Seeing this scene, I swallowed subconsciously and quickly averted my gaze.
I didn't dare to look at her anymore, for fear of losing control.
After a while, I stood up and prepared to leave.
But at this moment, An Lan turned over again, this time his posture was even more provocative.
I bit my lips, afraid that I would make a sound.
I started to feel dizzy, and my Adam's apple was rising and falling as I swallowed.
You know, I haven't had contact with the opposite sex for a long time. I haven't touched Xiao Wei since she cheated on her. Even before, she rarely touched me.
I wanted to leave An Lan's bedroom, but my legs seemed to be out of control.
It seemed like it would be a shame if I left like this.
"No, no, I just divorced Xiao Wei. If I just get involved with another woman, what's the big deal?"
I kept telling myself to calm down.
After taking a deep breath, the impulse in my heart finally calmed down a bit.
I thought it was time for me to leave, so I bent down to pull up the quilt to cover her.
But the quilt was held down by one of her legs, so I had to gently move her leg away.
Just when I opened the quilt and was about to cover her body, she turned over to face me, reached out and grabbed my arm, and pulled hard.
Her pull was very strong, and she pulled me down onto her big bed without any defense.
At the same time, her face came closer...
My blood was stirred up by her again. Anyway, now I am alone and she is just a voluptuous drunk woman. What else do I have to worry about?
If I continue to restrain myself from such sexual bliss, will I still be considered a man?
Just when I was about to take action, she suddenly twisted her neck, allowing me to see her face with a painful expression covered by black hair.
And those two lines of tears running down my cheeks...
My hands suddenly froze, and so did my body.
Why is she crying? And her face is full of pain?
If I continue to ask for it at this time, will I be taking advantage of others' danger?
I suddenly felt compassion. Although I wanted her very much at this moment, I no longer felt that way.
After letting go of her, I pulled the quilt and covered her.
Then he got out of bed and sat down on the ground along the edge of the bed again...
I didn't dare to look at her again, so I took out the cigarette from my trouser pocket, lit it with shaking hands, and took a few puffs.
Only then did the mental and physical mania slowly subside, and the energy and blood gradually dropped.
Later, I fell asleep for some reason.
I also had a very strange dream. In the dream, An Lan seemed to be a different person, crazy and proactive.
When I woke up the next day, I was still asleep on the floor.
When Mu Ran looked up, I found An Lan sitting on the bed, holding his chin with his hands and looking at me.
I don’t know how long she has been awake and how long she has been looking at me like this.
It wasn't until I turned to her that she changed her gaze, smiled at me and said, "Are you awake?"
I quickly stood up from the ground, and before I could say anything, An Lan spoke again: "I was shocked when I woke up just now, but when I took a closer look, it turned out to be you, but why are you at my house?"
I looked at An Lan blankly and said, "Have you forgotten all about it?"
An Lan fell silent, seeming to be recalling, and then said after a while: "I really can't remember, what's going on?"
So I told her everything that happened last night. After hearing this, An Lan's face suddenly turned red and she looked very shy.
After a while, she said to me: "Thank you! I just made you laugh."
I smiled, waved my hand and said, "It's okay, but you know you can't drink, so why do you drink?"
"I don't know, I just want to experience it, but I really rarely drink. Even if I drink, it's red wine."
I nodded and said, "I don't know what happened, so I just fell asleep in your bedroom. I'm really sorry."
An Lan smiled at me again, then got off the bed and said, "Did you sleep well? If not, go to bed. I have to go to work."
I quickly shook my head and said, "No, I'm already awake."
An Lan nodded again and asked me to be casual, then went to wash up.
She really didn't treat me like an outsider. After she washed up, I took her car and left her house together.
Then I asked her to drop me off at the nearest subway station. When I got off the bus, she encouraged me to stick to my thoughts and never give up.
I nodded solemnly, and after seeing her off, I took the subway back home.
In the past few days after my divorce from Xiao Wei, I honestly didn't feel anything at all.
It's not that the relationship I had for so many years was fake, but I was so hurt by her that I was so numb that I couldn't even feel the pain.
But now, when I stood in front of this empty home, I suddenly collapsed.
Really, I have never been so desperate in my life.
It is said that men reach their thirties. Other men at this age are wealthy and have happy families, but what about me?
He was penniless, his wife and children were separated.
Nothing is left...
I squatted on the ground at the door, held my head in my hands and cried until my voice became hoarse and my tears ran dry.
Finally, I swore to myself that I didn’t need Xiao Wei, but I would definitely fight for the child back in the future.
And Wang Hao, I won’t let him go, I want him to experience my current situation, ten times the pain!
I had no energy for the whole day, so I sat on the sofa and kept smoking, which eventually filled the room with the smell of cigarette smoke.
Suddenly, Xiao Wei's voice came from the door: "Why are you smoking at home again? How many times have I told you? Why don't you listen..."
Hearing Xiao Wei's voice, I suddenly turned my head and looked towards the door.
But the door was empty, and there was no sign of Xiao Wei at all. The words just now were just a figment of my imagination.
I suddenly felt lost.
Yes, I really want to hear Xiao Wei say something like that now.
Maybe I'm just a bitch, even though I know the person she loves is not me, I still miss her.
As I thought about it, my heart hurt as if it had been pricked by a needle.
When you recall the glory of the past, it is like a fleeting moment, like passing clouds, like a revolving lantern...
My mother called me around afternoon and asked me how I was doing.
I didn't want my mother to know what happened to me recently, so I lied to her and said it was fine and I was going to start a new company.
Then my mother asked me if I had enough money and if it was not enough, she would have some left over and would go to the town post office to transfer it to me later.
When I heard these words from my mother, my heart was broken.
My mother is such a person. Although she is not perfect, she is the best mother in the world in my eyes.
Even when I was rich in the past, she always left everything good to me.
I still remember that when Xiao Wei gave birth to her son who was in confinement, I originally wanted to find a confinement nanny who would specialize in taking care of confinement, but my mother said that it was better for my own family to take care of this kind of thing and leave it to an outsider. She was worried.
During that time, she was very busy, pouring tea and water for Xiao Wei, washing our family's clothes, and changing diapers for the child. She didn't have a good night's sleep for half a year.
But Xiao Wei has never recognized my mother. She always thinks that my mother is dirty. Even her son now thinks that my mother is smelly and doesn't want to be near grandma.
This is the good son she taught Xiao Wei. It’s also my fault that I was too busy during that time. I really wish I could grow three heads and six arms.
I feel sorry for my mother, she trusts Xiao Wei so much and treats her as her own daughter.