When I heard Sun Xiaojie say that she was serious, I just took a puff of the cigarette and suddenly choked and coughed.
"You're not that serious, are you? Do you have such a big reaction?" Sun Xiaojie looked at me with disdain.
I was still coughing violently and tears came out of my eyes.
Upon seeing this, Sun Xiaojie hurriedly ran to bring me a glass of water and said, "Come on, come on, drink some water, drink some water."
After drinking the water, I felt better. Then I looked at Sun Xiaoxiao in confusion and said, "Is what you just said true?"
"real."
"Aren't you kidding?"
"No kidding."
I fell silent again, this was a difficult decision for me.
I don't think clearly about whether to fall in love again. I also want to forget An Lan as soon as possible. I also know that I need to start a new relationship.
But for Sun Xiaojie, I really don’t mean anything in that regard. This will not only harm her, but also myself.
Fortunately, I was more sensible and said to her: "You better stop making such international jokes with me, it's too scary!"
"Chen Feng, look into my eyes, do you really have no feelings for me at all?"
I stared into her eyes and nodded heavily, but before I could speak, Sun Xiaoxiao's mouth moved towards me.
Unprepared, I was kissed by her, my body froze immediately, and my breathing seemed to stop at that moment.
I just reacted and was about to push her away, but she hugged me tighter.
The softness from the tip of my tongue immediately made my whole body feel weak
At that moment, I was really confused and my mind went blank.
I was still resisting at first, but gradually I stopped resisting. I began to respond enthusiastically, and began to vent the primitive desires in my heart that had been suppressed for a long time.
A kiss has no concept of time, because once you kiss, time will stop and everything will become out of control.
I don't know how long it took before Sun Xiaoxiao let go of his mouth, raised his chin to my face, looked into my eyes, and gasped excitedly.
"Don't refuse me, okay?"
I gradually regained consciousness, looked at her awkwardly and said, "What are you doing?"
Before I could say anything further, she kissed me again.
This time I didn't push her away. I really felt it and couldn't help but hug her waist.
I haven't kissed for a long time. Since An Lan left, my life has become a mess and I have become depressed.
Speaking of which, it was Sun Xiaojie who helped me get out of this depressed mood. She has been patiently enlightening me.
It can be said that without her, I don’t know what I would be like now. Maybe I would have committed suicide because I couldn’t figure it out.
So at this moment, I stopped struggling and began to enjoy the process and the beauty she brought to me.
So we kissed one after another, and I hugged her tighter, even a little violently.
But Sun Xiaojie didn't say anything, and responded to me very enthusiastically.
The door of my desire was completely opened at this moment. I pressed her on the bed and slid my hand along her belly into her skirt.
Then I indulged in that smooth and flawless feeling and couldn't extricate myself.
The moment I was about to take off her underwear, Sun Xiaojie suddenly spoke: "Chen Feng, do you love me?"
My hands suddenly froze again, and I asked myself, do I love her?
But Sun Xiaojie smiled at me and said, "It's okay, I don't mind, you can continue!"
I stopped, quickly took my hands back from her clothes, and then quickly left her body.
Sitting on the edge of the bed, I lit a cigarette with trembling hands. I didn't dare to look at her.
I don't know what kind of eyes she is looking at me at this moment. In short, I have no face to face her.
She is my friend and even my boss. How can I be with her?
At this moment, I really want to give myself a big mouthful, as if to wake myself up.
I kept smoking and gradually calmed myself down.
Finally, Sun Xiaojie spoke: "It's okay, don't mind, I don't mind either."
I still didn't dare to look at her. After blowing out the cigarette from my mouth, I murmured: "I'm sorry! I"
"Stop talking, I don't blame you, I'm going to bed, good night"
After saying that, she got off my bed and ran out of my room quickly.
After hearing the sound of the door closing, I took a deep breath and gave myself a big mouthful.
What have I done? Why can't I control myself?
I think I really need to vent, so I didn't control myself just now.
Fortunately, I didn't get too involved, otherwise it would have been out of control.
In fact, I know that Sun Xiaoxiao means something to me. She told me face to face a long time ago.
But I just can't do it. To put it bluntly, I just can't forget An Lan.
After lying back on the bed, I picked up my phone and sent a message to Sun Xiaojie to say I was sorry.
But after editing the text message, I didn’t have the courage to send it out.
My mind is in chaos at the moment. I also want to start a new relationship, but I don't know why, I can't do it.
Maybe I don't want to hurt Sun Xiaoxiao. She is sincere to me, but I don't love her.
If you don't love someone, don't hurt them. If you don't start, there will be no pain.
After thinking about it this way, I felt much more comfortable, at least it wasn't to the point of getting out of hand.
After today, we are still good friends and she is still my boss.
I am still me.
After the sound of firecrackers outside gradually quieted down, I finally fell asleep peacefully.
I was woken up by the sound of firecrackers early the next morning. It is a custom in our hometown to set off firecrackers during breakfast on the first morning of the Lunar New Year.
I was woken up by the deafening sound of firecrackers. I usually smoked a cigarette after getting up to refresh myself, then put on my clothes and went downstairs.
My mother is cooking glutinous rice balls in the kitchen. Eating glutinous rice balls on the morning of the first day of the new year has become a custom in our hometown.
I also went to the stove to help my mother light the fire, and she made glutinous rice balls. The strong smell of fireworks instantly brought back my memories.
My mother said to me: "Afeng, don't mind what my mother said to you last night, I don't mean anything else."
"I know Mom, why would I mind? I know you also want me to start a family as soon as possible, and I'm looking at you rushing to sixty, but I haven't been able to let you have a grandson."
My mother was making glutinous rice balls and said, "It's okay. I used to be very anxious, but now I know it's not easy for you, so I'm not anxious anymore."
I smiled, paused, and then asked my mother in a subtle way: "Mom, what do you think of Sun Xiaoxiao?"
My mother looked at me first and then said, "You are not really together, are you?"
I shook my head and said with a smile: "No, I just want to hear your thoughts."
If it were before, my mother would definitely support me and Sun Xiaojie being together, and she would approve with both hands.
But now, she hesitates again, which makes me feel that there is something wrong with my mother!
After a long while, my mother finally said to me: "I feel that the age difference between you is too big, and that girl is not suitable for you."
I didn't speak any more, but when I turned around unconsciously, I found Sun Xiaojie standing at the door of the kitchen house.