The next day, Shen Wangjin took time out and took Zhuang Yibo on a plane to Tongcheng.
After coming to London, she became much more lively, but since yesterday, she has become silent again. Most of the time, she just stays quietly, not knowing what she is thinking.
It was night, and most people on the plane were asleep and it was very quiet. Shen Wangjin asked the flight attendant to lower her seat and make a bed for her to have a good rest, while she sat next to her and read the documents.
I don't know how long it took, but when he finally put down the tablet in his hand and turned to look at her, he saw her lying there quietly, her eyes bright in the dim light, and he didn't know she was staring at him.
How long have you been watching?
Shen Wangjin couldn't help but move in his mind, and then he stretched out his hand to hold her hand outside the quilt, "Can't sleep?"
Zhuang Yibo was silent for a long time before finally speaking: "Have I ever told you that although I have always been afraid of my mother, I used to love her very much."
Shen Wangjin looked at her quietly and listened without saying anything to disturb her.
"Because I feel that all the harshness my mother treats me is for my own good. She wants me to practice piano, dance, and learn this and that, all to cultivate my talent. It's because I didn't do well enough and didn't meet my mother's requirements.
, so I got severe treatment from my mother... So I can only keep asking myself to do better and be better... But no matter how well I do, my mother still seems to be like that... I often see other classmates
My mother was very caring about them, chatting and laughing with them. I also hoped that my relationship with her could be that close, so I tried to get close to her, but she was pushed away impatiently every time... Later I thought,
Because I killed my sister, I caused her to lose the only daughter she liked, so she had to raise me like a sister, but she really couldn't like me, so she did this... So I can only
Work harder, try to do everything my sister can do, and give them back the daughter I caused them to lose..."
Having said this, Zhuang Yibo paused for a long time, buried his face in the pillow for a moment, and then slowly spoke: "But later I realized that it was not me who killed my sister..."
She never told him this. Even when she severed ties with the banker, she just said to him, "I don't have parents anymore." Shen Wangjin never knew that there were these reasons.
"It was because my father had another woman outside and my mother quarreled with him, so the car accident happened... But they chose to blame me... Yes, it's better to blame an ignorant little girl than to blame yourself.
It’s much easier to bear... Just by being weird like this, they probably all took it seriously, and this matter became a carrot hanging in front of my eyes. I can only watch the carrot spinning in circles, and keep spinning..."
"I have hated them, I really have...did they bring me into this world just to use me..." Zhuang Yibo said, "No amount of childbearing or nurturing grace can compare to their treatment of me.
deceived and tortured...so I decided to treat them as strangers and never have anything to do with them again..."
"But it turns out that I still haven't completely let go..." She said in a low voice, "That's why I would be so desperate when my father gave me the injection, so I would still feel sad if my mother passed away..."
She turned her head again and buried her face in his palm.
However, Shen Wangjin couldn't help but stiffen his body.
He actually always knew how much she had endured, but he only knew it.
But after she said it herself, that feeling seemed to penetrate into his body.
It turned out that what he had inflicted on her was such pain.