Faced with An Lan's forcefulness, I had no choice but to tell her which hospital she was in.
After about half an hour, An Lan hurried to the hospital.
As soon as she saw me, she asked me anxiously: "Why did you catch a cold suddenly?"
When I looked at her delicate makeup, I felt very lethargic at first, but suddenly I became energetic.
I smiled and said to her: "I didn't cover it well at night, and it was bad when I woke up in the morning. But now I'm much better, and my head is not dizzy. Especially when I see you, I feel strong all over."
An Lan rolled her eyes at me and said, "You are still talking nonsense to me, so you have to take care of yourself! The weather is getting colder, so you should pay more attention to keeping warm."
"I know, this is an accident, don't worry."
An Lan sat down on the chair next to him, and then said to me: "You can go to my place tonight. If you go back alone, no one will take care of you. At least I still have your mother here."
I smiled and said, "If you want me to go, just say so. I have to involve my mother."
An Lan was very embarrassed. Every time she was embarrassed, she would make a small move, which was to lift her hair, and it looked very unnatural.
I knew she was embarrassed, so I didn't continue to make fun of her. Instead, I said to her: "Create an account for me on Douyin."
"now?"
"Yes, right now, I want to see how many fans I have."
"Give me your phone."
I took out my phone and handed it to An Lan. After she clicked on the screen a few times, she asked me: "What name should I change?"
"Just don't use my real name."
"Nonsense, there are a few people here with their real names."
So An Lan and I thought about the name of Douyin together. After thinking about it for a long time, we finally decided to call it "Outdoor Afeng".
This name is simple and easy to remember, and is easier to remember than those unrealistic and fancy names.
After creating the account, An Lan said to me: "If you really want to take this path, then I will help you divert traffic later, including your personal profile. I will help you change it."
"Then I'll just sit back and wait to become a big internet celebrity." I said half-jokingly.
An Lan asked me with doubts: "Didn't you reject this profession at first? How come you suddenly figured it out?"
I smiled lightly and said seriously: "Life requires constant positioning and challenges. I think I am still young and I should do something I like."
"Isn't writing programs what you like?"
I smiled bitterly and said, "To be honest, it's not really that. It's just for living. What I really want to do is to become an adventurer."
An Lan looked at me, smiled, and said, "It's great. I can pursue what I want to do, but I'm still tied to the fate of my family."
I know An Lan also has something he likes to do, which is photography.
But now she is burdened with many responsibilities, and she has to give up her hobbies and devote herself to the ups and downs of the shopping mall.
I reached out and gently grabbed her little hand, smiled and said to her: "One day we will all do what we want to do. At that time, I will drive you in the car, you will carry the camera, and we will travel all over the motherland.
Great rivers and mountains.”
"It's quite beautiful."
"This is the life I want most." I said seriously.
An Lan smiled again and said, "But your mother didn't think so. She chatted with me and said that she wanted to see her grandson before she died, and that she hoped you could settle down as soon as possible."
I was shocked and said, "She is talking to you about this?"
"Well, we talked about these things while chatting..." After a slight pause, An Lan added, "Actually, your mother really loves you. She would rather feel a little wronged herself than let you live a good life."
My nose suddenly felt a little sour. After being silent for a while, I said: "My mother is such a person. She has never had a good life in her life. Even when I was very rich, she was always ignored.
Wei bullied her... Time flies so fast, and in the blink of an eye she is fifty-five."
An Lan also looked a little sad and sighed: "Yes! Time is a ruthless thing. In the blink of an eye, I am almost thirty."
"You were born in 1990, right?"
An Lan nodded, and I nodded and replied, "That's soon. You'll be 30 in two years."
An Lan paused and suddenly asked me again: "Have you ever heard of a song by Zhao Lei?"
"I have listened to most of his songs. Which one are you talking about?"
""The Thirty-Year-Old Woman"."
I immediately laughed and said, "Of course I have heard of it, do you still like this tune?"
"I didn't like it before, until I accidentally heard this song once, and I suddenly fell in love with it."
"You can sing, do you want to listen?"
An Lan turned around and looked around, and asked in surprise: "Are you here?"
"I sing quietly so it won't affect others."
After hesitating for a moment, An Lan said, "Let's forget it. Singing here isn't very good."
I respected her intention, then smiled and asked her: "Other women think age is a very secret thing, but I don't think you want to hide yourself deliberately."
"What is there to hide? A person's age is like red wine. The older it is, the better it tastes. The more experience it has, the more intellectual it becomes. Age is not just a number. To me, it is every stage of development."
I listened carefully and looked at her like this. I felt that I could stay silent forever.
I didn't say anything, thinking about An Lan's words quietly in my heart.
Life is just like this. There is no need to worry about age, because every age group will have different stories. Whether it is a good story or a bad story, it is a great experience.
"Yangyang, go out and buy a roll of paper towels for your mother, and the remaining money will buy you snacks."
A family member of a clinical patient is admonishing his child.
Hearing the sound, I turned my head away and stared at the back of the child as he walked out, my eyes filled with confusion.
That child was probably not much older than Panpan, but he was so obedient and sensible.
Although Panpan is not my biological son, I have lived with him for so long after all.
As the saying goes: even a pet has feelings, let alone a human being.
At that moment, I suddenly thought that the child was innocent, he was just born at a time when he shouldn't have been born.
An Lan saw me staring blankly at the child who had just gone out, and then she asked me: "Do you feel uncomfortable seeing other people's children being so sensible?"
"A little bit," I came back to my senses and said with a wry smile, "I thought I would go out to work when I was 23 years old, and now I have passed my thirties in the blink of an eye. I have been married and have children, but everything is like It’s like having a dream…”
"Do you regret it?"
"What?"
"Do you regret meeting Xiao Wei?"
"I regret it, but as you just said, this is an experience. I only blame myself for being unkind to others."
An Lan was silent for a while and said to me: "Go and see Panpan when you have time. After all, you have raised him for so many years."
"I don't know what happened to him."
I nodded and said no more.
I don’t want to think about it so much anymore, because there are always too many things in life that we don’t expect.
Life will never give us the same pain, because if it hurts you repeatedly, the wound will gradually get used to it and the feeling will gradually become numb.
Just like what happened to Xiao Wei, I am not as painful as before.
I'm even very grateful to her, for giving me such an experience and giving me something to remember when I grow old.?