This idea is probably the closest thing to a "dream" in her life.
But this dream is so far away and so vague.
That was indeed a long time ago, so that for many years after that, Qianxing never thought of this dream again.
Or maybe she can no longer pursue this dream.
After Huang Ping's incident happened, she clearly realized for the first time how helpless her life was. No one was on her side, no one would help her, no one would protect her——
She has nothing but herself.
Since that time, she has been drifting away from her so-called "dream".
After that incident, her grades plummeted.
The teacher talked to her many times, and also went to her uncle and aunt, but her uncle and aunt didn't bother to pay attention to her at all, and there was nothing she could do.
She is not that smart, nor is she lucky enough. Even if she puts in all her efforts, she can only try her best to protect herself and struggle to move forward in her studies.
But at that time, she still had faith in her heart -
The mother fought tooth and nail to give birth to her "love", which was her faith.
Therefore, even if life is difficult, even if she can no longer focus all her attention on studying, she still feels that she can live a good life in the future.
Therefore, even though her grades in her senior year of high school were no longer enough to get into a general undergraduate program, she did not give up on herself and became an art student.
Other art students are participating in training everywhere, trying to get more certificates and awards, and make the best preparation for the future college entrance examination.
But she had nothing, no money to attend training classes, and no money to participate in extracurricular activities.
All she could do was steal from the dance class outside the school.
It was also in that dance studio that she met Zhuang Yibo, and from then on she finally received a hint of fate.
Zhuang Yibo is completely different from her. She is a proud girl who has had a dream of dancing since she was a child, so when Zhuang Yibo reached out to her, it really helped her a lot.
Later, it was Zhuang Yibo who easily passed Tongda University's dance major exam, while she gritted her teeth and tried her best to pass the exam just under the score line.
After the college entrance examination scores came out, the two joined hands to enter Tongda University.
That was supposed to be the place where she got a new life, but Song Qingyuan appeared again.
He easily defeated her remaining faith, and it would be no exaggeration to say that her subsequent life was one of wandering and self-destruction.
The only remaining faith in life has also collapsed, and there seems to be nothing to pursue in life, and "dreams" are even more of a luxury among luxuries.
What's more, the dreams she experienced were in such huge contrast with her own life——
That's why I feel ashamed to speak up.
Because it's too far away, too misty, too ridiculous, too ridiculous.
How could she deserve such a dream in a life full of holes like hers?
I just feel that speaking out is tarnishing the career that was once my dream.
So she had already forgotten about that unattainable dream.
Until that day, when I was taking a bus with Huo Jinbei, I happened to get off at this stop, and happened to walk into the trial court to listen to a trial.
She subconsciously resisted such a place and did not want to go in or listen to any court hearing that had nothing to do with her.
But the person holding her hand and leading her in was Huo Jinbei, and she was unable to break away.
That kind of environment was unfamiliar to her and made her a little anxious, but she could only try her best to endure it, so her whole person felt miserable.
But that night, she dreamed of the trial court again.
The next day, the interview took place right across from the court.
After the interview, she stood across the street and stared blankly at the strange yet familiar building in front of her for a long time. Then, as if by accident, she walked in again.
From then on, it was like this every day.
She goes out early and comes back late every day, but she spends most of her time in the court, sitting in the gallery, listening to the arguments and eloquent arguments in the court in a daze.
And why?
Probably because she suddenly remembered her long-forgotten dream——
Even though she could never touch that dream again, she still couldn't help but want to see what it would be like if this dream could come true.
Although those were other people's looks, she still wanted to see them.
Or, while watching, she can have a dream, a "what if" dream,
Such secret and obscure thoughts cannot be expressed in words.
But the person she met was Huo Jinbei.
In her life plan, his presence should not have existed at all, but he squeezed in so forcefully, and there was no way to exclude it.
Besides, she couldn't bear to rule it out at all.
So, facing him, what else could she not say?
No matter how shameful and embarrassing it was...she shouldn't have hidden it from him.
Because she knew clearly that even if the whole world laughed at her, Huo Jinbei would not.
But when she finally said it, she still couldn't control it, and she burst into tears due to the tearing and fluctuations in her heart.
Huo Jinbei stretched out his hand, held her hand wrapped around his waist, and then slowly turned around.
Her eyes were red, her face was stained with tears, and she was extremely embarrassed.
Huo Jinbei stretched out his hand and wiped away the tears on her face bit by bit.
"If you want to be a lawyer, then go ahead and do it." He said almost sighing, "Why are you crying?"
Qianxing was suddenly startled, and raised her eyes to meet his gaze, as if she saw... some alien creature that she had never seen before.
…
That night, Qianxing was very silent after returning home, and fell asleep quickly after taking a shower.
For the next few days, Qianxing was silent.
This kind of silence has nothing to do with the relationship or state between the two people. Every morning and evening when she is with Huo Jinbei, she always tries to find a lot of topics to talk about, but she always falls into a state of trance while talking.
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In addition, she no longer leaves early and comes home late as before. She always stays at home obediently until about two o'clock in the afternoon before going out to work in the dance class.
I probably never went to the trial court again.
A few days later, Huo Jinbei had a rare day off and took Qianxing out again.
Counting on the fingers, this was the second time the two of them went out on a date, so Qianxing was very much looking forward to today's date.
It turned out that the place Huo Jinbei took her to was the largest book center in Bincheng.
Qianxing was stunned as soon as he entered, and immediately fell into a sleepy state again, "Are you going out to buy professional books? If I had known it, I wouldn't have come out with you. I don't like reading books...otherwise
, I’ll go to the mall next door and wait for you, and come back to me after you’ve bought the book!”
After Qianxing finished speaking, she turned around and wanted to run away without waiting for his answer.
However, Huo Jinbei reached out and grabbed her, dragging her towards a certain area.
Twenty minutes later, Qianxing, who was following Huo Jinbei, held a thick stack of high school teaching aid materials in his hands, his eyes full of horror and confusion.
Huo Jinbei was still standing next to the bookshelf, carefully selecting the materials he wanted.
In this area, there were either students or parents around. Qianxing looked at this, then that, and when she received the other person's gaze, she felt uncomfortable all over her body.
"Huo Jinbei." She finally couldn't help calling him, "Why did you buy so many high school materials? Is it a gift for someone? Are you sure high school students will be happy receiving these things?"
"Whether high school students are happy or not is none of my business." Huo Jinbei replied without raising his head, "Because these are all for you."