My mother is really old. Her waist is already more bent than the last time I saw her. She doesn't look as energetic as before, and her hair is almost completely white.
My mother was already twenty-seven when she gave birth to me, so I am thirty-one this year, but my mother is already fifty-eight.
Coupled with the fact that she has been farming in the countryside all year round and has worked hard for most of her life, she looks like she is in her sixties.
At that moment, I saw the meat in my mother's hand, and my nose started to feel sour.
Over the years, I have only focused on working hard outside, but neglected my mother's body.
She is getting worse day by day, and maybe the time I can see her will become less and less day by day. This time I will take my mother with me no matter what, and won't let her be alone at home.
I hurriedly walked up to my mother, took the shopping bag from her hand, and said, "Mom, why are you going to the town to buy meat? You should tell me, I have to pass by the town anyway.
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My mother smiled and said to me: "It's useless to tell you. You don't know the meat seller, and he will give you bad meat."
My mother is always like this. I am always just a child in her eyes. She thinks I can't handle anything, so I just follow her.
With her here, no matter how old I am, I am still a child, and I think this is good.
Only then did my mother notice Xia Xia, so she asked me again: "Xiao Feng, who is this girl?"
"Mom, this is a friend of mine. Her name is Xia Tian. She comes from Yunnan."
After a short pause, I added: "It's a coincidence that the dog I picked up was lost in the summer, so I took her to make sure."
My mother was also a little surprised and said hurriedly: "Then come and sit in the house. Girl, please sit in the house."
My mother said, and hurriedly took out the key and walked to the door.
After opening the door, I called Xia Xia, and she came into the house with Diudiu.
My mother hurriedly found a stool and some oranges for Xia Tian.
My mother is so enthusiastic. I remember when I brought Sun Xiaojie back during the Spring Festival, my mother was not so enthusiastic.
Maybe at that time, my mother felt that Sun Xiaoxiao was not a good person. I have to say that my mother was pretty good at judging people. Even when Xiao Wei and I got married, she told me several times to let me think about it carefully.
It's true that I didn't consider it well, but I also have to thank Xiao Wei. If it weren't for her, I wouldn't have had the chance to meet An Lan.
Faced with my mother's enthusiasm, Xia Tian could only keep smiling.
My mother seems to think it's a little strange. She didn't hear Xia Tian say a word when the yard was in the house just now.
So I explained to my mother: "Mom, she can't speak in summer, but she can hear."
Only then did my mother understand. After we chatted for a while, my mother was ready to get food.
I stopped my mother and said, "Mom, just rest and I'll do it."
"Wood-burner, don't get your clothes dirty."
"It's just dirty, it's no big deal. Mom, just rest."
My mother still followed up in the kitchen and offered to help me, but I really couldn't resist her.
While we were doing it and chatting, my mother asked me: "Xiaofeng, is Lanlan very busy recently? She called me the day before yesterday and said that she was abroad and would take some time to come back."
"Well, she went abroad."
My mother sighed again and said, "Why is a girl like her so busy with so many things? Can you help?"
"I" I paused for a moment before saying, "Mom, I really don't understand the things she did."
"But that child is suffering. I don't know when she will be able to handle those things."
"Soon, we have to believe her."
After finishing speaking, I stopped and said smoothly: "By the way, Mom, you can come with me tomorrow."
"Where are we going with you?"
“Chengdu.”
"I'm not going."
"You have to go even if you don't want to. Now I can't worry about leaving you alone at home."
But my mother still persisted and said: "I have been here alone for so long, what should I worry about?"
"Look at your body, it's getting worse day by day. How dare I leave you at home alone?"
"I said I'll be fine if I'm fine. I'm eating and sleeping well now, and I'm just looking forward to when I can have my eldest grandson. Then I can go wherever you want me to."
"Mom, aren't you being arrogant?"
"I'm telling the truth. Why do you think I should go to Chengdu with you? Do you have a home there?"
I suddenly couldn't answer. Indeed, I am still living at Ye Shanshan's place.
After a moment of silence, I added, "If you go, I will rent a bigger house."
"The house you rent always belongs to someone else. I am accustomed to living in this old house and the neighbors are familiar with it. I will not go with you."
This reminds me of how I persuaded my mother to live in the city with me, but she was unwilling to do so anyway. In the end, I had to spend some money to renovate the house in my hometown.
But at that time, I could rest assured that she was not old, but now I am really worried.
In my silence, my mother said to me again: "Xiaofeng, Mom knows that you are very filial, but you have no fixed place to live now. If you ask me to go with you, I might as well live comfortably at home.
One day you and Lanlan get married, and if you ask me to go again, I will definitely go."
I knew I couldn't persuade my mother anymore, and what she said was right. I don't have a fixed place to live now, so asking her to come with me would be a hardship.
Suddenly, I felt like a failure. I was in my thirties, not married, and didn’t even own a house.
At that moment, I hated myself in my heart and hated myself for being powerless.
At the same time, it also gave me a warning. I will have to work harder in the days to come, so that An Lan will not be so tired, so that my mother can enjoy her old age, and buy a big house so that the family can be happy.
I really want to have that kind of life, and I don’t want to look at other people’s lights to fulfill my loneliness like now.
After a very long silence, I finally said to my mother: "It's agreed that after I buy a house and after An Lan and I get married, you must move in with us."
"Well, I wish I could."
"By the way, Mom, I heard from An Lan that you found a letter when you were cleaning the room where Liang Jing lives. Is it true?"
My mother nodded and asked me again: "Where has this child Liang Jing gone? Why has there been no news from her for so long?"
"She," I said after a moment of silence, "she went back to her own home."
"Oh, where does she live?"
"A small county in Hunan."
My mother nodded and sighed, "This girl is very nice. When she was at our house, once she saw me doing something, she would rush to do it."
The more my mother said this, the more uncomfortable I felt. I couldn't accept the fact that Liang Jing left. I really couldn't accept it.
In my silence, my mother left the kitchen. After a while, she returned to the kitchen with an envelope.
"This is what I found under her pillow when I was cleaning her room that day."
I took the envelope over. It was very light, but it felt extremely heavy.
There are three words written on the envelope: "To Chen Feng". I hope she can explain all this to me in this letter.