After dinner, we sent Yoona back to the apartment, and I planned to go back to the rental place, but Sun Xiaojie followed me all the way.
No matter what I said, it was of no use. I even locked her at the door and she refused to leave.
I thought I would go back when she had enough trouble, but I underestimated her persistence.
An hour passed and she was still guarding my door.
I didn't dare to open the door, so I said to her through the door in a very angry tone: "Are you bothered? Can you give me some private space?"
"You come back with me, and I will give you whatever space you want."
"Aren't you just afraid that I won't be able to think about committing suicide? I can responsibly tell you that it's impossible. I haven't lived enough."
"I don't care, I don't believe anything you say now unless you come with me."
I sighed heavily: "You can do whatever you want! I'm going to sleep."
Who would have thought that as soon as I turned around, I heard crying coming from outside the door. When I looked outside through the peephole, she really started crying and looked very aggrieved.
I still didn't plan to pay attention to her, because I knew this was her little trick.
But not long after, a woman's voice came from the door: "Girl, what's wrong with you? Did you not bring the key?"
"My boyfriend locked me out and wouldn't open the door for me."
As soon as I heard Sun Xiaoxiao's answer, I felt stupid at the time. I forgot that this girl was a born actress.
Then the woman's voice came from outside the door: "What's going on? Did the young couple quarrel?"
"Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuu" Sun Xiaojie was still crying.
A moment later there was a knock on the door, and the woman's voice: "Young man, please open the door! A quarrel is a quarrel, don't lock the girl out alone! What are you talking about!"
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I was really about to collapse. I opened the door, looked at Sun Xiaoxiao angrily, and said, "Have you had enough trouble?"
When he saw me coming out, Sun Xiaoxiao still curled his lips and looked very aggrieved.
The woman next to me was probably in her fifties. When he saw me opening the door, he said to me: "Young man, it's normal for a couple to quarrel. My old man and I also quarrel often, but we don't lock girls out like you."
Ah! How dangerous it is at night!"
Sun Xiaojie echoed: "That's right, how dangerous it is!"
I was speechless and said: "Sister, first of all, let me make it clear that she is not my girlfriend, and I am not her boyfriend."
The eldest sister was stunned for a moment and looked at Sun Xiaoxiao.
But Sun Xiaojie cried and said: "My dear, please don't do this. I'm wrong. Can't you let me in? It's cold outside."
The eldest sister sighed again: "Young man, if you have anything to say, it's not nice to make such a fuss!"
I was really fed up, so I had to drag Sun Xiaojie in.
Just as he was about to close the door, the eldest sister reminded him again: "Young man, please speak up and don't do anything. Domestic violence is against the law."
After saying that, she said to Sun Xiaojie: "Girl, I live next door. If you need anything, just call me."
"Okay, thank you, eldest sister." She was quite polite.
After I closed the door, Sun Xiaojie stopped crying and kept giggling at me.
I raised my hand as if to give her a slap, but then put it down helplessly and said helplessly: "Sun Xiaojie, I beg you to stop. If you do this again, believe it or not, I will die for you right now.
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"Don't be like this, isn't it good to live like this?"
"You're crushing me, you know that?"
"I just want you to go back with me. Is this difficult?"
"I told you clearly that I need private space, why are you forcing me like this?"
Sun Xiaojie suddenly stopped talking, and his expression slowly became calmer when he looked at me.
After a long while, she said again: "When you think others are forcing you, you are actually forcing others."
I didn't reply anymore and lit up a cigarette and smoked it hard.
In silence, Sun Xiaojie said again: "If one day you really find a woman to live peacefully, I will naturally not come to pester you, because that will prove that you have completely emerged from the shadows."
I smiled speechlessly and said, "What does it have to do with you whether I leave or not? Are you my mother? You take care of me like this."
"If you think I am your mother, I can do that."
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"How about you beat me up and make me hate you, so I won't advise you anymore."
"Don't think I dare not hit women."
"I know you dare, so go ahead and hit me. I promise not to fight back."
I waited for her with red eyes, and said through gritted teeth: "Sun Xiaojie, I'm warning you again, don't bother me again, otherwise I can really do anything."
"Then why do you want to refuse but still welcome?"
"When did I welcome you even though I wanted to reject you?"
"A lot of the time."
I sneered and said: "I think you are a person who speaks without thinking. When the hell have I resisted your desire and welcomed you?"
"I know that you can't be more serious about me. You didn't even react when I stood in front of you in my underwear. I also know your purpose of coming to Chengdu. You are just for money."
"Yes, I just do it for money. Don't talk to me about dreams. I just want to make money now."
Sun Xiaojie suddenly fell silent and stood there for a while, then asked me again: "Are you sure you don't want to come with me?"
"Sure and sure." I said without hesitation.
"Okay, then I won't advise you anymore. I have no other intention. I just hope you can live a better life."
"I'm fine, don't worry."
"Well, then I'm leaving."
"Go slowly, don't send me away."
I just stood there and watched Sun Xiaoxiao's leaving figure. I couldn't say that I had any special emotions. I just felt that she was quite annoying. The level of annoying her was no less than that of Liang Jing.
I was really drunk. Liang Jing left, and now Sun Xiaojie came.
The difference is that this woman Liang Jing is so sophisticated, many times I would jump into the pit she dug for me.
Sun Xiaojie, on the other hand, is a bit silly and sweet. She doesn't have any tricks for me, except for the three tricks that women usually use: cry, make trouble, and hang herself.
But these tricks didn't work on me. I knew she wanted to be good to me, and I didn't want to get too close to her.
I believe in a saying: Even if we are under the same roof, even if we don’t have feelings, over time, we will develop feelings.
After washing, I lay on the bed, but I still couldn't find the state of sleep.
I obviously didn't think about anything, but I just felt inexplicably irritated, then inexplicably sad, and felt that life was no fun.
This was depression that was persecuting me again. I had to sit up from the bed and tried to smoke two cigarettes to relieve myself, but no matter how many cigarettes I smoked or how many sheep I counted, it didn't help.
I don't know what happened. I just moved out from Sun Xiaojie's place and it became like this.
On the contrary, when I stayed at her place, I felt less miserable.
And now, it's like I'm the only one left facing my own demons
After thinking about it, I seem to have figured out why Sun Xiaoxiao insisted on letting me live at her place. She seems to understand depression better than anyone else.?