When I returned to my residence, Cai Xinman had already left. I asked my mother when she left, and my mother told me that she left not long after I left.
Actually, I wanted to know whether Cai Xinman told my mother about An Lan. Fortunately, she didn't say anything and my mother didn't know yet.
After sitting on a wooden bench in the yard for a while, I washed my face with cold water by the pool.
I seemed to wake up a little, and there seemed to be a force pulling me back to a normal person and doing normal things.
I know I should be more sober. This matter may not be that simple. An Lan's danger may not be an accident.
But no matter what, she is really dead, I have to force myself to accept this, because I saw her fall into the sea with my own eyes.
The situation at that time was absolutely impossible to survive.
Now I just want to figure out whether all this is thought or an accident. I have to keep my head clear.
But even so, when I am alone at night, it still hurts my heart.
Because when the sunlight disappears, I will see nothing in the dark, only myself.
In the darkness, I thought of the scene before An Lan's accident. I seemed to still hear her saying: Let go! We'll see you in the next life.
I found that I really couldn't be alone, it was too uncomfortable, and I was driven crazy by the discomfort.
I went to take a shower, put on some clothes and said to my mother: "Mom, I'm going for a walk, don't wait for me to eat."
"It's so late, where are you going? You're going out after dinner!"
"No, I'll go find my friend for a drink. You can eat without waiting for me to come back."
After my mother said "be careful", I took my coat and went out.
I feel like my mother has realized something, but she doesn't say it, and I don't know how to tell her.
I was walking confusedly on a street full of neon lights. I suddenly had no direction, but I only had one thought, which was to get drunk.
So I thought of Huang Li's bar, which might be a good place.
Because I knew I was going to drink, I didn't drive and took a taxi directly to Ninth Street.
It's half past nine in the evening, and the nightlife in the bar has just begun.
As soon as I arrived at the bar, I saw Huang Li. She always dressed so sexy and had wavy golden hair hanging around her body. She looked very attractive.
But I wasn't in the mood to admire her at the moment, so I walked straight to the bar and said to the bartender: "Make me the strongest drink."
Huang Li was next to me. She heard my voice and looked towards me.
"Hey! Who did I think it was? It turned out to be Boss Chen!" She joked to me out of habit.
I was not in the mood to joke with her, so I lit up a cigarette and started smoking.
"You seem to be in a bad mood?" She twisted her waist and came to me, and sat down on the high chair next to me.
"Sister Li, I want to be alone for a while." I finally said to her.
Huang Li was stunned for a moment, then shrugged and said, "Okay, tonight's consumption is mine."
The bartender had already mixed the wine for me, handed it to me and said, "Brother, the stamina of this wine is really strong, so be careful."
I brought it over and took a big sip. I just came here to get drunk. Why should I be afraid of getting drunk?
When Huang Li saw this, she asked me again: "What's going on? Chat with me."
"It's nothing, I just want to drink."
"No, you are very wrong today. If you don't tell me what's going on, then you know what the consequences will be!" As she said that, she snatched the wine glass in front of me.
I looked at her helplessly and said, "Sister Li, I just want to get drunk, can you help me?"
"There must be a reason, right? Broken love or something?"
"I don't want to say it, so don't ask."
Huang Li looked at me for a moment, then suddenly approached me and said, "Can I drink with you?"
"casual."
Immediately afterwards, Huang Li asked the bartender to give her a glass of the same drink as me. The wine tasted quite strange. It was a bit sweet and bitter in the mouth, and after swallowing it, there was a slight aftertaste, and after a while, there was a sweet feeling again.
"What have you been doing these past few days? Why did you suddenly become so depressed? Did you encounter anything unhappy again?" Huang Li asked me again.
"Sister Li, I said I don't want to talk about this. If you are willing to drink with me here, then I welcome you, but I don't want to talk about these things."
"What if I have to ask?" she said forcefully.
I looked at her helplessly, and Huang Li chuckled again and said, "Okay, I won't scare you anymore. See how scared the child is. Drink it. I'll be responsible for sending you back when you're drunk."
I touched her for a moment, and then fell into a trance again. I just stared at the flashing neon lights in the hall.
Gradually, everything starts to become blurry...
Suddenly, An Lan's graceful figure appeared in my hallucination again.
I wanted this hallucination to stay in my consciousness for a longer time, but I knew I would eventually wake up, and at the moment I woke up, I actually saw a figure that looked very similar to An Lan's back.
I was stunned for a moment. This back view was so similar.
At that moment, my heart seemed to be on fire.
I rushed towards the dance floor desperately, I hoped it was her, I really needed it, needed a miracle!
It doesn't matter why she appears here, as long as it is really her.
Rushing to the middle of the dance floor, I ran toward the figure whose back was similar to An Lan's, and then pulled her body over.
The moment I saw her face, I was immediately disappointed because I had finally recognized the wrong person.
But the figure from the back looks so much like her, I think I am too close to her, so I don’t want to miss even a small opportunity.
When I was stunned, the lady I turned over looked at me strangely and said, "What are you doing?"
Before I had time to let go, a man rushed over from the side, shook my hand off the woman's body, and then yelled at me: "Who the hell are you? Take your hand away from me!"
I looked at the two of them numbly, and suddenly a surge of anger rushed to my forehead, and then I said to the man: "Try to curse again!"
"What's wrong with scolding you? You dare to touch my woman, go find out who I am."
"It's your mother!" I yelled, then punched him in the cheek.
This punch knocked the man staggering a few steps, and soon everyone around him stopped and looked towards us.
After the man stabilized his body, he immediately picked up a beer bottle next to him and hurried towards me.
I didn't hide at all. Just when he was about to rush in front of me, Huang Li suddenly appeared behind me and shouted: "Stop!"
"Sister Li." The man stopped and looked at Huang Li who was standing behind me.
"Let's forget about it. I'll waive your expenses tonight."
"Sister Li, who are you, this boy?"
"It's none of your business. Okay, everyone is leaving..." Huang Li settled the matter in just a few words.
She turned back to glare at me and cursed: "Stop making trouble for me here, come with me."
Huang Li took me to a room on the second floor, where it was much quieter.
"Tell me, what's going on? If you don't tell me something today, you won't be able to get out of here."
She sat on the leather sofa in front of me with her legs crossed, holding a lady's cigarette in her hand and looking at me coldly.?