su Yue's tense nerves relaxed and her hands dropped from the armrests.
I smiled and said to her, "Isn't it exciting?"
"It's quite exciting, but your driving skills are pretty good."
"Practice makes perfect when driving. As long as you are an experienced driver for many years, you will be fine."
Chatting all the way, we soon returned to the ancient town.
Su Yue asked me to take her back to her home, and she also invited me to her home for dinner, which happened to be noon.
But I declined and said I would try it next time because I was not feeling well and had a cold.
After saying goodbye to her, I returned to the inn.
As soon as Boss Tang saw me, he asked me: "Brother Chen, were you not at the inn last night? Did you go out to play?"
I smiled bitterly and said, "Ahem, forget it. It rained last night and I was trapped in the mountains."
"What's going on? Why did you go to the mountains?"
"Su Yue, she asked me to help her drive, and then she got stuck."
"So, you stayed with her all night?" Boss Tang asked in surprise.
"Yeah, we even slept in the car together." I said jokingly.
Boss Tang looked at me even more surprised, gave me a thumbs up and said, "Look, I said she is interested in you, right? Brother Chen, you are awesome! Even Miss Su can fall in love with you, take advantage of it."
Yo!"
I knew he would think too much, but I didn't explain that much. I sneezed and said, "No more, you are busy with your business. I will go back and take a hot bath."
After taking a comfortable hot bath, I lay on the bed and prepared to catch up on my sleep. I really didn't sleep well last night.
But just when I was sleeping soundly, I suddenly heard a loud noise coming from downstairs.