No matter how deep or severe the pain is, it will be healed one day after being washed away by the flow of time.
What if she hides this pain?
He never mentioned it, never showed it to anyone, and even pretended not to remember it.
Such a wound will never recover. One day it will open again, still bleeding and getting deeper day by day.
Just like this moment.
Ye Xi said that when Xiaoxiao died, she didn't cry much and didn't seem to be very sad.
But how can you not be sad?
She just... didn't dare to be sad.
"Xiaoxiao won't blame you." Huo Jinxi said in a low voice, "If she wants to blame, she will only blame me."
Mu Qian cried until she sobbed, as if she couldn't hear his words at all.
"Give me the old photo of Xiaoxiao." Huo Jinxi said.
He bore the injuries and pain that she didn't dare to face on her behalf.
Even if we know that some pain cannot be shared, it is better for two people to suffer than for one person to endure it.
Mu Qian's mood never calmed down for a long time.
It had been a long time since she had collapsed and lost her temper like this, and this time, it was in front of Huo Jinxi.
It's not that she can't bear it, but since she returned to Tongcheng, Xiaoxiao's story has been revealed again and again, making her unable to have peace in another world.
The guilt in her heart finally had nowhere to hide.
All this had nothing to do with him originally, but he said that he was the father of the child.
Xiaoxiao was only three years old when she left. If she didn't mention it deliberately, she still couldn't understand the meaning of her father and mother.
But Xiaoxiao has a friend in the same apartment building. Her friend has a father and a mother, so the little girl will occasionally ask her: "Mom, where is my father? Why does Jenny have a mother and a father, but I only have a mother?"
?”
The father she is curious about is him...
Mu Qian gave Huo Jinxi a cloud disk account, where there were all traces of Xiaoxiao's past, traces that she didn't dare to look back on.
Huo Jinxi went to the video room alone, while Mu Qian sat alone in his office, lost in thought for a long time.
She didn't know how long Huo Jinxi had been there until Zhuang Yan cautiously opened the door and walked in. While changing her a cup of hot tea, he whispered to her: "Miss Mu, it's almost two o'clock and you haven't eaten yet.
, do you want to order something to eat for you?”
Mu Qian shook her head.
Zhuang Yan hesitated for a moment and then added: "When Mr. Huo went to the audio-visual room, he asked not to disturb him. He was sick and had been working hard for several days. We were all worried that Mr. Huo's body would not be able to bear it..."
Mu Qian didn't answer her.
Seeing her expression, Zhuang Yan didn't know what to say, so he could only retreat silently.
After sitting alone for a long time, Mu Qian slowly stood up and walked out of the office.
Huo's headquarters has thousands of employees, and a special floor has been allocated as a place for employees to relax. There are a total of six audio-visual rooms, all of which are cinema-level.
Mu Qian pushed open the doors of the five audio-visual rooms in front, but they were all empty.
She stood at the door of the sixth room for a long time before finally gently pushing the door open.
As soon as she opened the door a crack, she was greeted by the laughter deep in her memory.
Mu Qian subconsciously wanted to leave, but she was still unable to take a step forward, and even the hand that pushed the door open could not be taken back for a long time.
The sound of laughter kept coming from the crack in the door. She was laughing, making trouble, screaming, and calling her: "Mom! Mom!"
Mu Qian finally couldn't help it and looked in through the crack in the door.
On the big screen, Xiaoxiao was happily running around on the grass in the park, as if she was playing hide-and-seek with the aunt who was recording the video. When the aunt was about to catch her, she suddenly turned around and pounced.
To Mu Qian who was sitting under the tree reading a book.
Mu Qian was concentrating on reading the book when she suddenly threw her into her arms. He could only throw away the book in his hand and hugged her tightly, "I've got you!"
Xiaoxiao suddenly screamed and laughed, and the mother and daughter made a fuss under the tree.
Huo Jinxi sat in the middle seat and watched quietly, occasionally coughing uncontrollably, but looking at the mother and daughter laughing and making trouble on the screen, he still couldn't help but smile.
The pictures on the screen had been playing for more than four hours, and most of them were similar scenes, but he seemed to not be able to see enough and was always watching with concentration.
Until suddenly there was someone beside him.
Huo Jinxi turned around and saw Mu Qian.
She looked at the big screen quietly, her face always calm.
Until Xiaoxiao's round little face appeared on the screen again, and the voice-over was from her aunt saying to her: "Come on, mommy is going to school. Xiaoxiao should record a birthday greeting for mommy!"
So Xiaoxiao immediately sang a birthday song to the camera, clapping her hands and keeping time while singing. After singing, she leaned in front of the camera again, stared at the camera with her eyes wide open, and said: "Mom, happy birthday, every day."
Happy, love you!"
After saying that, she pouted and kissed the camera. Her small face was enlarged and distorted by the camera.
Mu Qian suddenly laughed uncontrollably. After laughing, tears fell again uncontrollably.
Huo Jinxi reached out and held her hand tightly.
"She loves you very much," Huo Jinxi said, "because she knows how much you love her."
Mu Qian raised her arms to cover her eyes, but she cried uncontrollably again.
Huo Jinxi lifted the armrest of the seat between them and hugged her into his arms again.
Her whole body was cold, but his body was hot, and the tempered temperature was so ironing that it made people feel trance-like.
In these short twenty years, she seems to be constantly looking for support.
Before she was ten years old, she relied on her father;
After her father passed away, she relied on her mother;
After her mother abandoned her, she relied on the Huo family and her grandfather;
After the age of sixteen, she relied on Huo Jinxi.
Before losing him, she had already lost too much. She once regarded him as the only one, so that she could not get out of the predicament of losing him for a long time.
The uneasiness and fear when she first arrived in the United States, the loss of hope of getting back together with her mother, the worry and fear caused by pregnancy, and the strong physiological reaction caused by pregnancy... She was only eighteen years old at the time, and all kinds of circumstances imposed on her
Even if nothing happens during the day, I still can't help but hide and cry secretly in the middle of the night.
Even though I was completely heartbroken, I still saw him in my dreams at those nights.
In the dream, he was still her reliance.
But when she woke up, in reality there was only her and the child in her belly.
She woke up from her dreams again and again and finally accepted the reality.
After that, the child became her support.
However, she eventually lost this reliance.
She seemed to be losing all the time, and in the end even losing became a habit, leaving only herself.
When she finally learned not to look for new people to rely on, but to face everything on her own, his embrace appeared again.