After hearing what Qianxing said, Huo Jinbei remained calm.
When she said "I like you", there was no expression on his face;
When he heard her say, "Do you want to know what I really look like?", he still had no expression on his face.
He didn't even intend to answer her at all, he just stared at her quietly, as if she didn't care whether he said anything or not.
Qianxing didn't seem to expect his answer, so she wasn't disappointed at all by his appearance.
Instead, she continued to speak——
"You already know about Huang Ping." Qianxing looked at him, her expression no longer perverse and rebellious. She was calm and calm, as if she was still telling someone else's story, "Before I met Huang Ping, I
Very well behaved."
Because she clearly knows her origins and her situation, she is very well-behaved.
Because she has no father or mother, she relies entirely on her uncle to raise her. Therefore, even though her uncle and aunt are not friendly to her and her cousins boss her around, she is still very well-behaved.
Until she met Huang Ping.
After that incident, she realized that sometimes, no matter how good or obedient she is, it's useless.
"Do you know what kind of people those hooligans and gangsters like to bully the most on the street?" Qianxing said, "It's those girls who look honest and timid - the more well-behaved they are, the easier they are to be manipulated."
That's why Huang Ping took a fancy to her.
But at that time, no one was on her side.
No one spoke for her, no one stood up for her, no one even believed her——
When something like this happened, her closest relatives, the only people she could rely on and rely on, only thought she was embarrassing and had brought trouble.
Since then, she has lost her last relative.
"Since being a good girl has no good results at all, then I'll just be a bad girl." She said lightly, "At least that way, I can protect myself."
Huo Jinbei's eyes froze slightly, but the expression on his face remained unchanged.
"I don't need to care about other people's opinions or anyone's care and help, but I must protect myself." Qianxing said, "I have done nothing wrong. I should live well, live magnanimously, and live well."
Be brave and live better than anyone else."
Huo Jinbei finally said in a deep voice: "That's true."
However, Qianxing slowly shook his head and said, "But later, I realized how ridiculous my existence was."
Huo Jinbei couldn't help but stare.
"Before that, no matter how difficult my life at my uncle's house was, I was never disappointed." Qianxing looked at him, as if he was trying hard to smile, but his eyes turned red uncontrollably, "Because I have always been
I feel that no matter how hard my life is, I can't live up to the life my mother gave me."
At this point, she finally laughed and said: "Although I have never met her, I think she must be a gentle woman who is surrounded and filled with love. Otherwise, how could she rather be ridiculed and scolded with a blank stare?
She wanted to give birth to me, but she refused to reveal my father's identity to my uncle. It must be because they were in love, but something unavoidable happened and they were forced to separate. But even so, my mother had to take care of herself.
Life gave birth to me, so I cannot let her down."
She bit her lip, and her face gradually filled with self-mockery: "But Song Qingyuan appeared, and he broke the last beauty in my heart and made me sober up. It turns out that I am not a witness of love, not a crystallization of love, I am just,
It's a tool used for blackmail."
Huo Jinbei's hand behind his back clenched into a fist uncontrollably.
"The reason why she was pregnant with me but chose to give birth to me was so that after I was born, she could use me to negotiate terms with Song Qingyuan, and even give him a severe blow." Qianxing said, "That's why she couldn't ask Song Qingyuan for help."
My uncle revealed who my biological father was, because according to my uncle's and aunt's temperament, they would go to Song Qingyuan to ask for benefits before I was born, which would ruin her plan. But she never thought of it.
What's surprising is that I actually died when I was giving birth to me. I don't know whether this is a tragedy or a comedy."
"This is also not your fault." Huo Jinbei said, "We don't have a choice about our origins."
Qianxing nodded slowly, seeming to agree with his words, but the next moment, she slowly lowered her eyes and said: "But the faith I relied on for my life collapsed. There is nothing in my life that can support me."
I live my life as openly and bravely as before."
Huo Jinbei's eyes fell directly on her drooped eyelids, and he slowly said, "I can't either, right?"
Qianxing didn't expect him to ask this. After being stunned for a moment, he slowly shook his head and said, "You couldn't do it at that time."
It's not that it's impossible, it's that the time is too short and the bond is too shallow, so it's not enough.
At that time, Huo Jinbei was not enough to become her belief.
"What about me now?" Huo Jinbei said, "I still can't do it now, can I?"
Qianxing suddenly raised her head, met his gaze, and moved her lips, clearly trying to explain something, but seemed unable to say anything.
Indeed, from the beginning to now, all her performances seemed to indicate that he still couldn't do it.
"So what is the meaning of these words you came to me today?" Huo Jinbei asked again.
Qianxing paused for a while before finally speaking: "I don't want you to be unhappy because of me... I want you to know that you don't deserve to be unhappy for me."
"Okay." Huo Jinbei replied bluntly, "I received it. Is there anything else you want to say?"
Qianxing stared at him again, but could not say a word.
"Since there is no such thing, I'll go back first."
After saying this, Huo Jinbei turned around and walked towards the gate of the community.
Qianxing watched his back and saw him walking further and further away without looking back.
The security guard at the gate of the community had been standing there looking around for a long time. Seeing him striding towards him, he quickly opened the door for him.
Huo Jinbei was about to enter when suddenly there was a burst of panic and hasty footsteps behind him——
Then, two slender arms appeared on his waist, wrapping around him tightly.
Qianxing almost lost control, burying her face in his vest, tears pouring out uncontrollably.
"You can, you can..." Her voice was fragmentary and chaotic, mixed with tears and almost inaudible.
But Huo Jinbei could hear every word clearly.
"...It's just that I don't dare..."
Huo Jinbei stared at the distance. After a long time, he finally exhaled slowly and said, "So I won't force others to do anything."